Give Me A Second Chance

Edited:) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Ah! Today is the last day. Our senior year exams were over, we are free from this shitty college. I'm so excited to see him again and tell him the good news that I found out yesterday and I still can't freaking believe it. Though I'm too young to carry the news just thinking that it's ours makes me realize how happy I actually am. We have absolutely no plans for the future, not yet at least. All this time our main focus was only on our upcoming exams, which thankfully ended. But again, things turned against our wish and God blessed us with a baby and now just a little bit of patience and then a little bundle of joy will be joining with our little family. I'm seven weeks pregnant with a healthy baby. At first, I thought that I had some viral disease. Don't blame me! The dizziness and nausea made me think that way up until yesterday. Me carrying his child inside my womb made my heart jolt with happiness. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs saying 'I am officially going to be his. We are going to welcome our new little family member!!!' Unfortunately I'm in the college campus and I don't want to scare away the other students. I want to see his face. I want to see his expression. I want to laugh at him seeing him in a shocking state with mouth wide open, unable to believe if what he just heard was true or his ears were betraying him. Wow! It's going to be funny. Maybe I will shoot a video and keep it as a memory to reminisce in the future. Or maybe I can show his reaction to my little baby when he or she grows up I want to pinch his cheek saying 'Yes, it is true. We're gonna have a family of our own' I want to enjoy all the moments: when he comes closer and embraces me in his arms so tightly when he'll say he is extremely delighted to have this baby!!! I want to feel his fingers caressing my cheeks as he wipes my tears with his thumb and gives me an assuring smile and says 'Everything will be alright and I'll be here for you no matter what happens' "What if he will not be happy with the news?" My conscience asked me again. I had this question running through my mind since yesterday. 'Nope.' He was on cloud nine when Rachel, his sister, revealed her pregnancy. He discussed about how he is going to take care of the baby and how he is going to spoil him. Rachel told us yesterday after confirming the gender from the doctor that it's gonna be a boy for her. "Don't worry sweetheart, Dad will take care of you" I said to my little peanut while rubbing my stomach lovingly. I became so attached to this baby over a night. The baby is made out of our love. Even though I'm drowning in the sea of my deep thoughts, I didn't miss watching my man walking towards the parking area whilst whistling and spinning the car keys around his forefinger. No doubt, he will make the sexiest dad ever. I grinned and adored the beauty of my husband. He's looking so handsome, even in his white T-Shirt and black Jeans. His hair's a mess as he had ranked his hands through it multiple times. His face is shining with armor and he has a faint smile on his lips. He's probably thinking of me. He expected me to be there in the parking area, just like any other day. Oops! I'm late. "Kayish!!" I called his name but it didn't reach his ears. The burning sensation of bile raising down my throat was getting worse from our continuous lovemaking and it got worse because of the previous night activities. We had a heavy fight in our own way. I started to think that he will tear me apart by his strength. Usually, he behaves like a gentleman as smooth, but yesterday night it felt different. It seemed like he was in a rush. I started to run like a penguin towards the parking area after him, cause I couldn't feel my legs. To be honest I'm so sore that I couldn't even walk. I stood in front of him panting heavily, It took me a fine second to calm down. Once he saw me, he gave me a huge grin and hugged me. "How was your exam?" he asked. "It was good. Yours?" "As usual." He shrugged his shoulder. I smiled at him. He is the topper of our college. So these exams are very easy for him like a motorbike ride. "What the matter, Riya?" He asked once he noticed me playing with my wedding ring. It's a habit of mine to fiddle with my fingers whenever I get nervous. "Kayish, I, Umm, I wanted to tell you something," I told him still fiddling nervously with my wedding ring. He raised my chin with his hand and I leaned on his touch. "Riya, I wanted to tell you something too" He said that made me furrow my brows. What is he going to tell me? "Let's break up." He blurted out. "What?" I looked.. like he's attempting of joking around but wasn't doing really good. Unable to control myself, I busted into laughter. "Kayish, I am here to telling you a piece of good news but you are joking around." I playfully hit his shoulder. Break up is not in our dictionary and he never uses these words even for a prank. Instead of flashing me a smile, he folded his hand against his chest and raised his eyebrows. "What does it look like? Why do you think that this is some kind of a joke, Miss. Kader?" He asked. I froze on my spot when I heard him addressing me as my Surname instead of calling me babe or wifey like he used to before. Something is up, his playfulness was all gone, he was back in his serious mode. "Kayish enough. Please stop this." My eyes were welled with tears. Why he is playing with me. How come does he find this funny?. "Well, Miss. Kader, I am telling you the truth. I'm getting bored of acting as a good boyfriend. More precisely, a good husband. I was never interested to tie knots with anyone, let alone you." He pointed a finger towards me. I wanted to laugh at him again but I am afraid. Afraid of thinking what if he is telling me the truth. "Why?" I asked. Tears are pooling down through my cheeks. "Do you remember, Jan 2 - 2012?" he asked. My heart pounding increased in my rib cage. Why is he asking this now? That is our first encounter and that didn't end up well. "You humiliated me in front of everyone. You i***t f*****g slapped me just because I kissed you once. That day I promised myself that I will make you as mine and make your life miserable." He said. "But you didn't allow me to touch your body. So I ended up marrying you to spoil you. The marriage is nothing to me, it's just a key I used to get your sanity" his every word stabbed me in my heart. "I need your body, not you," he whispered in my ears. My body completely went numb and my legs were shaking. He can't be serious. "Now I took my revenge and I want to get rid off this drama." He took an envelope from his pant's pocket and tore them into pieces. "This...This is the only evidence of our marriage. Take it." He threw the pieces of paper on my face. "Well, you wanted to tell me a piece of good news, right? I hope it's not a piece of good news anymore." With that, he crashed his lips against mine aggressively. This was the time I ever flinched by his touch. It was not anything the passionate kiss we were shared before, it projected all his anger and hatred he felt towards me. He broke the kiss and looked at me. "I'm leaving today, so don't waste your time looking for me." Then he turned his heels and hopped into his car. After a while, I heard a scratching sound of a tyre which means he left me. He left. He left my life. He left me alone. He left us alone. I stood there almost for an hour. So all these years he just pretended like he loved me? And he did all that because of an act of b****y f*****g revenge?? When did I become such a naive girl? Why didn't I realize he was playing with my feelings? But he didn't give any place to think he was faking around, because I felt his love is true but he proved me wrong. I left my parents because of him, I trusted him too much and now I feel ashamed of being such a used paper. His used paper. My heart refused to accept the fact that he left. All our sweet memories started to haunt my head. I doubt if it still will be a sweet memory anymore after what he did to me. The pounding in my head was getting so bad that I felt like it will burst out anytime soon and I started to see black dots around my surroundings. And the next second, I blacked out thinking of me and the baby. My baby. He doesn't deserve to know about it at all.