The Confused One

Episode 2

I sat in my office chair with all the sheets of at least 50 guys lying all over my desk, and at least 200 more on a pile next to me.

I read over and over them like one hundred times but I cannot figure out for the life of me who is the best pick.

These files have information about these guys, their hobbies, sports, health, family and more and it’s just very unnatural to me to know what’s good and what’s bad on a guy since I’m a woman.

I slightly jumped and was brought out thought when i heard someone knock on the door, I know it’s Lucas one because I called him here and two it’s too damn late for it to be someone else.

Lucas is always up till late hours at night just doing nothing, somehow he then wakes up at 5 am and goes on with his day, I don’t think he gets a healthy amount of sleep but who cares at least his weird sleeping schedule is coming in handy.

“Come in.” I answered.

I saw his head peep and look at me confused.

“What do you want?” He asked suspiciously.

“I need your help with making a decision.” I said simply.

“You, Charlotte Wells needs my help to make a decision.” He said dramatically.

“Stop being a god damn i***t and come in.” I told him off irritated at him already.

“Chill, and be nice to me you are asking for my help.” I said and sat down in the chair at the other end of my desk.

“Don’t tell me you want me to fill out paperwork.” He whined.

“Shut up.” I said and he looked at me with a fake hurt look on his face.

“What I’m going to tell you you can’t tell anyone about yet alright.” I said to him sternly, he looked confused but nodded never the less.

“I wanna have a baby.” I said not taking shortcuts, I saw pure confusion hit his face but soon it was away and he held a cocky smirk.

When I realised he thought I meant I needed his help to make the baby I proceeded to scream at him no.

“What do you want then?” He asked.

“I need your help picking out a guy from the files of donors the clinic gave me.” I told him and moved my hand over the files and his mouth did an O shape as he realised what was going on.

“Charlotte why don’t you ask your family for help.” He asked.

“It would be pretty damn awkward don’t you think.” I said and he nodded agreeing.

“You do know that this is gonna cost a f*****g fortune right?” He asked yet again another question.

“I have the money.” I simplified.

“Alright what do you want your kid to look like?” He asked as he picked up a file.

“I want my kid to look as much like me as possible, and I want my kid to be smart and healthy.” I said and he nodded and started flicking through the pages.

“Nope.” He said stuffing the file in the bin.

“What why?” I asked confused.

“This guy is as pale as a ghost I pretty sure those are his veins, picking him would mean your kid would not come out with your light tan but a ghost.” He answered and I frowned trying to understand how this was so easy for him.

I went and stood behind him so I could see the files he was throwing away.

“This ones ginger, nothing against gingers but the same reason as the last one, your kid wouldn’t come out looking all like you.” He continued throwing files away.

One picture of a guy stood out to me so I asked,

“What about that one?”

He flicked but then shook his head no.

“Why?” I asked confused.

“Well I’m not quite sure why they gave you his file as one he played rugby which can be tough on your you know what if not played safely and his swimmers have never gotten any female pregnant before.” He answered and I nodded with his decision.

247 more files laid at my bin most on the floor really as the bin over flowed.

I sat to the floor in disappointment.

How is there not one perfect guy.

They seemed to only give me really bad options, there was one guy who every time used the women who used him fell into miscarriage half way through the pregnancy.

I thought with all the money they require for this they would have better options.

I put my hands to my face and whined,

“I don’t know what to do.” 

“Charlotte you are like 23, you are not old, you will find a guy and then you can start a family.” Lucas said sitting on the floor next to me and bringing me in for a hug.

“Why are you being nice to me.” I asked suspiciously because since I was 2 years old this guy was never nice to me.

“I can see you are really bothered by this and I’m not an entire asshole.” He answered looking offended and I gave a little laugh that came out as a giggle.

“All the relationships I’ve had were s**t, I don’t want to be 40 when I finally have a baby.” I said rubbing my eyes.

“Go back to the clinic and ask them to give you more options.” Lucas said trying to be helpful.

“I was supposed to get it done tomorrow, and according to them they gave me the best guys.” I said and he gave me the what look.

“If those are the best guys I don’t want to see the worst, and tomorrow already, I thought you still had a couple of weeks are something.” He said.

“You know what I’m going to go to a bar, get drunk, f**k someone random and hope I get pregnant.” I said as I could not figure out another option, it’s not the way I hoped to lose my virginity but i will have to do, don’t make fun of me for being 23 and a virgin.

I was picking up my bag and about to head out when I heard Lucas say no, I turn to him and he’s still sitting in the exact same stop as if he was fighting with himself.

“I’ll do it.” Was the next thing to come out of his mouth and the thing that near made me die from shock.