OUR JOY

I had just graduated and became eighteen in the same day. I was happy, I always have been thankful of what I had because I knew that there are people there that are living under bridges. People who had nowhere to go and no place to sleep. I might be poor but I was safe and I still had little to eat. I really appreciated the life I had. So my mother said that since I am eighteen and a graduate I should go loosen up. I graduated high school when I was 14 years old and went to do Bachelors of Commerce at Princeton University. I was happy that I accomplished my dreams, now I was going job hunting, I had an internship with one of our local biggest companies Luther Liquidations Corps. It was one of the most known companies. It was not my dream company though.  I decided that I was going to the club for once, so that one day I can tell my kids in the future, that I, once went to the club, even though I am an introvert. I wore a little black dress with black pumps. I wore a white cardigan and I had a little black and red handbag, my lipstick was nude and I did my mascara, I wore no makeup. I got up and went downstairs, mom was busy cooking when she turned around, her eyes went wide and she squealed. "Baby you look amazing. If I were a guy, I would totally do you." I just stood there looking at her, I didn't know how to react. My mom just said that. I shook my head and went straight for the door and letting her know that I will be coming back late. I had saved some money, I was going to have some fun and I was not going to hold back. I went to one of the known clubs GLAMOUR it was "THE" club and I just had to experience my first there. I figured if I am doing this, why don't go big? When I got inside I was looking around, I wanted to imprint everything in my mind. This was my first and last in this club and I would make it the most memorable for myself. I could smell it all, the sweat of the people, people grinding against one another like animals in heat. Some were practically going at it on the dance floor. People didn't care though because they knew what they went there, and they were doing it without a care. I was a little out of place but I didn't care. Just this once, I did not care that this place screamed rich everywhere I looked. I certainly did not look the part and I did not care. I was determined to have fun and fun I was going to have. It had been two hours that I was there, I did have two drinks, few guys did approach me but I was not interested. I had been having this feeling for some time now, the feeling that I was being watched. It was a nagging feeling and I had had it enough, I just had to look. When I looked up I met the most mesmerizing, gorgeous, beautiful cold blues eyes I’ve ever seen and I was hooked. I didn't have any experience with man but I knew that I was putty in his hands and I would do anything he asked of me. I was weak and I was going to fall hard and it would be hard to get up again. He was dangerous, I saw it in his eyes. He loved control it showed with the way he was standing and the elegance and his hard face. This man had power and he was well known I could tell, he can get whatever he wanted and right now he was looking at me that way. I was not complaining at all but I was scared and I had to leave now. I paid my bill for the drinks I had ordered and went for the door. I was calling for a taxi when a guy told me that his boss wanted to speak with me. I had told him that he was mistaken because I did not know anyone here and I was just leaving. He insisted that I wait in the car because if I didn't he could lose his job, talk about emotional blackmail. It worked because I could not stand the fact that I could get him fired, so I waited. I was about to leave the car, seriously I have been waiting for about 30 minutes for someone who clearly didn't have respect for other people but themselves. I could be half way home now, this boss of his had no morals or whatsoever. I was opening the door when it suddenly opened and in the blue eyed man getting in the car. He looked at me and he stared, I was scared because he overwhelmed me to the extent that I did not like what I was feeling. He was so much more handsome in closer look, this scared me because I felt this weird connection to this man. It did not settle down nicely with me. He told the driver to drive, he had the sexiest and husky voice I've ever heard and it just made me shiver. This is ridiculous, I am acting like a she wolf in heat. What the hell was wrong with me?  The car stopped in front of "THE GREY HOTELS” I was confused about what was happening, he got out and left me there while he went in. The driver told me to go in room 144 and it was on the top level. When I got there the door was open and I looked around with a confused look and I am sure I was scowling. He was looking at me, without a smile and he almost looked bored and like he didn't want to be here. who asked him to be? He just practically kidnapped me, what he said scared me and I knew that I had no say in it. " I want to talk to you about your innocence and me taking it" he had said it with emotionless expression and it gave me chills. "Do you usually pick up virgins and tell them that you going to f**k them and they have no say in it, Mr?" I had asked and I did not know where I got all the courage. "No, I am not that sick of a bastard,"  he had said. "You went there for an experience and I am offering you one. You can say no; no one is forcing you to do anything." He told me how the hell did the guy know I was there to have some fun. He had scared me away; I am practical doing something that I shouldn't be doing but hey? You only live once in life and this was my chance and I was not going to miss it because I was afraid of what the end result would be. "Fine Mister, I am desperate to experience life just this once. You better make it memorable" That is what I had said and memorable was it, because till this day, I remember that day and I don't regret the choice I made, because it made me who I am today. It had lead me to the most amazing and happy life. Yes, there were times that I had cried and times that I had a broken heart but I look back now and you know what? I appreciate those times and I am grateful till this day.