When The Time Is Right ✔

“You’re not going out of this house, Hana Tejeros!” Louis, my fiancé, yelled at me as I packed my bags. I’m going to leave him. I love him but this love is too destructive. Everyone is becoming a fatal collateral damage.             My best friend loves him too much and they were dating before we even got engaged. I love my best friend more than anyone else. Call me a martyr but I can’t really hurt her for my own happiness. She’s been my only sister, my only friend. I can’t afford to lose the ties between us.             “I love you!” Louis shouted as he motioned to take my things back but I stopped him. “How can you not believe in our own love story?” He asked in frustration.             I love him, too. But I love my best friend more. I value friendship more.             “You’re not going to leave me.” He cried but it was too late. I was going to leave him. There’s no stopping me. I’d rather be the miserable one. “Look, Hana,” He started. “I know that you love Michelle so much and I know your love for her is greater than any love you could give but can you not leave me like this? This is a f****d up situation and all I have is you and all you have is me and we are all we have. Can we f*****g just stay together until this issue passes?” He is frustrated. Way, way, way beyond frustrated if you tell me. But there was still no stopping me. “I’m sorry.” I spoke in almost a whisper as the tears fell down.             He punched the wall near him. “f**k! Do you really love me?!” He yelled once again.              I looked at him and I could see streaks of tears falling from his eyes. My love is crying. And it’s all because of me. How would I even forgive myself for what I am about to do?             “I love you.” I shut my eyes as those three words stung my heart.             He scoffed. “You don’t really love me, Hana. Because if you really love me, you’ll stand by me. You’ll stay with me and be by my side through all this.” He told me and I felt my world falling under my feet.             His words stung too much.             I nodded and swallowed a big lump in my throat. Whatever he thinks of me right now, it’s probably my fault.             I’m leaving him and I know that it’s going to be the worst decision I would ever make in my whole life.             He walked to the door and opened it wider. “Go.” He spoke coldly. “Go out and never come back again.” He continued and my heart is starting to break. “I wish to never see you again.” He looked into my eyes and he made me feel like I am a nobody.             From now on, I am a nobody.             I walked out of the house and went to the airport. I already told my father about this decision and he angrily threw me out of the country.             I’m leaving everyone behind. This is really selfish but this was what I had to do.