In My Heart

In my heart I never known who I really am inside and that was partially my parents fault for always expecting so much from me. I never got to explore who I really am inside. I just did as I thought was expected of me. But something has always been missing.... I'm Randolf John Porter the second. Im 6'2 and muscular from all the sports. I have brunette hair with green eyes and dimples. I play football, water polo, hockey and swim but just for fun. I'm the captain of the football team and im a straight A student. I have a black bmw and i come from a really rich family. I have a lot of friend and admirers and so many swoon over me its crazy. You must be thinking omg he has everything that anyone could ever want, he Is living the dream. Well you are right, I AM living the dream but im also living the nightmare. Not that I have abusive parents or something, no my parents are great. Im living my own little nightmare in my head, my soul and my heart. Yes I have everything, but as you will find with most people like me, I'm not happy in this world I belong. I have many friends but I don't have and deep, really friend besides my bestfriend Skyler, but there are things that I can't tell him. he is my best bud but still. In this world, my world, full of people I still feel so alone and sometimes or maybe I should say most of the time, I feel so depressed but those are feelings and expressions I have to keep to myself. I have a lot of freedom and my parents are hardly ever around so Im on my own most of the time due to the fact im an only child. Its quite a sad life I live actually. I have everything and yet nothing. I know..depressing right. Tell me about it. So I go to Charlington High. More like Charlington PRISON. It kinda looks like one too. But I do have to admit it is beautiful but whatever. Its for the Elite and only 'us' elite people i.e. FLITHY f*****g RICH MOTHERFUCKERS. Excuse my language. They aren't all bad. Just the whores whose legs open too easily. But everyone else is....fine. So I walk into school and as usual people are staring. Goodness didn't their parents ever teach them that its rude to stare? Oh there's Skyler R* sup sky S* sup randy. I can see you are getting your usual swag on R* you know how it is. I said popping my collar. S* geez.. Vain much? R* you know I know Im sexy and that aint good for anybody, except me I replied laughing S* whatever so lets hit class pretty boy So we went to Science and im so bored out of my mind so I decide to f******k and I have 432 friend request 19 new messages in my inbox and 231 other request and 23 friends have birthdays today. Oooooh surprise surprise. Not. MR PORTER!!!! I whip my head up and see Mr. Graves, my science teacher glaring at me R* yes sir MG* for the 6th time, describe the chemical reactions that take place once sulphur dioxide reaches the atmosphere and what is eventually formed as a result of these reactions? R* The sulphur dioxide rises into the atmosphere and dissolves in rainwater. It makes the rainwater more acidic than CO2 does thus forming acid rain. Basically sulphur dioxide + water produces sulphurous acid and in symbols SO2 + H2O GIVES H2SO3. I replied with a cocky smile. This asshole is always trying to embarrass me and I always end up embarrassing him. when will he learn....tsk tsk tsk.....lol The class oohed and pumped him for a reaction as if daring him to say I was wrong but I wasn't and he knew it. He was asking such an easy question, he should be ashamed.....lol. he then turned around and went back to explaining s**t to the class. So I went back to sss-ing and then someone walked in and it seemed everything went quiet and everyone was in awe or something..... I wonder who it was. I lifted my head to see and what I saw just blew me away...