PERFECT SECRET LOVE

Ye Wan Wan opened her eyes. She was faced with a pair of eyes that sent chills down her spine and made her soul quiver. "Ah——" Her pale fingers tightly twisted the duvet. Again, she had to endure the pain of her body being torn apart. Could this be hell? Why is it that I'm obviously dead but had to come back here, next to this devil? Her mind was muddled due to this man's scorching temperature and out of instinct, she resisted, "Don't touch me!" With one fluid movement, it was as if she was touched by ice. His ghostly, bloodthirsty expression clouded and his ice-cold lips bit down on her ruthlessly, as if wanting to swallow her whole. Ye Wan Wan was in such pain that she couldn't think straight. She muttered subconsciously, "Why... Why me... Si Ye Han... Why must it be me...?" "Because it has to be you." Hearing his deep and hoarse voice was like a shackle of chains that imprisoned her soul. Upon hearing the same answer he'd given her in her previous life, Ye Wan Wan fell into a coma. ... When she opened her eyes again, the darkness of the night sky had turned into daylight. A floral scent filled the air and the warm glow of the sun filtered in, momentarily dissipating her uneasiness. Yet, in the next second, Ye Wan Wan tensed up again. A strong sense of distress spread in her as the man awakened. His arm around her waist tightened. She was akin to a pillow, being held in his arms. "Still leaving?" Next to her ears whispered the voice that gave her the creeps. Out of her survival instincts, Ye Wan Wan shook her head. She was unsure whether he believed her. He glanced at her for a moment and then looked down, giving her little kisses on her lips, chin and neck... The heavy, hot breath buried in her neck gave her warning signs all over her body. She was like a deer who'd been bitten by a predator. She didn't dare move an inch. After what seemed like forever, he finally let her loose. In the next second, a surprisingly pleasant sight fell into Ye Wan Wan's view. He left the bed half-naked, the backlight outlining his slender stature and tapered waist. However, this view lasted only for a moment as he swiftly picked up his clothes by the bed and buttoned his shirt all the way to the top meticulously. It was only a while ago that he'd been as ferocious as a beast, but in this moment, his handsome face was cold without a trace of humanity. It wasn't until she heard the sound of the door shutting that Ye Wan Wan allowed her nerves to relax. She could finally reflect on her current situation. She slowly glanced at the furnishings around her, and also at her own reflection in the vanity mirror opposite. The black lips of the girl in the mirror had been gnawed at till there was only a faint colour left and the makeup on her face had been completely smeared by tears and sweat. On her body filled with bruises and hickeys was a horrific and bloody tattoo. She couldn't believe this was how she looked at only 20 years old! At that time, in order to distance herself from Si Ye Han, she purposely made herself look ugly and disgusting. Now she'd actually been... reborn... Suddenly, an overwhelming sense of fear and despair caused her to choke. Why.. . Why have I returned to 7 years in the past?! I'd rather die than return here, back by this devil's side. She clearly remembered that this was where she and Si Ye Han first had s*x, and she'd been tormented thoroughly for countless nights afterwards. She'd lost her lover, her family, even her dignity and freedom. She'd lost everything. Must I go through all of it again? No. Since God's given me a chance to live again, I have to change it all! Oh… But how am I going to change? To Si Yehan, crushing her was easier than crushing an ant. He got whatever he wanted. Ye Wanwan took a deep breath, forcing the fear of that man out of her. There must be a way! At least she was no longer the same stupid, mindless and impulsive teenager. "Oh my god! Wanwan…" She heard a sudden exclamation. Hearing this familiar voice, Ye Wanwan stiffened and turned to look at the door. Immediately, she saw the face of a person she'd never forget. A pretty face that people would never suspect— It was her best friend from her previous life! "Wanwan, how could Mr. Si do this to you?!" Shen Mengqi rushed over and held her hand. She looked at the messy bed and Wanwan's bruised body in astonishment. Ye Wanwan lowered her eyes, looking at her hand clenched in pain from Shen Mengqi's tight grip. This time, she didn't miss Shen Mengqi's clumsily hidden feelings of jealousy. "Wanwan, are you alright? Are you okay? Wanwan, don't scare me!" Shen Mengqi fretted anxiously. She saw that Wanwan's gaze was strange and wondered if she was traumatized. Ye Wanwan maintained her composure and drew her hands back. She shook her head and replied, "I'm fine." In her past life, the reason why she'd been tormented so relentlessly by Si Yehan was due in part to Shen Mengqi. She had many fights with Si Yehan and didn't dare tell anyone other than Shen Mengqi, her most trusted friend. Who would've known… Shen Mengqi actually had feelings for Si Yehan; she long coveted the title of "Mrs Si". On the surface, she was helping Wanwan, but she was actually using her to get closer to Si Yehan. She even tried to drive a wedge between them countless times and led Wanwan to be tortured by the wrath of Si Yehan each time. Wanwan hadn't noticed her level of deception before. She even felt deeply grateful to Shen Mengqi for being her wing woman. Staring at her own reflection in the mirror, Ye Wanwan couldn't help but smile wryly. Actually, this hideous disguise was Shen Mengqi's idea, and she actually agreed. No matter how others saw her, as long as Si Yehan loathed her, it'd be worth it. But what she hadn't anticipated was that despite her revolting appearance, Si Yehan could tolerate all of it. "How are alright when you look like this?! Wanwan, don't worry, I'll help you!" Shen Mengqi said, with a look of kindness. Ye Wanwan sneered in her heart. Oh, sure. The Shen Mengqi from her previous life had also been like this, generously offering to help her escape and asking for Gu Yueze's help. In the end, Shen Mengqi betrayed her and told Si Yehan that she was "eloping" with Gu Yueze. This had intensified her conflict with Si Yehan. From that point onwards, Si Yehan's temperament became cranky and unpredictable. His possessiveness towards her became intolerable. Facing Si Yehan head-on was like courting death. Why had she been so foolishly stubborn before? She'd even listened to Shen Mengqi and obeyed her, hurting herself again and again. The Ye family hadn't exacted their revenge yet. Her parents were still waiting for her at home and she still had to guide her older brother onto the right path. She had so much to do. She needed to pacify Si Yehan first; she couldn't do anything that would provoke him again. She set herself up against a terrifying enemy. "Wanwan, wait for me! I'll come back for you!" Shen Mengqi, only caring for herself, spoke words devoid of meaning. She then left. Once Shen Mengqi left, Ye Wanwan's helpless and fragile expression turned cold and numb. Shen Mengqi's countless attempts to encourage her to escape hadn't succeeded. The last time, she was accused of having an affair. It was like Shen Mengqi was determined to the death to ruin her life. So let's find out… Who will die this time. In the blink of an eye, three days passed. In those three days, Ye Wan Wan spent her time mostly sleeping and reflecting on her memory of her previous life. Si Ye Han was no different from the past. For three whole days, he didn't appear at all. The servants at the house were all buried in their work and rarely spoke to her. They didn't even dare to make any eye contact. Such an enormous house but it was like a crypt. Ye Wan Wan changed into her pyjamas and looked at the time. She immediately walked towards the yard. The moonlight was beautiful with a gentle breeze, easing her fear of the terrifying memories of the cage she was trapped in. This garden actually had a nice view. After all, it had been designed by Si Ye Han himself. He hired the world's top group of architects and it took five full years to finish building it in the top location in Imperial City. It was such a pity that in her previous life, she hadn't appreciated it. She abhorred this cage that imprisoned her and only wanted to destroy it. In plain sight, she could see a large, burnt patch of grass, an intentionally cut flowerbed and a murky pond... these were all her "masterpieces". "Wan Wan——" Then, a familiar voice abruptly resounded in the evening wind. Ye Wan Wan looked up from a withered rose in the direction of the voice. Under the dim light, she could see a man dressed in an expensive and luxurious suit. He was charming and... classy. She had to admit, Gu Yue Ze did in fact captivate her. Si Ye Han, that devil, paled in comparison with him. Gu Yue Ze stood a few steps away from her and frowned. Ye Wan Wan noticed his subtle reaction, so she took a look at her clothes. At that moment, she was still in her heavy metal clothes, with a thick mess of makeup on her face. As her wardrobe didn't have any regular clothes, she thought she might as well maintain her old image. She also didn't want to arouse suspicion by changing drastically in such a short period of time. Gu Yue Ze stared at her coldly, his expression filled with disappointment, "Wan Wan! How could you degrade yourself like this?" Degrade myself? Ye Wan Wan tasted these words, mocking her. In her previous life, she'd given him her entire heart. In order to prove her loyalty to him, she'd made herself dress so strangely and repulsively. But in the end, all she got in return was him saying that she degraded herself. She knew that Shen Meng Qi spoke ill of her in front of Gu Yue Ze, but if this man had the slightest affection for her, he wouldn't believe anything Shen Meng Qi said. Since Shen Meng Qi was her best friend, she came over often to keep her company. Thus, she could come in and out as she pleased. She even allowed Gu Yue Ze in secretly. Just as Ye Wan Wan was about to speak, a chill went up her spine. Si Ye Han... He's here! She was instinctively aware of that man's presence. In her previous life, she didn't realize Shen Meng Qi betrayed her. Si Ye Han watched her in the dark the whole time she cheated on him, marking the beginning of her nightmare... Ye Wan Wan sighed gently, forcing herself to ignore the presence of Si Ye Han. She looked at Gu Yue Ze indifferently, chuckled and asked, "I wonder which perspective you're questioning me from? That of my ex-fiance? Or... my brother-in-law?" Gu Yue Ze's expression turned heavy at Ye Wan Wan's sarcasm, "Wan Wan, I know you blame me, but I was also helpless. Whatever happened, I'm responsible for what you've become today. Leave with me now and I'll take you out of Imperial City!" In her previous life, Ye Wan Wan felt that she lost herself and let Gu Yue Ze down. She didn't even fight back when he said all those nasty words to her. She was moved when he said she was forgiven and was touched that he wanted to bring her home, thinking she was still in his heart. She had simply been dumb. Who knew he was just acting out of pride? In any case, she was once Gu Yue Ze's fiancee, but now she'd become Si Ye Han's lover. If people found out, wouldn't he lose all his pride? Just as Gu Yue Ze appealed for her to leave with him, Ye Wan Wan felt a drastic drop in the temperature of the surrounding air. In the darkness only a few steps away from Ye Wan Wan: The man's expression was as dark as the night. His hostility raged uncontrollably, as if he could crush a man and engulf him whole, not leaving a single trace behind. Si Ye Han's assistant, Xu Yi, was sweating buckets and both legs were trembling. What a life I have to witness the boss' woman eloping with another man late at night! Ever since this woman Ye Wan Wan had appeared, the servants hadn't had an easy day. Once the boss went into a rage, they all suffered. And this woman's forte was provoking Si Ye Han. This time, boss' anger would certainly be enough to burn the entirety of Imperial City to ashes! Xu Yi closed his eyes in despair. He knew even without looking what was coming. Seeing that Ye Wan Wan wasn't moving, Gu Yue Ze got impatient. He reached out to grab her arm, wanting to pull her away. But Ye Wan Wan quickly took a step back, avoiding his touch. "Wan Wan?" Gu Yue Ze frowned. Ye Wan Wan replied coldly, "Gu Yue Ze, did I say I wanted to leave with you?" Gu Yue Ze gave her a pitiful gaze, "Wan Wan, Si Ye Han is toying with you. Why must you humiliate yourself just to get back at me?" The Ye Wan Wan he knew was head-over-heels for him and always did his bidding. Thus, Gu Yue Ze thought she was just trying to seek his attention. "Humiliate myself?" Ye Wan Wan laughed like she just heard a joke. She sneered, "Si Ye Han is richer than you, more powerful than you, of a higher class than you, and has a better body than you. Sleeping with him once is better than being with you for a lifetime! How do you have the confidence to say such things?" "You..." Gu Yue Ze never imagined that Ye Wan Wan would say those words. His mood darkened. At the same time, the man in the darkness with rage like a beast suddenly calmed down. Xu Yi was surprised and looked in Ye Wan Wan's direction. Why is Miss Ye acting so strangely today? This is out of character--isn't she deeply in love with Gu Yue Ze? She should be happy to elope with him! Maybe she's playing hard to get? This time, Gu Yue Ze was really angry. He warned her, "Wan Wan, stop throwing a tantrum. Si Ye Han is a vicious, violent and bloodthirsty man. Do you know how many have died in his hands? Staying with a man like him... don't you care for your life?" In response to Gu Yue Ze's harsh warning, Ye Wan Wan yawned lazily. She glanced at him sideways and replied faintly, "So what? Dying under a peony flower such as Si Ye Han, you'd be happy even as a ghost~" Xu Yi in hiding: "!!!" Peo... Peony Flower!!! Damn! This woman is so different today, is she under a spell?" How can she compare our boss to a peony?! Boss is handsome, even speaking as a guy. But even though he's really good looking, anyone who knows him well enough, knows how violent he is. Xu Yi discreetly sneaked glances at his boss, but unfortunately couldn't make out his emotions from those dark eyes. Is boss... angry or not? At this moment, Gu Yue Ze looked at the girl who stood in front of him. A girl who was filled with hatred and spoke so viciously. He warned her with the last bit of his patience, "Fine... fine! Since you won't come to your senses, next time you have regrets, don't blame me for not coming to you today! Ye Wan Wan, I've done my best to help you!" Ye Wan Wan relaxed a little when Gu Yue Ze finally stormed off. If she had been in her previous life, she'd have to face the wrath of Si Ye Han. However, she managed to change the course of her life this time since Gu Yue Ze had left while Si Ye Han... Hmm, she wasn't sure when his presence had disappeared. Did I pass the test? Si Ye Han's temperament was treacherous and unpredictable so Ye Wan Wan didn't dare let her guard down. After easing her mood, she walked back into the house. Once she stepped into the living room, that familiar voice penetrated into every pore of her body. "Come here." On the sofa, the man's open gaze was like a net, spread wide for her. Ye Wan Wan stood rooted to the ground. Even though she'd been reborn, her fear for this man was still buried deep in her bones and would never go away. But, if she wanted to change her fate, she had to overcome this fear. Ye Wan Wan dug her nails into her palms to maintain her composure and slowly walked towards him... As she came closer, she was swept onto the man's lap in a swift second, followed by a sudden pain on her lips—— The thin cold lips pressed down hard against hers and nibbled, not missing an inch... Ye Wan Wan didn't move. She forced herself not to resist in order to prevent infuriating him. She couldn't help but think that the lipstick that she'd put on today was wilder than before; she looked as if she'd been poisoned. Didn't the colour hurt his eyes? How could he kiss her so passionately? She met Si Ye Han when she was 18. For two whole years, she disguised herself with many different personas, thinking that there must be one that would be revolting to him. She wouldn't have tortured herself to look like this if she'd known better. After that thought, Ye Wan Wan suddenly came around. She was actually daydreaming in the arms of Si Ye Han? Once she came around, she was surprised to feel a weight on her neck. Si Ye Han was hugging her like a pillow and resting his head on her neck. His breath was hot against her neck, coming in long and steady rhythms. He fell asleep... How could that be!? Ye Wan Wan didn't dare make a sound until half an hour later when Si Ye Han was still without movement. She whispered, "Si Ye Han...?" He didn't react. He was really asleep! Not far off, the worried Xu Yi stood by the gate. He witnessed what had happened and was surprised too. His eyes were wide open like he'd seen something unbelievable. Ye Wan Wan was astonished as well. She clearly remembered that Si Ye Han had a serious case of insomnia. His body was also more resistant to drugs than ordinary people, so meds weren't effective on him. Each time he wanted to go to bed, he needed a professional psychologist to perform hypnotism. Worst of all, aside from being abnormal, he had a strong psychological barrier too. So, it was extremely hard for him to be hypnotized. When he was in a bad mood, hypnotism was totally useless. The Si family hired an innumerable number of well-known doctors for him, but there was no cure. Ye Wan Wan saw Xu Yi's look of surprise. She opened her mouth to talk but Xu Yi quickly put a finger to his lips to silence her. He then put his palms together to plead her and mouthed: "The 9th Master hasn't slept for 3 days!" Hadn't slept for 3 days? Could this be because of her running away? In the past 2 years, she hadn't given up on running away. This time had been her closest to freedom--just a little more and she would've been able to get on that overseas cruise... But there was a high price to pay. Before, although Si Ye Han forced her to stay by his side, he had never touched her. The first time he did was three days ago. This was why she had believed her disguise to be effective all along. Just when Xu Yi heaved a sigh of relief, a thunderous ring from the phone resounded throughout the living room, disturbing the silence. Xu Yi was scared out of his wits and nearly tossed the phone away. He quickly turned it off. But it was too late. The devil had been awoken. It slowly opened its eyes, not showing a trace of humanity. It looked towards him with eyes that shot daggers and the colour in Xu Yi's body drained. Ye Wan Wan was also in a state of shock! Si Ye Han had a horrendous temper whenever he woke up. If he was disturbed during his sleep, that was akin to the end of the world. Panicking, Ye Wan Wan stretched out her hands. She covered Si Ye Han's eyes with one hand and tugged his head against her shoulders with the other, whilst caressing his soft hair with her fingers, "It's okay... Go to sleep..." One second went by... Two seconds went by... Three seconds went by... Si Ye Han did not move. A while later, Ye Wan Wan carefully removed the hand covering Si Ye Han's eyes. The man had shut his eyes quietly and had fallen into a deep sleep again. Xu Yi's blood finally started flowing; he had nearly collapsed just now. He looked at Ye Wan Wan with eyes of gratitude. Ye Wan Wan stayed in the same position the entire night. Unsure of when she fell asleep, when she awoke, it was already morning. She was lying on the big bed in the master bedroom, with no sign of Si Ye Han in the house. Ye Wan Wan rubbed her eyes and sat up. The hand she rubbed her eyes with was smeared with eyeliner, fake eyelashes, and glitter eyeshadow. Every girl wants to look beautiful and would know that sleeping with makeup on damages the skin. But for these past 2 years, she never dared to remove her makeup even before going to bed. Conversely, now that she knew that her disguise wasn't working, she felt a little freer. She could finally be herself again... Ever since she was 18, a flower blossoming age for girls, she had never met anyone without her disguise. She had almost forgotten how she looked like without it. Firstly, would be the big, bloody, horrific tattoos on her body. Fortunately, she was afraid of pain so she didn't listen to Shen Meng Qi's advice to get permanent tattoos--the ones on her body could be washed off with soap. Ye Wan Wan searched high and low and finally found the soap in a box filled with various other things. She brought the detergent, makeup remover, cotton pads and a pack of facial masks that Si Ye Han had given her previously in the bathroom. She first removed the numerous ear studs and heavy gold earrings, then the dog chain around her neck. Next, she removed her make up. Finally, she poured the soap into the bathtub and soaked her entire body in it..