Chapter 1

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"I love you," I unconsciously said to her while I was looking intently into her beautiful eyes. Oh, God knows, I could stare at it all day. Is she been like this pretty before? Oh, well, I think I've been saying that since day one. I even widely smiled when I saw her smile back as she replied, "I love you too, Lau," I felt butterflies again in my stomach whenever she says those words. 'I am so in love with her.' That's all I could think about. "Hey, you're staring at me again," She chuckled as she playfully moved my face away. Because of that, I pouted as I looked at her. "I thought you love me?" I said, mocking her. Mila glared at me, which makes me suddenly laughed and take all that I've said, "I'm just kidding, geez," I pretended that it was a joke, but I am dying to hear her answer again.   Because... it feels right, and it makes me feel that she truly loves me more than as a friend. "Of course, I love you! You're my friend, right?" She smiled at me again as she waved her hand, "I'll go, for now, time to go home, amigo!" Mila said and gave me a wink. My smile suddenly fades away as soon as she called me her friend. Even though I'm not asking for anything, it still hurts to realize that I'll be forever a friend to her. I watched her walked away from me as I began to think about my plans in life. People always ask me about my love life, when will be the time will I get a boyfriend? They all don't know that Mila is my love life. She is the one for me, and it's so sad that I couldn't even confess my feelings for her. My family wouldn't be proud if they know that I fell in love with a girl. I grew up to be a straight woman. I even date guys, but when I've met her? It turns upside down. I forgot everything and just let myself fell for her. I don't even know if what I'm doing. The only thing I know is that I fell hard. Falling for her feels like a crime meaning it's prohibited, a sin, whatever it is, but falling for her was the best decision I've made. It was joyful but hurtful too. Sometimes, I wonder things like what if she likes me too? Will we be lovers too? What it's like to be a lover? Was it good? Bad?   Friends into lovers isn't a bad idea, right? It's a start of a beautiful story, it may not work for some people, but it will on others. I know that this battle of mine is a losing game, but I keep on trying and trying until I'm the one who will get tired and walk away from this. It was never an easy situation, especially that we're same-s*x and she's my friend, to begin with. The saddest part of this story that is I'm the only one who knows that I love her. I don't want Mila to get uncomfortable with the people around her. She deserves the best, and I would do everything to give her that. It's so frustrating to love someone who is forbidden. What should I do? She only likes men. "Hey," I looked at the young man as soon as I was snapped back from reality, "You're spacing out again, Ms. Lauren." I chuckled as I playfully slapped his shoulder. "Shut up, Jacob," I responded as I look out at the whole room. I looked at my list as I watched everyone fixing things here at the Factory, "Make sure that everything's right, Jacob. I couldn't afford to be short on things," I warned him seriously. "Yes, Madame," He replied right away as he saluted at me, "What about your love life? You might also not afford to be short on that area?" He added mockingly, so I hit him again on his shoulder in annoyance. This man! "Damn you!" I murmured and hit him again, but he was able to catch my hand, which makes him smirk. "Yes, Madame?" He asked with a grin. "Let go," I coldly said, and he quickly did what I told him as he raised both of his hands in defeat. "Chill, you are so moody today," Jacob commented as he follows me when I started walking at the aisle while I check every stock that my eyes will lay on. Today is our inventory day, and I need to make sure that we count everything right, so we could avoid being short on our materials and I assigned Jacob to be in charged. "Where's Mila, by the way? She went home so early?" Jacob asked again while we both counting at the stocks that I stopped by while looking at my lists. I wanted to roll my eyes at him for asking me questions like that because today is not my day. "Yeah, she went on a date with someone," I answered, trying to pull myself together. "Oh, that's new. Mila never leaves you whenever it's inventory day." Jacob said as he chuckled at what he's thinking, "Looks like someone is changing," He added, which made me glanced at him. "You think so?" My forehead creased in confusion as I waited for his answer. "You know it, you're the one who knows her well," Jacob replied, laughing softly, as he returned the material things when he finished counting them. The rest hours of my duty is all about thinking about her. Did she eat already? did the date went well? Is she dating him already? I'm worried that she might not eat anything. Maybe, I'll just come by to her apartment. I knew her for years, I was there through ups and downs, and I don't even know if she can see me. If the meaning of Dandelions were true, could you be our dandelions too?  
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