Dairy of a psychopath

Aneesa I laid down on my bed flipping through Vogue magazine while chewing on my brownie which by the way is so delicious. Yeah Yeah, I know I sound bored but trust me when I tell you this is maximum comfort. I love reading magazines even when I was young so it's kind of a hobby.  "Aneesa when are you going back home?" my roommate Maryam asked  Maryam and I have been friends since my first year at the University. We studied medicine together, psychology to be precise, so we've been like sisters, our dream is to open an institution together and it's finally going to come true, her Dad has agreed to fund us and I'm sure mine won't mind as well cause he's been supporting me for a long time now.  "it's been long since I've been to 9ja so am kind of nervous," I answered eating more of my brownie.  "no you went to your sister's wedding recently" she answered ripping through the packages received earlier  "Yeah, I forgot about that." Well enough of our conversation with Maryam. My name is Aneesa Ibrahim the daughter of Alhaji Ibrahim Bindawa and hajiya hajara Hussain. I have two siblings my elder brother Hafiz and elder sister Amatullah which by the way I love unconditionally. I'm ambitious and have goals I want to achieve. Usually when a woman who studies medicine finishes All her family talks about is marriage, but for me marriage is the least of my concern, even if I'm going to get married maybe when I clock 30 which will be in 5 years, yeah I'm 25 years old.  ////::::: I was standing outside the Nnamdi Azikwe airport waiting for my brother to pick me up who by the way is almost 20 minutes late. I was getting tired of standing and decided to call a taxi when he arrived.  "where have you been? I've been standing here for almost 30 minutes." I am whine exhausted  "I hear you, can't you give your brother a hug?" he asked with a smile  I hugged him cause God knows I've missed him a lot, I came to Nigeria months ago but he traveled for business purposes so we didn't get to meet.  "it's been a year since I've seen you and it's like you've grown shorter." he snickered  "what? You mean taller cause I've grown 2 inches" i state proudly  "you shouldn't say that out loud it's kind of embarrassing." he shook his head at my antics  "whatever" As we drove home we kept chatting and  catching up. He hasn't changed at all which made me think of the old days. my mom had only 3 of us so we were really close, we've been always there for each other and managed to stick together.  We arrived at home and he pulled over at the parking lot , as soon as I got out of the car I saw mama standing in front of the house. I ran and hugged her which made her laugh.  "Be careful you're going to full" wje laughed as she held me  "mama I missed you so much."  "I missed you too my baby" she said ubs it back in a soothing manner  We went inside and left ya hafiz struggling with my suit cases.  I entered the living room where baba was sitting and quickly rushed over to hug him, he was so excited to see me.  "I'm so happy you're back home," he said with a huge smile on his face "Me too it's been so long. A lot of things look different" unanswered  "you should eat, pray and rest. Tomorrow inshallah we'll catch up OK?" I nod agreeing with him, i was exhausted.  "okay baba"  Just as I was told I went to my room where I prayed and took a hot bath, I wore my pj's and tied my hair in a messy bun, I was good to go. After dinner I went straight to bed. I could swear I was so tired I snored.  I woke up by 6:45 and performed my subhi prayer and went back to bed. By 12:15 pm I was up again, took my bath, and headed downstairs. Baba and mama were sitting in the living room watching AL Jazeera, I joined them too. We were watching when baba asked  "anisa what do you plan on doing next?" he asked his eyes still on the tv  "well baba I and Maryam have decided on something, well she asked her dad and he agreed to it, I wanted to ask your fieyuur support and blessing as well" I bite my lip a bit nervous  "go ahead I'm listening."  "for a long time now we've been planning on opening our establishment, now that we've graduated that's all we've been talking about, her Dad agreed to fund us, and hopefully I wanted to ask if you'd do the same." I manage to finish breathlessly  "Anisa that's a good idea. But for me as a father that isn't what I want for you, you're already 25 and getting older, for me I want you to get married first." his eyes turn to stare at me concerned  As soon as he explained that I felt my Heart skip a beat.  "baba right now marriage isn't what I've planned out for myself I want to open this establishment first. Settle things and the rest can follow naturally" I answered defiantly  "I know but whatever the case might be it's time you should." he insisted  "but baba I still have time marriage isn't important." a whine left me before I could control it "that's my problem with you anisa, you're too ambitious and stubborn. all you ever execute is what you want disregarding  our wishes, but this time that won't happen, you're getting married first and that's final.  He stood up and left in anger. I ran upstairs to my room and started crying, this isn't what i want, marriage isn't the solution, it's going to ruin everything I've worked so hard to achieve. I spent the whole evening in my room without eating.  Around 8:45 pm ya hafiz came back from work, he must have heard what happened from mama, his face said everything immediately he came to my room.  "anisa are you okay?" he asked concern thick in his voice "of course am not, I've waited all my life to make something of myself and now baba is saying I should get married," I retorted tears gathering in my eyes again  "I know more than anyone how hard you've worked for this, but baba is adamant about you getting married first. You know he never does anything without a reason so I think you should trust him on this, he's also been upset all day and refuses to eat. go apologize to him and whatever it is accept it, If it's meant to transpire whether you like it or not it will." he spoke out wisely and carefully  After he left I sat and thought about what he said, he was right. baba has always supported me in everything I've done regardless of what it was, if for the first time he wants me to do something for him why shouldn't I? I felt guilty about how I acted earlier and was quick to run downstairs to apologize.  "baba I'm sorry for earlier, I shouldn't have argued with you. I'm sure you want the best for me and whatever it is in am willing to do it." I say softly He looked at me and adjusted his glasses.  "This is how you should have reacted in the first place, I know it's also hard for you but I believe the person I chose for you is from a good background, he's your 3rd cousin. May God bless this union of yours" he prayed earnestly  "Ameen Ameen"  After our conversation i went back to my room to cry my eyes out.