Falling Red

*unedited* I want our souls to be connected. I want our hearts to beat together. I do not wish anything overstated. Do I? Life has never been fair for me but this time I want to hold the time. I want to hold my happiness and desire. Just one time. Am I asking for too much? The rain of kisses is like amber of fire. We kissed and pulled each other closer until we are breathless. ### I stare at his eyes then at his lips. My hands circle around his neck, pulling him down to me. Maybe, I can try and instantly my body craves for something unknown. I close my eyes and part my lips in anticipation, our breathes blend to make me feel hotter. Our lips brush against each other. However, the feel that I am waiting for never come to me. Instead, I feel him ripped out of my hold. I flung my eyes open and watch familiar person with the most beautiful cold eyes hold the man who was going to kiss me by his shoulder. ### I drag my luggage to the car where Hardin was already waiting for us. He put the luggage in the trunk but do not say anything, not even made an eye contact with me. I do not ask anything either just sat on the back seat. I just want to be away from here. Away from this city. Away from this pain. Away from this betrayal. I thought I would learn a lot of things in Seattle. Indeed I did. Never fall in love. It only causes heartache. As the car drives away, I watched the city for a final time through the window. I had spent two years here. But the couple of months was overwhelming. Fight. Friendship. Love. Betrayal. As this came in my mind, my heartbeat accelerated, my breathes hitched, my hands suddenly became sweaty. Lost in my nostalgia, I do not realize when I reached at the door step of destination -- the Airport. That moment something becomes crystal clear to me. He never loved me, not even he treated me as a friend. I mentally chuckled at the word 'friend'. I was just an chance that he needed nothing more. This is the end of our never ending friendship. This is the end of our never ending love. I feel a hand on my shoulder giving me much needed support and look over my shoulder at Mia. "You are doing the right thing, Veronica." "Veronica . . . I know I am not worthy of it, but if possible please forgive me. I am sorry for what he did to you and trust me I . . . I am really ashamed of him," Hardin says with dull expression. "It's not your fault, Hardin. May be we are never meant to be together," I reply, wiping my tears that were ready to betray me. I do not want to cry. I already had cried enough for Alex. Not anymore. "Can you promise me something, Hardin?" "Anything," he replied without wasting a second. "Never leave him alone. I know he will not say this but he needs you. Always be with him." He stares at me in disbelief. "What are you made up of? After all this you are still thinking about him." I give him a sad smile. But then being selfish was easy and I am putting an end to this pain. Hopefully stepping away from him, I can take the charge of my life. Will I be able to forget him? Ever? I know, it was a rhetorical question. First love can never be forgotten. Time heals everything. But what about the scars left on our souls? Do they ever heal? STARTED - 22 NOVEMBER 2020 NOTE: THIS BOOK IS UNEDITED AND MAY HAVE SOME GRAMMATICAL ERRORS.