The Confused One

My name is Charlotte Wells, age 23, daughter of Alexandra and Diego Wells. Sister to, Charlie Wells (my twin), 23, Cameron Wells, 20, And  Callum Wells, 17. I’m the only girl out of my siblings. I am 5’2, I have a light tan to my skin, light brown near blond hair, I have different coloured eyes which I got from my dad, one bright blue and one green, I am quite slim, a bit more than the average size boobs and bum. I don’t really have friends, I know that sounds sad AF but it’s only because I always had my twin brother so I never felt the need to make friends. Sometimes I wished I had a girl for a friend but my weird ass self never got along well with girls. When I was a kid I was very self centred, I was a mummy’s and daddy’s girl and got whatever I wanted by a little cry. My brother and I were supposed to take over the gang together and we did, we trained since young so when we finished training we actually stepped up however Charlie fell for a girl and in a few months him and Lyra had gotten married and a few months after that they were expecting a child, my nephew, he’s 3 now Elliot, after everything in his life changed he came to me and asked if I would mind if he stepped down, he promised to help with the gang which he does but I take all responsibility’s as boss. My right hand man is my brothers best friend Lucas Knight, Lucas and I have never gotten along, he’s been friends with Charlie since he was 3 and Charlie was 2. Lucas would always play pranks on me and I was a girly girl who hated it so I would always get revenge. Lucas would always try tell Charlie that he didn’t have to do all I told him to do. Charlie was born before me so he’s older but I was always the boss, and Charlie was always over protective so he would do whatever I wanted. Lately I have been feeling kinda down, I didn’t really understand why until I saw Charlie, Lyra and Elliot, it really hit hard seeing them all so close together as a family and I started to realise I wanted a family of my own too. I don’t have any luck with men, I’ve had a few relationships and i have men crawling to be with me but all they want is my body. After thinking about it over and over I decided that I would find a donor and be a single mother. I really want a child and I think that that’s the best option for me. I wanted to tell someone however i feel way too uncomfortable telling my family and since I don’t have any friends of my own there’s only one person I could confide in.  Lucas. I called Lucas to my office because as well as wanting to tell someone I also wanted his help as a guy to help me go through the lists of guys that the clinic gave me. It’s awkward and I can’t really figure out what I should do and a guy option should help and make the decision easier. I need help today because tomorrow I will be going into the clinic, I know it’s soon but since I will pay a lot they will get it done as soon as possible and so I don’t have to wait years like many people have to.