“Okay. I'm sorry, go ahead.” I flick my hand lazily.
“Phhhheeewwwwww. It seems so silly now that I'm here and about to say it out loud to you. I was such a fool, but I thought you were too good for me. I believed that there would come a day when you realised I would never make you happy or fulfilled. I already loved you, and I didn't even have yet, and that fear was already bringing me so much pain. I knew that once I had you, I would only love you more. Once you rejected me, well, I was sure it would kill me. So I pushed you away, but it was like once I started doing that, I started losing my mind. I had all this anger inside of me, and I couldn't control it anymore. I made excuse after excuse. It was for my mom, and then it was because of Connor. Really it was because of me, because of
