The Beast within

Chapter 37 I'm sorry

Casey’s P.O.V

  We were all sitting in the kitchen, eating, laughing and joking, I have been feeling a lot better since I woke, not at all like how I did after Jake marked and turned me, I felt like I was home, this was my new family now and I hope they felt the same way as I did. Ryan came into the kitchen and smiled as soon as he saw me.

  “How are you feeling? I'm glad you're awake, I was really worried about you.” Ryan said and it looked like he was trying to hold himself back from me.

  "Thank you for caring and understanding that I just need time, I know that we are mates and that you had to mark me and I'm grateful to you, but I don't want to rush into things.” I said, hoping he would see where I was coming from. 

  "I understand Casey, don't worry, I'll be here when you're ready to talk, I'm not going anywhere.” Ryan replied and I was so glad that he understood and was willing to give me time, but when I looked over Kacey had a strange look on her face and so did Katherine. What was wrong? Did I upset them by not accepting Ryan straight away? Were they angry with me? Did they hate me? Did they not see me as family and want me out?

  “Casey, this is my son Ryan and when my husband steps down from being Alpha, Ryan will be the next in line.” Kacey said, but I wasn't really surprised, I knew there was some kind of connection there, I just didn't know what until now. My phone started ringing, stopping the conversation, but when I looked at the screen it was an unknown number so I decided to answer it.

  “Hello? Who is this?” I asked and waited for a reply, but the only noise I could hear was someone breathing down the phone. I was about to hang up when the person on the other end finally spoke.

  “Casey, please don't hang up, it's Jake. I wanted to call and tell you that I am so sorry for betraying you and then trying to blame you for it. It was all my fault and I was thinking with my d**k instead of my head, but I just wanted to apologise to you.” Jake said, slightly babbling and I was speechless. I stayed quiet for a few minutes, trying to take in everything he had just said and then decided to reply to him.

  “Well at least you had the decency to apologise, even if you didn't have the decency to remain loyal. At least you finally realised that what you did was wrong. Thank you for calling, but I need to go,I'm spending time with my family.” I replied, trying to take the higher ground and be civil, I wasn't going to stoop to his level, no matter how much I felt like yelling at him.

  “Alright, I understand. Just know that if you ever need a friend to talk to, I'm here and again, I'm so deeply sorry.” Jake said and hung up the phone. I was surprised to hear from him and it made me wonder what made him call me now? What made him realise that this was his fault and not mine?

  Jake’s P.O.V

  I ended the call and switched my phone off, placing it back in my pocket. I was trying to save the battery, just in case I got bored and wanted to play a game or watch videos. Suddenly a blood curdling scream could be heard from a rogue being tortured, I didn't like this at all and covered my ears, trying to drown it all out. The hours went by and all I could hear were screams, it was horrible and then it suddenly stopped. A door flung open and two men in black cloaks came out, dragging a rogue across the floor, his body was bruised, beaten, battered and bloody, but they just threw him into a cell further down from mine. I heard the rogue cry out as he hit the cold hard ground when he landed with a thud. I don't like this, I don't like this at all, I thought to myself and sighed, pulling the tattered blanket over me and trying to cover myself up. I heard footsteps coming down the hall, but I didn't pay any attention to them, until I heard them stop outside my cell door. I looked up and saw that it was my mother.

  “I know I should let you rot down here in the cold for what you did and as the Luna I'm obligated to, but you're still my son.” my mom said, holding out a pillow and a warm blanket to me. I quickly got up, taking them through the bars and laying them down on the mattress, but when I turned around my mom was holding out something else. I walked over and saw that it was a bowl of hot chili to eat and help keep me warm.

  “Thanks mom.” I said, but she didn't reply, she didn't even nod or smile at me, she just turned around and left. I sighed, lying down and eating my chili and when I had finished I laid down, putting my head on the pillow and wrapping the warm blanket tightly around me. I had tears in my eyes at the thought of having to spend four months down here and I hoped that they went by fast. I hated this, I hated the smells, I hated the screams and the begging. If this is how it felt to be a rogue and locked up, then I would rather die than be a rogue and have to live like this. I wish I had never met Kelly, I wish I never mated with her, I wish I never marked her and above all I wish that Casey would forgive me.