He won’t ever again find himself. He knew he shouldn’t do it. It wasn’t worth for her. But it was too late. He had to go on.

Chapter 1 It was 4 hours after he woke up. He felt a light. It wasn’t the great warming and calming light. It was giving him the feeling of anxiety and cold. It made him feel depressed for a second. He still couldn’t open his eyes. He over-thinked every second with her and at this point he even thought it wasn’t worth it. But no, this wasn’t a solution.... he has to go on. This was the way ho chose and he has to fight for it. He opened his eyes after a long hesitating. He sat up and looked around. ‘’s**t this really doesn’t feel well’’. He stood up and he fell again. He was still staring at all the white walls around him and was still trying to figure out where did the lights come from. He stood up once again and felt a bit dizzy but didn’t fell this time. He felt kinda proud of himself for a second. It lowkey seems like he lowered his standards and maybe altered his ego, but at this point it wasn’t even possible. No one would believe that, not even he did. He slowly started walking towards one of the walls. He didn’t know what he expected but it wasn’t this. He touched the wall and nothing happend, turned around and tried the other one.