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"Oh, you brought drinks" I said as my half brother walk inside my room holding a plastic full of beer in can. We've been hanging out inside my house for quite a while now. "Yeah. Let's drink" he answered. Iniabot niya sa akin ang isang lata ng beer an kabubukas pa lang. Tinitigan ko ang lata ng beer na iniabot niya sa akin bago ko ito kinuha at ininuman. Hmmm "You really know my favorites" I said and drink it in one gulp. "Ah!! The best!!! Wala talagang tatalo sa beer!" I added as if this is the first time in a while that I have drank beer. "It's not like we didn't drink yesterday" he answered coldly, as usual. Natigilan naman ako at tinitigan siya. Still have no reaction. Umiwas ako ng tingin 'tsaka natawa. He haven't change at all. He's still the same as before when we first met. I took another sip in my can. "Ah!" I exclaimed after. He remain silent and unfazed. This guy. Ano pa bang aasahan ko sa taong 'to? Although we are half brothers, we aren't alike at all. He has always been the cold type of guy, even towards me. Especially when it's just the two of us. Lumipas pa ang ilang oras ng pag inom namin pero nanatili pa din siyang tahimik. He will talk to me for a little when I ask him something, but eventually become silent when I stop talking. We've been through a lot together and we both know each other's deepest darkest secret, but it feels like we're not close enough. Nakakaramdam na ako ng pagkalula, dala siguro ng beer na ininom ko. Napansin ko ang limang empty can sa harap ko. Ah, I overdrink again. "Hey, dude. I'll sleep first. Nararamdaman ko na ang tama ng alcohol sa Sistema ko. Will you be alright alone?" I asked as I stand in front of him, about to walk towards my room. "Yeah. Go ahead" he answered shortly. I just nodded my head and left him alone. Pumasok ako sa kwarto ko at nahiga na sa kama. "Damn so tired" I murmured. Before I can even think of anything, I fell asleep. I woke up because of some weird noises inside my room. It's dark, the lights are off. Did I not turned it on earlier? Nagtatakang saad ko sa sarilli. Guess not. I was about to stand up but my body feels heavy. Ah s**t. That's why I don't drink alcohol often. My body will feel heavy for half an hour and I won't be able to move properly. "Oh, you're awake?" a familiar voice said. It was coming from the door. Napapikit pa ako nang biglang mabuhay ang ilaw. Pinilit ko ang sarili na lumingon sa pinto. It was my half-brother. "H-hey. Wait. My body... feels k-kinda heavy" ani ko. He walked towards my bed and stand on the left side while staring at me, smirking. "Did you enjoy playing with me... dear brother?" he asked sarcastically. However, there is still no emotion in his eyes. It was dull. I knew it. So he found out that we really are siblings. Yeah. I was the only one who knows that we share the same blood. That we are half-siblings. I tried my best to hide it from him. I couldn't answer. I couldn't say anything. Nanatili akong tahimik na nag iwas ng tingin sa kaniya. "Now, now. Don't be like that, bro. Aren't you tired or sleepy? You've been working hard for the last few weeks to hide from everyone the crimes I did." he said while smiling at me. But it was so creepy that I couldn't look at him longer. " Aren't ya a good brother? So admirable" "Because of that, how about I give you a reward? I'll let you rest and sleep peacefully. You should sleep well, KUYA. Very well that you won't be able to wake up the next day" he said and put something down the floor. "This will be the best gift you'll receive from your younger brother. An eternal slumber." he whispered. Tumayo siya at may ibinaba sa sahig. He locked the windows, and before leaving, he said something. "Don't worry. I'll make sure na no one will know it was me. After all, you tried your best to hide the fact that your half-brother is 'that' certain killer, no?" I heard him locked the door and I was left laying on my bed as if nothing happened. As if he was not here earlier. Later on I smell the scent of burning charcoal, and before I can even think of anything, my eyes closed and everything went black. "Kiddo, let me ask you something, okay? No need to answer if you can't" the Doctor said while talking to me. He was opening the lollipop and gave it to me. I accepted it before nodding. "May I know what is your thoughts most of the time? Like what you want to do, or what you want to see." he asked and his lips like, formed an arc? What was it again, Mama taught me about it e. Ah yes, smile. A smiling face. "I don't know" I answered while staring at his smiling face. I saw how he flinched a little and how his smile faded a little. Does smiles fade that easily? I guess it's not really a good emotion. "Then, do you remember what happened to the cat that your mom gave you on your 5th birthday?" he, then again, asked. Cat Cat huh? Ah right, that cat. "Shamie? She died" I answered straightly. The doctor eyes widened. It was just like Mama's reaction when Shamie died. "Did she get sick or got into an accident?" Mr. Doctor asked again. He has been asking me since earlier, but since he gave me lollipop, I'll answer. "No. Mama saw me holding Shamie inside my room. I was playing doctor with her, then Mama was mouth widen, what do you call it? Ah shock. She said she was shock. She cried then she ran towards me and grab my wrist away from Shamie. Oh by the way, Shamie became really red that time it was pretty color" I explained excitedly. The doctor wasn't able to say anything and just remained silent. Nawala ang ngiti sa labi ng doktor, at napatingin sa paligid. Tumayo siya at ni-lock ang pinto. I don't know why the doctor is acting this way, tho. He's weird. "Hmmm. Why did you kill her?" he asked. "Kill? What's that supposed to mean?" taking tanong ko. Kill? I kill Shamie? I didn't. Nakatingin lang siya at nakatitig sa'kin. He sighed before he speak again. "Okay, Dear. Let me rephrase it. Can you explain to me what happened to Shamie? How did you play doctor with her?" he asked and his smiling face is back. Napaisip naman ako bago muling nagsalita. Hmm. "It's like this doctor. My Shamie is really a big cat. She's so white, like a cloud. Shamie is soft too, like a ball of cotton. So, it was really fluffy whenever I hug her. It was my favorite thing to do. So one day when Mama left to buy groceries, I was left alone at home with Shamie. It was boring since I wasn't allowed to go outside if Mama is not home. So I decided to play with Shamie. We played doctor. She's the patient, I was the doctor." kwento ko habang direkta pa din na nakatitig sa kanya. He really is a weird doctor. "May I know what happened next?" tanong niya ulit. I nodded and continued telling my story. "So, we played doctor. Shamie lay down on the floor. I remember the video I saw on YouTube, Mama said it was a doctor operating a patient. It was amazing because the doctor was cutting and making hiwa the patient's body. Then I tried it with Shamie. First, I stabbed her using a knife which I got from the kitchen. She woke up so suddenly, it was different from what I saw where the patient didn't woke up. So I stabbed her for more times until she's not moving anymore. " "After I did that, I saw my scissors above my study table. I grab it then I cut Shamie's body like the doctor in the video! Then, there, Shamie's fur became really red. She look so pretty!" I added. The doctor suddenly stand up and walk towards the door inside the office. It must be a comfort room? I heard weird noises coming from there but I didn't bother to ask him when he came out. He came back, sat in front of me again, before speaking. "S-s-so... Uhm, little kid. Last question" aniya "What happened when you saw that bad guy doing something to your Mom?" Napatigil ako. Nanatili akong nakatitig sa doktor na puno ng pagtataka. Pero sinagot ko pa din siya. "The bad guy was holding a knife, a big one. And he stabbed Mama a lot of times until she bleed. Sabi ni Mama tumakbo daw ako, pero I didn't. I stayed there, staring at my mother getting stab by the bad guy" ani ko. The bad guy didn't kill me. He look at my way after doing stabbing Mama, but I saw him flinch and run away. Why tho? I was just smiling at my Mama that time while she's laying on the floor with her blood splatter everywhere.