Till Death Do Us Part

One of the many downfalls to being a vampire is never being able to forget. Forever in my memory would the death of my soul mate replay. Constantly I tell myself that it was my fault. If only I had been there by her side she would still be alive. My wife Rosalie was out hunting when when a pair of newborns came across her path while she was taking down a lion. They attacked her and she was defenseless against their strong new born bodies. I heard her screams loud and clear and ran as fast as I could to her side. Unfortunately I wasn't fast enough, by the time I reached her side she was laying in pieces at my feet. There was nothing left to do after that except take her pieces back to Carlisle to see what he could do. Normally a vampire could be put back together if a limb or two was ripped from the body but Rosalie was dismembered beyond repair. The best thing we could do was give her a proper send off. We cremated her remains and I took all the ashes and placed it in a urn. That urn is the only thing that keeps me rational. Still, having to live in a house full of people in love did alot of damage to my mind. I honestly have no idea how Edward went all these years alone before he found Bella. Every day I want to take my life but I know that would hurt more people than just myself. The one thing I couldn't intentionally do is hurt my family. That is why I chose to leave. "Emmett, son" Carlisle began. "Though I wish you wouldn't go I respect your wishes. Everything is set for your arrival in Alaska. The Denali's if you need them are there and us as well are just a phone call away." Esme was holding onto Carlisle and trembling. I could tell from the sounds she made that she was crying, even with the absence of tears. I couldn't let that get to me though, for my own sake and the sake of my family I needed to get away. I needed to be to myself in order to get things back in the right perspective. I was tired of living with negative thoughts. I did my best to be kind and accept everyones care packages and love as they said goodbye. First was Jasper and Alice, then Edward and Bella and my favorite niece Nessie who didn't care to hide her tears and emotions as she begged me not to leave. After I promised to visit her soon her mother and father took her into the other room as to make things a bit easier on me. Finally Esme walked forward and pulled me into her arms. Automatically I wrapped my arms around her. "Mom..." I whispered. "Emmett, please be safe and remember who you are." She began as she placed her hand on the spot where my heart should be. After a few human seconds she pulled out shiny black card. "In case of emergencies." She replied before she pecked me on the cheek and headed into the other room to hide her face. Finally Carlisle walked forward and handed me the keys to my jeep and a thick envelope. I took the parcel into my hands and peeked inside, it was my documents. My new identity. Well I was still Emmett Cullen but I was now 19 years old and a college student. I had 4 years of college to keep my pretenses up. This would be the first time I would be going to college in almost a century. "I'll call you when I get there." I said to Carlisle before I brought him into a hug. Before I could change my mind I nodded my head and headed towards the door. I covered the ground from the house to the garage and jumped in my jeep before I started the engine and backed out. In less than a second I floored it and headed towards the Canadian border. By the time I got into Vancouver I had to pull over because I was shaking so much that I was certain I would break my steering wheel off my precious jeep. This wasn't just any old jeep but one that Rosalie had bought me for my birthday. It was a 2013 Wrangler Unlimited but along with it came the JK-8 conversion package. This jeep was the last gift that my wife had given to me. When I drove it I felt like she was there by my side. After her death I spent many hours just sitting in it. I stopped watched football, tv in general. I rarely hunted and I even dropped out of high school. I was slowly allowing my soul -that Rosalie convinced me I had- to wither away. That was going to stop though, I was going to live every day for Rosalie. After I had taken a few minutes of R&R I got back in my jeep and continued the long journey. After several more stops in the Canadian country near Yukon I finally made it through the Alaskan border. it took another few hours to get into Anchorage and another 10 minute drive to the property. Anchorage was one of a few places my family owned homes. Just like in Forks, the home in Alaska was secluded far from humans. This home was near the water but perched high up on a hill. It was open and had alot of glass to let in light and had several rooms. I've only ever been here on one other occasion and that was during the first few years of Renesmee's life. Other then that this home was rarely ever used. We liked to keep put in Forks and then head over to the East coast for a few years or even head over into Greenland. But being close to my family in Forks was what I wanted to do so I chose Alaska. I parked my jeep in the drive and headed up to the front door. I grabbed the key from the hiding spot under the window pane and unlocked the front door. I took two steps in and shut the door behind myself before I went straight to the couch and sat down. I had less than five hours before I had to be down at the University for my first class. For the next three hours I stared at the family portrait on the wall. It was a recent portrait of the entire family, Jake was even there. The only thing that grabbed my attention was my cell phone ringing in my pocket. I quickly answered it. "Hello?" I said dully. "Emmett, it would be a good idea to head to the college so you can get your things from the bookstore." Alice said. "Thanks Alice." I said. I was about to hang up but Alice spoke again. "We love you Em." she said quickly. "I love you too tinytott." I replied with a smirk I hung up the phone and rose to my feet. Alice probably had a vision that I was going to get stuck in a long line at the book store. That wouldn't be good. I headed out to my jeep and got in before I tackled the 6 1/2 miles to the campus. The moment I pulled into a parking spot I shut off my car and took a deep breath. This was it. Today I would try and be open and interact with others. Lucky for me the weather was full over cast with -as Alice said- thunderstorms by 3:15 pm. That meant I didn't have to worry about the sun light. I got out of my jeep and headed to the bookstore located in the heart of the building. On my way I muttered under my breath everytime I heard a female talking about how hot I looked or wondering with her friends how much I could lift. I tried walking faster through the halls and ended up knocking a girl to the floor. I stopped suddenly. Was she okay? I knelt down beside her and tensed up as everyone in eyes view began gathering around us. "Excuse me miss are you okay?" I asked her. She moaned slightly and brought her hand to her forehead and winced. "Ouch, my head." "I'm sorry ma'am. Do you need me to get the nurse or are you fine?" I asked her. "Nurse would be nice." She murmered. I lifted her effortlessly into my arms -recieving gasps from the bystanders- and headed off towards the nurses office. The moment I got her into the care of the nurse I left and headed towards the book store. After I paid for all my books I headed to my English class. I made it just in time as the professor called my name. "Emmett Cullen..." The professor called. I rose my hand. "Here sir." I said as I sat down in an empty seat near the front. "Ah Mr. Cullen, be aware that any tartiness will result in half a point marked from your grade." The teacher replied. "Yes sir." He then continued on with roll and paused. "Misty Snow..." He called twice with no reply. A young girl in the back with dark short black hair spoke up. "Sir Misty is in the office being tended to by the nurse she got ran into in the hall and has a slight concussion. She just text me and let me know she will be a few minutes late." The Professor nodded his head. "Thank you Miss Wenright." he replied. Just then five more students filed in and took seats simaltaneously in empty spots around the class. When the Professor began his lecture I checked out completely until the door opened. In walked the girl I ran into in the hall earlier. I could see her blush from across the rooom as the class looked up at her. Quickly she made her way over to her friend who sat at the table opposite me. From the corner of my eye I saw her nod her head in my direction. For some reason I felt bad for harming her, even though it was an accident. I wonder if she'd forgive me. My cell phone in my pocket vibrated and I quickly pulled it from my pocket to check the message, it was from Alice. Don't be angry for the damage to your jeep, all things good come to those with kind and forgiving hearts. I had to do my best not to crush my phone as I read the text again. Someone damaged my jeep. Unfortunately I wouldn't have time to check on it until after my last class which ended at 3:30. I just hoped it wasn't too bad. Sure I had the luxuries to get another jeep but this one had sentimental value. This was my baby. I put my cell phone back in my pocket and closed my eyes trying to focus. The teacher was talking about Dystopia and Utopian fiction. This was something I could read about. Dystopian fiction. My mind trailed off again as I was thinking about Rosalie. I wondered if she suffered much, I hope she didn't. I let my head fall into my hands and sighed. Rosalie. I miss you. I thought to myself. "I miss you" I whispered to myself. "I miss you so much."