Prologue
I continue to rub my hands together as I pace back and forth in the waiting area. I’m at the hospital and going here makes me feel sad and in the same time, weak. My mother has been in an accident and I don’t know all the details as to how did she ever caught herself in it, all I know that she has been involved in a car accident. I don’t have anyone else to be with me or even comfort me in this crisis that I’m in right now.
My father have already passed away, I don’t have any siblings, my relatives are far from where we are living right now as well as my grandparents, we’re not rich and I don’t even know how to handle this situation all by myself. I wanted to call my friends, to ask some comfort or at least help me but I think that it would be a bother. I don’t want to bother them since this is my problem, not theirs. I took a deep amount of breathe and exhaled as soon as I saw the doctor who I saw with my unconscious mother awhile ago.
“Excuse me, excuse me?” I called out the doctor who seems to be rushing his way through the hallway. My voice is shaking and I can felt a tingle running all over my body. I want to know how my mother is doing but in the same time, I feel like I don’t want to hear it because I feel like something bad is going to happen.
The doctor aligned his glasses on his eyes, “Are you the daughter or relative of Mrs. Martin?”
I nodded immediately when he launched the question. “Well you see,” He paused for a while, and tried to compose himself. I don’t want to think of it that something bad is about to happen but with the looks of how the doctor is talking to me, I feel like it’s something unpleasant. In the back of my mind, I want to run, run away from here and escape the reality that I’m now in. Why can’t my life be in the movies or fairy tales?
I feel like a sharp object is stabbing against my chest, I was vulnerable and weak. I wiped the tears that started to come out of my eyes, I’ve been holding this tears since I had a call from a police officer which he told me that my mother has been involved in an accident.
I’ve always found myself in a depressing situation since my father died and since then, I hated my life. Since my father died, everything in my life started to fall into pieces. We’re currently under a financial crisis,my mother has been working her butt off just for us to have something to eat and to be able to pay the bills in the house, our relatives hasn’t been contacting us after the funeral of my father, I’ve been entering some part time jobs after school so that I can help my mother but I don’t even last a week because of school duties and now that my mother is at the hospital, I don’t know where to get some money to pay the bills in the hospital and I don’t even know what situation my mom is in.
“She’s under a coma. It was because of the accident that she was in that it hit her head that cause---“ I can’t process the words that was coming out of the doctor’s mouth since I heard the word that my mother, whom I only have, is under a coma. The pain in my chest was extremely strong that I wanted to get out of the hospital and take some air to breathe. I can’t look at the doctor’s eyes, I was about to hyperventilate. Not short after, the doctor noticed my actions and asks, “Are you okay?” Concern was evident on the tone of his voice.
I nodded and said, “Yes, I’m fine. I’ll be back, I just wanted to go out and take some fresh air.” I didn’t waited for him to reply, I wanted to get out of this terrible situation that I’m in. My hands were trembling when I passed through the hallway. The smell and sound of the hospital was very nostalgic that I remember the last time I was in here, when my father died. I never wanted to be here, I don’t want to be in here since I get nothing but depressing memories.
I attached both of my hands together as they were shaking consistently. When I reached the exit, I went towards the parking lot where no one seems to be around. I sat down at the cemented ground without even caring whether I’ll get my pants dirty. Not more than five seconds, I unleash the tears that’s trying to escape from my eyes, my sight became blurry because of the tears that were gushing out. I shouted as loud as I can and said, “What did I ever do to deserve this?!” My voice was a bit shaky and it was mixed with tension.
I have no one, all I have now is myself. How will I be able to face all of this problem where I’m still a nineteen year old girl who hasn’t have a job to be able to support myself and every financial crisis that is piled up along the way?
I need a job. I need to be optimistic. My father don’t want me to give up in this very moment, if he was here, he would tell me to stand up and face the problems that I’m in right now. Tomorrow is the start of summer, I may be able to take a full time job since we don’t have school. Before school starts, my mother should be fine. She’ll be fine, I just have to believe.
I wipe the tears from my eyes and slowly stand up on my feet and said, “Juliet Louis Martin, I can do this.”
