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Asher POV "WAIT! OMEGA STOP!" She stopped, that was easier than I thought. I could see her shoulders trembling. "You weren't meant to be here." Oh this is just great, why don't you tell her it's her fault next. My wolf was awake inside, and he was as pissed off as she was, he growled at me. Yeah, yeah okay. I get. I f****d up. Again. He growls at me. I stumbled backwards pain spreading throughout my face, I steadied myself and looked up, tears streamed down her face. "I wasn't supposed to be here so you could hock up with my best friend's little sister. Oh okay good, I thought I was hallucinating back there thanks for clarifying it." O spat the word's at me with such hate my wolf was cheering her on. Nice take her side, she's not even my type for god sake. "I hope you'll both be happy together, god knows you both deserve it, because I'm done." "O, don't be dramatic. I'm your." She cut me off, throwing her hands in the air in defeat. "What?! My alpha!? Like I care!" I could see it in her eyes, she cared. Was she testing how far she could push me? Because this was not the way to go about it. "Asher? Why are. What the hell happened to your face!? Did she do this!?" I groaned. Perfect. She just had to walk out didn't she. Look what you've done alpha boy, you've started a frigging war with your own mate! Okay you need to be on a leash or something. I bite back at the wolf, they were all getting to me. Calm down before you wolf out and cause more pain dumbass. Is there really a need for this!? You are me, you're calling both of us dumbass's you get that right!? Says the one talking to himself. Focus Asher. I close my eyes and push him down, he fights me at first but gives in after a while. "Why are you still here you ugly ass b***h!? Did you need to punch my boyfriend again or something?!" Oh s**t. I'd clearly missed a whole lot. "Pippa, enough!" A crowd of people had walked outside from the party. Casian. f**k. Her brother had walked outside a drink in his hand, his mate beside him. "Oh please, like we all don't know it. She's just to stupid to see it, your never going to love her like she needs you to. Clearly someone royaly f****d up when they paired you two as mates. She might as well do us a favor and leave." "Are you seriously just going to stand there?!" Omega looked as if she was holding her breath, waiting for the word's I didn't have. "Guess not sweetie, goodbye." It was like watching a movie play out in front of me, someone else had written the script and I was no longer in control. "Jesus, I thought she was never going to leave." I watched her as she stalked down the driveway. She. I dropped to my knee's, it felt like a bus had slammed into me, the impact bringing me crashing down. I. No. Don't. What the hell is happening to me!? You think you've been living just for you this whole time? Pfffffffffft. My wolf was back. She's your lifeline, and you just let her walk. "What the hell is wrong with you!?" My eyes flash open, Pippa. Argh, this is not happening! "Just leave me the hell alone Pippa!" My wolf growled. How the hell did you do that!? What say something smart for once? Because you've finally excepted the fact that you are the f*****g alpha, there's no going back now. So get the hell up and go after her before she's completely done with you! Oh f**k. Casian picks me up off the ground. "Did you really just humiliate my little sister infront of everyone, for this home wrecker!?" "Where is she going!?" He looked stunned. "The hell away from you, why would you care after you just pulled this s**t!?" "I need to see her, now!" I wasn't asking, I was his alpha. He'd only gotten this close because my guard was down, I needed him. I needed her. "That's not gonna happen!" Cas spat at me, we'd been friend's for our entire lives. That was obviously gone now. You aren't getting anything sorted boy, it's my turn! NO! STOP! I was no longer in control, my wolf toke over completly, my body was in his control. Leaving me in the passenger seat to watch his destruction. He pushed and shoved and screamed until Cas looked like he'd cry if he pushed him any harder, cars got flipped in his madness. He was completely out of control. Not a great look for the alpha. Until finally Cas said he'd drive me to look for O. He never said a word the entire trip to their house, I was screaming inside. I needed to do this myself or it meant nothing. You can't be trusted! He barked at me. She'll know it's you, her wolf will know! She'll never forgive us! He didn't care, he'd watched me lose the one thing that we couldnt live without.   He pushed me down deep into the darkness, until there's was nothing else.  I jumped up, the chains pulling my body, slamming me back against the cold wall.  I heard someone clear their voice from the steps of the basement.  "Hey." Is all I mange to say between breaths, my body was shaking.  "The nightmares are getting worse." I look up at Cas's worried face. He'd saved me that night, and every night since.  When the wolf got to the house all he found was her mum in tears that her daughter had left forever, and a father who was out for blood. And then there was Cas, who watched me tear apart half of the city.  I'm the first wolf to have turned by themselves, nobody else can turn until they've found their soul mate, and the never ending bond is forged.  I'm also the first alpha who's lost theirs.