the rejected wolf

Claire's p.o.v today is the day I am dreading, the day I turn 17, the day i find my mate and before you get anymore confused confused yes I am a werewolf. and yes witches, warlocks, vampires, mermaids and the supernatural exist. we live amongst the humans, but they don't know we exist unless they are mated to a supernatural creature. oh how can I forget a mate is your other half. supposedly you fall in love with them at first sight and they say that when you kiss or touch your mate it feels like fireworks and you can feel the sparks.it also says that once you mate you become more possessive of your mate and if they are from a high rank they are more possessive. you start searching for your mate when you turn 17. That is when the moon goddess declares us mature enough to find your other half. I wish the stories could be true,but I know that they wont be for me. as soon as my mate sees who i am he is probably gonna reject me like every one has. OK let me explain my self when I was 5 or 6 me and my parents were taking a walk when we were suddenly attacked by rogues. they are wolfs that aren't in pack wether they left willingly or were banished. anyways they killed my parents, they had died protecting me. when the pack got there they blamed me for their death, but its not like I could do something I was little I didn't have my wolf so i couldn't mind link, and if i ran for help i wouldn't get far because i was little and ran slow. plus i didn't know my way around the woods. i guess they needed someone to blame for the death of the betas and that was me. the whole pack treated me like an omega no even worse like an omega slave. I did everything for them at a young age getting punished if I did something wrong or if they just wanted to have fun. there were times when they wouldn't feed me for weeks. even my own family or what was left of them treated me like that. I only had my 1 older brothers and my twin brother. they wouldn't help me they thought that I had caused the death of our parents they hated me for taking their parents away. but the thing is they got to grieve got support from people while I got hate looks and punished. I couldn't cry because that would show that I was weak. I learned that at an early age. The more weakness you show the more they enjoy torturing you. I had suffered 4 years of there beating and all there abuse, but then something happened I shifted. I didn't know what to do because I was only 10 years old and you weren't supposed to shift till you were 15. it was very painful without the guid or assistance of anyone. I had shifted early and that was very rare for a wolf but that wasn't it I was a white wolf and those were said to be extinct. the hungry powered wolfs had hunted them down. it was said that the white wolf was Favorited by the moon goddess they were stronger, faster, bigger, better than a regular werewolf. they could control the elements and they had powers. the types of Powers were different for every wolf. they attracted peace. White wolfs helped keep there pack members anger at bay and helped stop any wars that might have broken up because of our wolf tempers. Of course people always tried to take advantage but f the power that came with a white wolf. it was said that if you drank there blood you would get all there powers and gifts. so power hungry wolfs hunted them down and they became extinct. I didn't want to die. I had grown up around power hungry wolfs my whole life and I new what would happen if they found out so I'm order to stay safe I masked my wolf scent and put my human scent on which is something I learned white wolfs could do. I didn't tell anyone i had shifted. The only person that could possibly have had any hint that I had shifted would have been my twin brother christian. Werewolf Twins were born with a twin bond. We could feel each other's emotions. He probably felt the pain that I went through when shifting but he wouldn't question it. I got a punished almost every day. every time i got beat I would feel the guilt but only for a second before all I could feel through the mate bond was disgust and hatred. another 5 years had passed.My life had been on reappear doing the same thing every day. I would wake up early make breakfast for the whole pack. I would then do chores if i disrespected or did something wrong they would beat me up. The only place i got a little peace was school. I was still bullied at school but not as bad as in the pack house. Kids where less stronger then the full grown adult that punished me almost everyday. The pack at one point decided that they weren't going to let me go to school. My one place were I could have peace was almost taken but thankfully someone had said they didn't want a stupid slave that didn't know what to do. That had been my routine for the past 5 year. it was better than in the beginning now that I had my wolf and I could heal faster. she help get me through all of it. *** I was now 15 years old the day every werewolf shift for the first time. we were at the shifting ceremony waiting till we he mom hit its peak and when it did everyone my age started shifting for the first time. but I stayed still and did not shift. everyone thought that I was a human even more worthless than I already was. little did they know I had already shifted and was one of the most powerful wolves in the world. I always hope that my brothers were going to realize that it wasn't my fault. That they would see reason but they never did. The day they of the shifting ceremony they beat me up to the point were i almost died. All because they thought I was human. after that day I promised myself I would not forgive them for what they did to me. don't get me wrong i love my brothers, but what they did to me is unforgivable. And now 2 years later the day I am suppose to find my mate. I know that he is going to reject me and I have to be ready for that. but i don't feel strong enough to go through all that pain. I have to be brave and show no weaknesses if I show any type of weakness I will surly be punished. I want to show them that I am not just some pathetic girl that is weak . i just have a feeling that in the end this will be what breaks me.