Kpop (Girl x Girl Pairing)

ONE Words: 1500 words Pairing: SinRin/RinB Rating: NC-17 The television might look like interesting, but it doesn’t. She was looking through, but seems hearing nothing. What is her worth? How to go on if you don’t know where you belong. Her smell lingers here. Those giggles that are music to her ears; those are long gone. “I’ll be out, and be back at nine.” The younger from the look at the older girl who is fixing herself in front of the mirror. She doesn’t know what look to offer anymore. She is not that dumb not to notice that the older one is more fond of staying away from home; if this place could still be considered as home. She don’t know if she should ask who the older girl with. She don’t know if she still earns that right. Do they still need those goodbye kisses? Or it will just another sham move just to say they are together? Seven years of being in a relationship; she doesn’t know if that years is enough to say that she really knows her lover. What she learned; it’s not the time you are together that dictates how far you know your lover is. What she learned is time will comes that you will find yourself drifting away. “You change perfume?” She asked, a glance was given. Shrugged from the older girl is what she seen next. The question fall into a deaf ear. Sigh is all she can offer; she have nothing. “Yerin.” She murmur with her sweet and soft voice. The remote hit the carpeted floor. She is quivering; tears starting forming in her beautiful eyes. The once shimmering eyes of her is now clouded with tears. The old and same cause of it is no other than, Jung Yerin. She heard talking outside the room; she can feel the headache hitting her so much. The clock indicate it was already seven in the evening, who could be possibly outside. Yerin told her she will be out, but then she remember herself weeping in the older girl’s arm. “You’re awake? Dinner is ready.” Those smile that used to make her heart flutter, she don’t know what does it even mean now? She don’t know if that one is still sincere as the way it was. “I thought you will be with your friends?” She asked the girl; Yerin smile again as she settle the foods in the table. “You need me.” SinB don’t know if it is just her or Yerin really speaks it in a monotone. She was also confuse; does she really need Yerin? “Who is the person you are talking with?” Another question was throw. SinB watch Yerin preparing the food for her. The older girl was solemn as she do her thing. “Joy was outside.” That girl again, that name SinB is not fond hearing. She don’t need to ask what Joy doing here because Yerin was already giving her an answer. “Yeri and her broke up.” Broke up? That words spinning in SinB’s head; thinking if that is the most appropriate word to use for now, technically to do? SinB don’t know, but she can’t control anymore the words that escape her lips. She was controlled by the pain and the feeling loss right now. “Will Joy do the same when we broke up?” The sounds of the spoon hit the plate echoed to the quite room. As she look back to the older girl a blank look was what given to her. “We already talk about that thing, that was the last thing you should brought up.” Yerin is not the type of person who will shout on her, SinB knows that. Yerin was being the usual one she is when she is angry; she is using that staid tone again. Why is that to SinB it seems the older one is shouting at her? She don’t know if its Yerin, her or her ears that deceive her. “Will you act blind and prevalently think that we are doing fine? Before all the people it should be you who should know and notice that! You are too busy with your ownself that you forgot you have a lover.” SinB was trying hard not to yell, but her emotion is taking over her. All the thought that want to make her explode wants to come out now. “SinB.” That name, the way she call her like love wasn’t there anymore. It should be Bi or Baby; that’s how it used to be. That is what SinB got fond of. The way Yerin lovingly cal her. But it seems the feeling wasn’t there anymore. “Do you still know who I am?” SinB asked, but Yerin was just looking at her. She don’t know what that look trying to imply. She don’t know if the girl is in pain just like her. She don’t know if that look is sadness or what. “I know who you are, have you ask yourself the same thing?” Those words make SinB lost on her thought. She was quivering again. She don’t know how to calm down. This is hurting her chest. She want to cry it out, but her ego telling her not because for the first time she gone afraid of Yerin seeing her cry. “The head of your department asked why you were not in the office today.” Yerin told her out of nowhere. SinB watch the girl fade away from her sight. The door finally close. SinB can smell the new perfume Yerin was using all over the room. She look at the prepared food in the table; she don’t know if she have the strength to eat that up. “Have you talk to her?” SinB look at the petite girl in front of her. Playing with her drink using is the straw is what she found that can entertain her. The older one was just waiting for her answer patiently. “I don’t know what to say anymore.” SinB voice out honestly. When her and Yerin are talking she don’t know where to start. All the things are mixing in her head that she can’t think straight anymore. “I bring up break up.” SinB was not astonished to see that surprise look in the older girl. SinB smile weakly, she don’t know how to react in every situation anymore. “Bi, did you really think that is the best way? Seven years of being together is not just thing. Did she gone mad?” Eunha asked. SinB was processing the older girl’s question in her head. “I don’t know if she gone mad. . .” SinB stops and think for a while. “I don’t know her tone anymore.” She look at the older girl and give the girl a sad look. “I don’t know her anymore.” “OK Good! Let’s have a break!” model and crew starts fixing themselves and had a break just like how the photographer call it. The lights were turn off. Yerin put her camera in the table and look to the pictures she have been taken through the computer monitor. “Today should be a rest day if only you showed yourself up yesterday. I thought we will work till nine?” Yerin look at her assistant s***h friend named Chou Tzuyu. Yerin look at her friend and smile. “Have you ever feel drifting away from Jihyo?” Yerin thrown the question with honesty. The younger girl look at her, and was thinking of why does Yerin suddenly asked such thing. “You had fight?” The older one doesn’t know if she should answer the question or not. She was thinking of what happened yesterday. She don’t know why SinB was feeling that way. Al she know is SinB starts being busy with work as she was promoted; same thing with her as she gain more works to do because some magazine notice her talent in photography. “Have you ever brought up marriage?” The question makes Yerin think harder. Tzuyu was right, seven years of being together; but they never brought up marriage. They are both busy pursuing their own career. It then hit her the childish act was long gone. No more sweet kisses, tickles and pillow fight, morning kisses, goodnight kisses, and goodbye kisses. Even hugs are rare to find. Why they are drifting away? Is this about losing their love for each other? Or the fact that they both forgot they have significant others. She don’t if it is SinB, her, or both of them. She was too caught up chasing her dreams that she forgot about SinB, and the younger one is the same too. Their big difference is the fact that until now SinB have her pride and will never accept that fact that she was at fault too. “There is a concert of SNSD tonight. Jihyo and I will not be able to go. I can give you the ticket. It’s not too late to fix what have been damage.” That tap from the younger one seems enough to wake Yerin up.