Tears of sorrow

"What are you thinking?Have you gone crazy?" he shouted and grabs my hand in annoyance and look at me with anger in his eyes, I shrugged and look down with tears streaming down my cheeks...it hurts... It really does "Do you think you can make them come back by doing that to yourself huh?Annalise?!!" I wipe away my tears and smiled sadly  "You think so?" I miss my parents... "Yes" his angry eyes and awra turned into a soft one,He hugged me,Embracing me with all he can "I-Im always here for you" i hug him back and cries in his arms "Shhhh i'm here" i swallowed to stop the lump from forming in my throat....I want to stop crying but i can't...I want to stop hurting but i couldn't...I just want some happiness but why can't i have one??Why do i have to feel pain to feel happiness?Theres so many questions running in my head right now "Let's get in the car" he lifted me and carry me in a bridal style "I'm sorry..." I wispherd underneath my breath and hug him tightly,Letting him carry me through the car. "Sleep while I'm driving" that's the first word he muttered when we entered his car, I nodded my head  Tired, I leaned my head against the car seat and closed my eyes,I'm so exhausted from all of this, Tired from living but can't even imagine doing suicide  because I'm scared of death..Funny isn't?I laughed at my thoughts  When the car started moving i didn't open my eyes. Im trying to sleep but the sleep fairy didn't visit me so i just pretended that I'm asleep when suddenly  he grabbed my left  hand with is palm perpendicular to mine and wrapped his fingers around the back of my hand which made me calm and...loved? I felt a warm lips in the back of my hand "I'm sorry that i can't do anything to stop the pain in your heart" I heard silence "Dang--Wtf am i doing?" he let go of my hand which made me dissapointed...A little i guess The inside of the car became  quiet... ..."Annalise?" I opened my eyes and the first thing i could see was his blue eyes staring at me earnestly,He swallowed and look away "We're here" i look around and to my surprise instead of buildings i saw the beautiful waves from the ocean racing to reach the shore  "Where are we?" He shrugged  "My grandfather's vacation house" we both looked at each other "Let's go" i slowly nodded and get out from the car to see a simple but illegant  small house with a small garden in it and a veranda facing the ocean "You don't have any neighbor?" he shakes his head  "No, This property is private"  "Oh" i opened my mouth in awe  "Let's go inside and take a res-" "Why are you doing this?" I asked in confusion "Don't be mad--I mean, We knew each other for like--just 3days after that y-you disappeared and also--I don't even know what your complete name is-" "Alexander Alister Hart"  "Wha-" "That's my complete and REAL name but you can call me Alister or whatever you want" he sighed "I introduced myself as Jason because i needed too"  I was completely in shock that i couldn't talk "W-w-why are you doing this then?" he looked away  "Because your father is our family friend and this is my way of saying thank you for taking care of me" I froze there for a few second,Absorbing what he said..Dad?!  "You must be mistaken....My dad is ahm--he has no friends too just like me--well thats what he said-" "And you believed that?" He laughed sarcastically "Let's go inside and don't ask anymore questions" He was about to grab my hand but i step backwards..slowly "What? You don't trust me?" he sighed "Okay then, Go back to your step mom and let her men r***d and kill you" What he said sent shiver all over my body... "N-no" "Then you don't have any choice but to trust me" It takes a couple of seconds before i nodded weakly... How can i trust a stranger?I must be really crazy  "Let's go" He entered the small house so i followed him inside "Thats the bedroom" he pointed a door in my right "That'll be OUR room" I-what?  "W-w-what? Are you going to r-r**e me?" He laughed  "Geez woman" i looked down "Ofcourse not.. I'm not like them" I sighed in relief "That's the only room here and.." he look at the sofa "I don't want to sleep here" I was stunned into silence "And also.. The bed there is huge that we can't even feel each other because of the distance" He gave me a smug look at sits on the sofa "Go sleep or take a bath" I nodded and slowly walked to the door he pointed to Woah...That was the first word came out from my mouth when i entered the room, It has a huge bed indeed,The floor was made of white marble and it has it's own sala set with a flat screen TV and beside it was another room which--If im not mistaken is the bathroom,I forced myself to walk towards the fancy bed with a red bed sheet and a red blanket "So soft" i bounce on it and that made me smile "Hehehehe" for this time i forgot about my problems and made myself enjoy by bouncing on the bed--We never have this kind of bed at home so i look really ignorant. "I told you to sleep didn't I?" My eyes widened  in shock and my mouth dropped when a voice from the door spoken.. Alister was leaning on the door watching me with a smirk on his face "Go on, Go on, Continue playing kid" he teased  "I-Ahem" i swallowed "I am not a kid"  "Yeah yeah whatever" He walked towards me--or the bed? "But sorry to interrupt your playing, I'm sleepy" he grabs my waist and kiss me before laying  comfortably on the bed,Wha-FOR 26YEARS I HAVE NEVER BEEN KISSED BY A MAN, I was still kneeling on the bed dumbfounded by what happened..wtf?  "Sleep now wife" My eyes widened and mouth dropped again...  ....W-wife?  "I-wha-I'm not your w-w-wife stupid"  "Marry me then"  I widen my eyes in fear and jump out from the bed  "A-are you p-playing with m-me?" "No" He stood up from the bed and walk towards me "I'm proposing you a job" "W-what job?"  He smirked "Be my wife" His offer is temping and sexy but i manage to step back And said "N-no" He sighed "Let's talk later at dinner,Go get some rest" he once again sigh and entered the bathroom I slapped my cheeks using both of my hands "Get a hold on yourself Annalise" i walked slowly towards the bed and lay in it...It feels wierd sleeping with him--but i'm tired,First i almost sell myself to my step mother's horny mens,Second i just lost my job, and third i almost killed myself...I closed my eyes and fell asleep thinking about what happened today  When i woke up there's no one beside me"He didn't slept??" i asked myself In confusion,I got out of the room and go towards the--ofcourse fancy kitchen,I saw him there cooking,His white long sleeve was fold up unto his arms..His also wearing a pink apron...If i would see a man wearing a pink apron i would probably laugh like a f*****g ifiot but him wearing it? He look so hot and sexy "Oh,Your awake" he smirked "Come join me,Lets eat" I walked quietly towards the table and sit "It's almost done!Just wait" I nodded my head "Did you sleep well?" asked by him coldy  "Ahm Y-yeah" He handed me a glass of orange juice "Thanks" He nodded "Good"  "I'm sorry for being a burden" i look down at my empty plate "Not a problem at all" He continued cooking dinner again  "C-can i help y-you?" he stopped from what he is doing and shifted his head to look at me  "No" So cold...  "T-then can i ask w-what time is it already?" he sighed and didn't throw a small gaze at me "The clock is there" he pointed the cute round shape clock on the sofa table "And it's already 10pm" I nodded  "Okay"  The Kitchen became quite and all i can hear is the "squish and squash" of the frying pan. A phone call cutted the silence between the two of us,He look at me "Answer the call" eh? Me?  "W-why me?"  "Just do it" he said without even looking at me,I sighed and walked towards the sofa table to get his ringing  phone "Who is it?" I looked at the caller ID and swallows "Your Dad?" he shrugged  "Answer it and ACT COOL AND SWEET"  "Why do i have too?" he rolled his eyes  "Just do it" I have no choice but to answer the call because i can sense annoyance in his voice.  "H-hello?" I heard a loud classical music on the other side of the call "Who is this?" A cold baritone voice spoken "I-ahm I-" "WHO. IS. THIS" i looked at Alister to get some help but he just smirked "Woman if you won't tell me who you are.." silence "I'm going to send my men to kill you" my eyes widened and fear consumed my whole body  "I-I-I-m his g-g-girlfriend sir" I couldn't stop shuttering because of nervousness  "Oh really?" The cold baritoned man who spoke to me earlier was completely  gone,How can i say that? Well the man who I'm talking too right now sounds so pure and soft "I didn't know my crazy son has a girlfriend" he laughed,I laughed too but with relief...Dang i was nervous  "Gemme that" Alister mouthed I handed him the phone  "Hey dad" He smiled,Looking at me while talking to his dad "We're getting married soon"  "WHAT?" I couldn't help my voice from raising but he just chuckled  "Yeah, See you soon" he ended the call and handed me the phone "Put it back there"  "N-NO"  "Ohh~The stubborn Annalise has finally awaken" he smirked  "ISTG JASO--I MEAN ALISTER" He bite his lips "Alister huh?Okay..that sounds sexy" he tried to hide a smile but he couldn't helo it "What are your true motives? Huh?"  "Making you my wife" he answered easily  "Seriously?" I looked at him with disbelief  "Out of all woman you have?"   His smile faded "Don't ask anymore questions" "N-no.. Why? Why me?" my breathing became heavy  "Because why not?Besides you need my help to escape those motherfucking Assholes.." I sense danger from what he said  "I-i know A-and Thank you" i said whole heartedly  "Thank you is enough but--I also need your help"  "What h-help?" he sighed and looked down smirking  "Be my wife" I blow up a heavy sigh,Shoul i accept it? I mean.. I'm in danger right now because of my step mom and her mens and i need someone to  protect me also...I don't have any friends to support my needs or protect me "Think about it" he signaled me to sit down "Here you go" he handed me a plate with a steak in it "Eat"  "How about you?" He chuckled  "Ofcourse I'll eat" he sits down in front of me "So?.. Do you like my offer?"  "Maybe-" I bit my tongue because of what i said I heard him chuckles again "Really?"  "No--What i mean is ahm--No" Wtf? Is that even a proper answerAnnalise? "I see" he smirked again and starts eating,I just stayed silent  and also starts eating "I won't force you if you don't want to" I immediately shakes my head and swallowed "F-fine, But let's stay as g-grlfriend and b-b-boyfriend for now"  A loud laugh roared all over the kitchen "Okay--STOP LAUGHING" I said shouting in annoyance and embrassment  He stopped laughing but the smile in his lips didn't disappeared "Okay I'll be your boyfriend then" I sneezed  "Don't get the wrong idea.. I'm just doing this because my life is in danger" I bent down to eat again and when our eyes met again he was no longer smilling,He looked Angry and serious  "Yes, You're in danger" he stopped and took my hands on the table and squeeze it "And I'm here to protect you all my life" silence "I'm going to protect you with all i can" He kissed the back of my hand  "I-" he sighed  "Finish your food"  I look at him and gave him a small smile "Thank you jaso-Alister"  "Yeah.. Now eat" i nodded and eat again.  Talking to him right now is giving me flashbacks on how we First meet,Where was it again? at work taking care of the patient?then suddenly a handsome wounded guy came and punched our male doctor because he won't take care of him so they assigned me to take care of the wounded guy which Is--Yeah Alister,He was stabbed thats why i  took care of him for almost 3days...I asked what happened to him and he answered "Would you date me if i tell you about this?" he asked pointing to his wounds which  made me laugh,We talked about random things and he asked my name so i also asked about his name and he said he's "Jason" after the '3days' he disappeared and suddenly showed his self when i needed someone to save me...  "Why?" he asked suddenly  "Wha-" "Why did you sell yourself to those bastard's?" I looked down "Because i need to"  "What do you mean?" "I lose my job and my license as a nurse because I-I-I killed t-that man--But it was an accident---he was about to r**e me,I just dd i self defense and they s-sued me so... I ran away" tears streaming down my cheeks "I-it was an accident..." i wiped my tears away but they continued falling so i just let them be "And my step mom kicked me out of the house after she new what i did.. She said she don't wanna get involved......I have no one to be there for me..No friends...I was angry at myself for being weak....I became homeless for A week and starve...I keep running away from the law because I'm scared....I beg my mom to accept me again and said i'll do anything for her" My breathing became heavy "She said she'll sell me--She owns a bar--she said i'll work there as a s*x slav--" a loud bang from the table made me stop talking,I look at him but his already looking at me fuming mad. "I'll kill them" He said coldly   I didn't say anything....i just cried in front of him,He stood up goes near me to hug me "Shut up And Don't cry!!You look ugly while crying" i laughed a little but didn't stop crying  "I-sorry"  He let go of me and get his phone to call someone "I have a job for you" He said, Talking to the person on the phone "I'll text you later" he ended the call and grab my hand to follow him "W-where are we going?" I asked  "Outside" he said without no emotion  "It's late already" I sniffed to prevent my snot from falling  He didn't said anything When we reach the outside of the house...The ocean breeze welcomed us. "Sit" he said and sits on the sand,I sat beside him and shivers  because it's too cold "Look at the moon" i followed what he said, I lifted my head up to see the beautiful full moon  "It's pretty"  "I know" I heard him sighs  I small smiled and looked around to see nothing but the ocean and the moon's reflection on it,It's not dark because of the moon but it feels weird...It's like, Someone's watching us..  "Don't look around" he wispherd and clasped his arms around me "Someone's here"  "I-i can feel there eyes staring at us"  "Stand up" I slowly stood up,We both walked towards the house again with his arms still clasped in me "Do you know them?" He nodded  "I think" he opened the door and we both got in safely "Close the windows" I immediately run towards all the window and closed it all "They're here" he said in a low voice talking to his phone while i just sat at the sofa looking at him "W-who?" he gaze me but didn't answered  "Yeah.. We will be waiting" *silence* "Me and" he looked at me again "My girlfriend" a smirked escaped from his lips "Good" he ended the call and sat beside me  "Wh-ho?"  "It's nothing" Someones watching us from the outside and it's just nothing? "Don't worry about it" I have no choice but to nodd  "Fine" we both became silent again not until lean his head on my shoulder to rest,I coughed  "You act pretty awkward" he said with a smirk on his face  "T-thats because I'm still adjusting" It's true... Im still convincing myself to trust him, The 50% of me says 'I trust him'but the other 50% said 'NO'  I heard him chuckled softly "That's why you have no friends,You gotta work on that part ya know" I pressed my lips together and not say a single thing "I think we should go to sleep" he sighs and stood up "Come on" He offered his hands so i slowly accept it and we we're now walking towards the bedroom "I'm still not sleepy tho-" "Just saty beside me" he gave me his phone "Use this to entertain yourself" I was about to refuse and said i have my own phone but then i suddenly remembered that i broke it when running away from that MAN "Hey" He snapped "You good?" I nodded slightly  He didn't said anything,We both walked straight towards the bed and lay in it--well ofcourse,I distanced myself from him so i won't interfere or disturb him  "I-ahn I need the password" he look at me and smriked  "Your name" What--Mine?.  "What do you mean?" "Just enter your name on it" I sighed and move my fingers to type the word "Annalise" it takes a couple of seconds before  the phone opens,It made me smile but when i noticed that he's watching,I automatically looked away and hides my face using my long wavy hair. Silence, That's what happened between us on the bed.. I was playing and watching movies on his phone while he on the other side is--"Already asslep?"  i sighed and turn the phone off,The room became completely quite and datk because all the lights where turned off  I turned my gaze up to the ceiling,Trying to convey myself to sleep!! I heard him mumble something but i ignored him and was about to close my eyes when he suddenly  wrapped his arm around my waist,I froze by what he did... Wtf "Goodnight Wife... " i heard him mumbles it before becoming quite again  I swallowed hard and just let his arms around my waist. HOW CAN I EVEN SLEEP WITH THIS?. I just shrugged my thoughts off and closes my eyes and...fell asleep...