Out of Reach

Elle's Pov "Okay! Ladies, I think that's enought for today!" Mama Lorin shouted. "Yeah, pagod na rin ako, damn it, I need a spa." Sugar said. "Sama ako, Shug! Grabe naman kasi 'tong si Mama Lorin! Ewan ko ba parang pina-punish tayo, wala naman tayong ginagawa!" Kylene murmured. "Ikaw, Elle? Sasama ka ba?" I was about to answer her 'no' but again, Mama Lorin shouted, she is always like this anyways, shout and shout. "Ladies! I have an announcement, so if ya'll can please! Please, come here!" I just shrugged my shoulders to them and started to walk near Mama Lorin, they followed me after. I sat in the floor while listening to Mama Lorin's every single word. "Okay, alam ko naman na alam niyo na hindi mabubuo ang 'FUTURENOSTALGIA' tatlong members lang, diba?" "Wah! Nakahanap na ba ng last member? I can't wait to meet her kung 'ganon!" Sugar. "Omg! Ibig sabihin niyan, a month after mapapakilala na tayo in public!" Kylene. I rolled my eyes, "You two are so exited about it, haven't you think that another member means alot more practice? Espeacially now that the producer's already done making our first music?" I asked them. I'm not kill joy, okay? I just want them to know. FutureNostalgia or FN, that's our group name, don't bother to ask why, I know you know why. I'm not sure if people will get nostalgia at us in the future though, tss. "That's right, double ang practice natin starting tomorow, and by the way, bukas niyo na makikilala 'yung fourth member ng FN." Mama Lorin said happily. "What's her name, Mama?" I asked exitedly. "You'll know tommorow, so... i hope you all rest well tonight 'cause tomorow's a bit big day for us! Naghanda rin ang Entertainment ng welcome party para sa new member niyo, and... later ko ii-email sainyo 'yung FN final logo. Good bye ladies." That's all and we all prepare our self to go home. And like what Mama said she emailed us about the final FN's loho, it's so pretty! This really is a dream came true! I'm so exited for tomorow, I thinks all of our practice will be worthit, finally, the final member is found, I hope she's nice. I wake up early in the morning and came in the studio too early too. I checked the time, it's only 6:30 in the morning, I think i'm being too exited, Mama said na dapat early, 8:00 a.m daw dapat ay here na kame. "Good morning, Ma'am." The guard greeted. "Good morning!" I greeted back. I'm in the mood! I go straight in our studio after that, I prepared myself a drink. Capuccino, my favorite. I was drinking my coffee when Sugar and Kylene arrived. "Elle? Napaka-aga mo naman kaya?" Sugar asked. "I'm a bit exited, siguro kaya that's why." I laughed. "Tingnan mo 'to? Mas exited pa sa'tin!" Kylene. "Alfred! Tawagan mo na 'yung tatlong 'yun! Naku! Hindi ko alam na napa-aga ang dating ni Miss Kai, sabihin mo na nandito na 'yung fourth member, pronto!" We heard Mama Lorin from the outside. Mama Lorin screamed when she arrived, "Ahh!" "Mama Lorin! Your too loud!" Said Sugar. "Naku! Sugar? Is that you Sina Elle? Kylene? Kumpleto na ba kayo?" Sunod na sunod na ask ni Mama Lorin. "Yes po, Mama, we're complete na po." "Good! Prepare yourslves ladies-" "Maam, nandyan na po si Miss Kai, papasukin ko na po ba? Hindi ko rin po matawagan sina Miss Sugar, Kylene at Elle." Mama's assistant Aflred said. "Okay! Let her in." Said Mama. Kanya-kanya kameng upo sa floor. When I heard the door open my gazed quickly went to the lady coming in, which I wish I didn't. Her cold eyes bore into mine and I felt goosebumps, my heart beats fast and my breathing hitched. Her eyes where chinky, emotionless and pitch black, her ayebrows where cute in her, her nose's pointed and her lip's thin, shoulder lenght hair. Sugar and Kylene's also pretty, Sugar is haft forainged like me while Kylene is a pure pinay with a pinay beauty. I myself also knew that I'm pretty, My rounded eyes which I get from my mother, pointed nose, kissable lips and heartshape face. But this girl i just see right now is really different from my taste of beuty, Yeah! I know she really is a beauty! But with her chinky eyes and rounded face? She's more like a cutie to me. And I f*****g hate it that my heart beats fast. What's happening to me? "Okay! Miss Kai, I'm so glad that you accept the company's invite!" Si Mama Lorin. "Who are you?" Oh, my god, my mouth drop, did she just asked Mama Lorin who she is? Oh, my lady, you just asked the wrong question. "I'm Lorin Batonbakal, you can call me Mama Lorin." "Hm? Okay, ako nga pala si-" "Caishia Guen Iscobar, oh, my, it's really nice to meet you." Mama Lorin said while hugging the girl named Caishia. "Do you mind entruducing yourself to them? Oh! Of course sorry, I'm just so... exited about this." Mama saud appologaticly. And is this... reality? Did Mama Lorin really did just apologized to this girl in front of me? Who is she? "FN's ladies! Intruduce yourselves!" Parang natatarantang said ni Mama Lorin. "Oh!" Sugar, the oldest of us three stand up from the floor, "Hi! I'm Suya Garda Santos, you can call me Sugar, and... I'm the oldest of the FN's Ladies." Sugar intruduced herself and hand her hand at the girl named Caishia. My brows forrowed when she didn't get Sugar's hand and sighed in relief when she accepts it. Knowing Sugar? She will probably have nightmares when no one will accept her hand, idibdibdib niya 'yun. Idibdibdib ba? Basta like that lang! "Nagagayak akong makilala ka." The girl said with a very small voice, I can barely hear her. Nagagayak? What is that word? I lived in States in my whole childhood 'till I grew up, I just moved in here in Philippines when Mom decided to lived here. And I understand a lot of Pilipino language but not that much, what she said is just too malalim. I'm still learning and I have my tutore every Sunday, and the word 'Nagagayak' is still unknown for me. Maybe I'll google it later. "Me too! Welcome to the group by the way!" Sugar said happily. Next is Kylene, she stand up and hand her hand at Kai, "Hi! I'm Kylene Polisco, nice to finally meet you!" Kylene said happily too. Caishia accepted her hands and answer the same. Next is me, I don't know what'a happening to me but my knees is shaking while I'm standing up, with my shaky hands, I hand it to her. Damn, Elle! Since when did you get f*****g shy? Since when did your confidence flew away? Oh yeah, just now, the f**k! "H-hi, I-I'm Astherielle Gretelle Fortunato, y-you can call me Elle-Elle. A-and... uhmm..." I stammered. Damn I'm speechless, what should I do? f**k. My heart skipped a beat. No. My heart stoped beating when she accepts my hands and smiled sweetly, "Nagagalak akong makilala ka." She said. I quickly removed my hand when I felt bolts of lightning. God, what's happening to me? Is this really me? Her eyes looked at me confusely and look at the others, "Ah... magpapakilala na ba ako?" I think she asked a question to Mama Lorin. "Yes, dear!" "Hm," She nodded and turned her gazed back at us, "Ako nga pala si Caishia Guen Iscobar, pwede niyo akong tawaging Kai," She said and smiled a bit. Kai's her nickname? Isn't that a guys name? "A-ah." Sugar, "C-can she understand us Mama?" Kai suddenly laughed, "Shempre." Sugar's eyes widened, "I though you can't, your tagalog's so malalim! Hindi ko ma-teach!" "Not because I'm using my languege means I don't understand yours." She smiled and that sent shiver down me. Her smile's so cute! Her perfect teeth showing. Sugar looked at her appologeticly. "Sorry." Kai just nod. "So... Miss Kai's too early, at... mamaya pa 'yung sinasabi kong welcome party, why don't ypu ladies, get to meet each other first?" They all agree, while me? I just don't understand what I'm feeling, it really feels strange. They spend hours of talking, while I listens to their stories. I just found out that Kai's from a very far province, she received the company's invite a month ago, and flew here just a week ago. She said that she's not that famous, she's just a simple girl that got viral 4 or 6 monthd ago from a fine dining restautant, she's a waiter. Isn't she too pretty for being a waiter? And Kylene being so chismosa asked her if they're poor and Kai just laughed at her. She said that they are not poor nor rich, they have all they're needs, she just work because she's helping a friend. Sweet. I wonder who's her friend? Are they too close? Do they live in the same house? Appartment? Damn, Elle? Why are you suddenly curius? You're not that kind of lady! You're not chismosa like Kylene! "Elle? You alright? Kanina ka pa tahimik diyan ah?" Asked Kylene, she's so chismosa! "Nothing, I'm just... thinking too much things." I said, the f**k? "You look so problematic what happened to you? Kanina pa 'yan ah? Like start 'nung makita mo si-" "I think I'm just tired." I cut her off. Of course not! I'm not problematic or tired! But is her friend a she or he? I'm just curius. "Tired of what?" "Kylene." I said her name tiredly, "Can you please stop being a Enterogator, even just now, okay? I'm just thinking f some things." "Okay, sorry." As I looked at her my stupid eyes bore at the girl at her side, she's looking at me confusely. I rolled my eyes, what's happening to me? When lunch came the welcome party started, and as expected almost all of the Bansel's Entertainment artist is present, well... except for my crush, Adrian. I think he's avoiding me. Well...I don't give a f**k, it's his lost anyways. "Uy! Elle-Elle, tahimik! May hinihintay?" Mikel teased. He's a famous Artist s***h Vlogger. I rolled my eyes off him, "As always, Mikel, naiiwasan pa rin." I said, a bit slang, a bit lang! I'm learning tagalog fast, I think? "Iniiwasan! Hay, Elle-Elle! Alam mo? Kanina pa kita napapansin, tahimik natin ah? Broken?" He teases more. "I am not, Mikel, I'm just thinking of things." I said tiredly. He so anoying, like i think he's anoying me for an hour or two now. God I hate him, sometimes nga I'm doing padala-dala na lang sa topic niya na so... boring. "Siguro nakita mo 'yung post ni Adrian 'no? 'Yung kasama niya 'yung female artist partner niya na si Joli sa isang Restaurant, naks! Elle, ako nalang kasi-" "Mikel!" I can't stop myself, I didn't even realize that I shouted, I calmed myself down, "Please... shut up, I don't f*****g give a f**k 'bouts Adrian's post. It's not my lost. It's hims anyways, he just lost a god damn hot women like me." I said every word with finalty. I don't care about what others think. Pero if the FN's heared me they probably know that Adrians just my past time, I'm having crush lang kasi to motivate myself from going to work, Adrian's not my super crush, I never did thay and never will. I walked out. Damn that, Mikel! I really hate him! f**k him! Caishia PoV Gumagabi na pala. Kumusta na ata sina Mama't Papa 'dun? Si Kyam? Kumusta na ata sila? Ayos lang ba sila? Hindi ko maiwasang hindi malungkot, halos isang lingona ako dito sa manila pero pakiramdam ko ay isang taon na ako dito, miss na miss ko na silang lahat 'dun sa probinsiya. Hindi, Kai! Nangako ka kay Kyam na tutulungan mo siyang papagamutin ang Nanay niya. At nangako ka sa Mama mo na magiging sikat na artista ka. Na ikaw ang magihing pinaka-unang Iscobar na magiging Artista! Sumikat ako nang may kumuha ng t****k video sa akin 'nung nag-tratrabaho ako sa restaurant ng amo ko, unang araw pa lang raw na-ipinost ng nag-video sa akin ay kumalat na agad, hindi ko nagustuhan kaya sinabi ko sa mga pinsan ko, humingi ng tulong nila para hanapin ang nag-post ng video para ma-bura, pero huli na ang lahay ng kumalat na rin ito sa f******k at twitter. 'Kung ganito lang naman waiter sa lugar namin ubos ang budget ko.' 'Ano name ng restaurant?' 'Saan 'to? Sarap 'guro ng pagkain, waiter palang e' ulam na!' 'Yan ang kadalasan sa comment section. Hindi ko talaga gusto 'yun. Ayaw ko maging sentro ng atensiyon. Mas gusto kong mabuhay ng lowkey lang, simple lang. Pero dahil sa pangarap ni Mama'ng maging artista noon ay na minotovate niya na rin ako. Kesyo maganda daw ako, kesyo kaya ko daw 'yun. Gawin ko nalang daw para sa kanya. Huwag na daw ipa-delete at bala mapansin ng media na oo nga napansin nga, may isang araw nga na dinumug ng mga tao ang restaurant punong-puno. Kaya Kai, para sa kanila, 'wag kang malungkot. Pero hindi ko talaga maiwasan! Lalo na 'yung trabaho ko, nasanay kasi ako sa may kabigatang trabaho, nag-tratrabaho ako sa isang Five star Hotel and Restaurant sa kabilang siyudad, para makatulong sa operasyon ng Nanay ni Kyam. Pero... bukod sa pagkaka-miss ko sakanila, hindi rin matangal sa isipan ko 'yung isang ka-member namin, kung hindi ako nagkakamali ay Elle ang 'ngalan niya. Napaka wirdo niyang babae. -- Papasok ako ngayon sa studio ng FN's Ladies o FUTURENOSTALGIA. Kinakabahan ako, sobrang lakas ng tahip ng aking dibdib, pakiramdam ko ay lalabas na 'to, nanginginig rin ang aking tuhod, ang aking buong katawan! Pero Kai, sabi nga ni Kyam-Kyam, dapat Chill lang. Huminga ako ng malalim at tinanggal ang kung ano mang emosyon meron ang pagmumukha ko ngayon. Nasa harap na kami ng pintuan ng studio ngayon, purong itim ito, at may kaunting ingay akong naririnig mula sa loob, mga tilang Exited na Exited na mga babae. "Maam, nandyan na po si Miss Kai, papasukin ko na po ba? Hindi ko rin po matawagan sina Miss Sugar, Kylene at Elle." Dinig kong sabi ng lalaking kasama ko ngayon, si Alfred. "Okay! Let her in." Sabi naman ng babae mula sa loob. Isinarado ni Alfred ang pinto, "Humanda ka na." Sabi niya at muling binuksan ang pinto. Dahan-dahan akong pumasok at ang dalawang matang 'yun agad ang kumuha ng atensiyon ko, tiningnan ko ang kabuuan niya, nakaawang ang pink niyang labi, bilugang mata, matangos na ilong, magandang pagakakaukit na kilay at hugis pusong ulo. Ang ganda niya... sana ako rin. Hindi rin nawala sa mata ko ang sunod sunod niyang pag-lunok. Ayos lang ba siya? Ba't parang bigla siyang pumutla? Kinakabahan? O baka exited? "H-hi, I-I'm Astherielle Gretelle Fortunato, y-you can call me Elle-Elle. A-and... uhmm..." Pagpapakilala ng babaeng Elle pala ang pangalan. Elle-Elle. Ngumiti ako ng pagka-tamis-tamis, siguro friendly siya at mukha namang mabait, mag-kakasundo kame, sigurado! Tinangap ko ang nakalahad niyang kamay, "Nagagalak akong makilala ka." Ngunit nawala ng unti unti ang aking ngiti ng bigla niyang inalis ang kamay ko sa kamay niya na tila bang nakukuryente siya. Kumunot ang noo ko pero agad ding binalewala ang ginawa niya. Iniwan kame ni Mama Lotin at ang dami naming pinagkwentuhan, napaka-raming tanong ng dalawa,si Sugar at Kylene. Lalo na si Kylene, napaka rami niyang tanong, lalo na sa family backroumd ko. "Elle? You alright? Kanina ka pa tahimik diyan ah?" Tanong ni Kylene kay Elle. Oo nga, kanina ko pa rin napapasin na parang wala siya sa sarili, tulala lang siya at minsan ay umiiling-iling. "Nothing, I'm just... thinking some things." Sagot niya pa. Napaka-rami naman ata 'nun? Halos mag-dadalawang oras na kaming magka-usap ay tahimik at tulala lang siya. "You look so problematic what happened to you? Kanina pa 'yan ah? Like start 'nung makita mo si-" "I think I'm just tired." Biglang sambit niya na nagpagulat sa akin, hindi ba siya mabait? Ba't parang mataray? Bigla niya lang pinutol si Kylene. "Tired of what?" "Kylene. Can you please stop being a Enterogator, even just now, okay? I'm just thinking some things." "Okay, sorry." -- Napaka-wido talaga. "Mikel!" Nagulat kameng halos lahat sa sigaw na 'yun, at sa pinaka-unang pagkakataon, na laman at na memorize ko agad ang boses niya, kahit na minsan lang siya magsalita. "Please... shut up, I don't f*****g give a f**k 'bouts Adrian's post. It's not my lost. It's hims anyways, he just lost a god damn hot women like me." Sabi niya at biglang umalis. "Mikel, what did you did this time?" Tanong ng katabi ko ngayon, si Cori, madalas ko siyang nakikita sa TV. "Nothing! I... I'll just follow her." " 'wag na Mikel. Dito ka na lang. Baka magkagulo nanaman, alam mo naman ang isang 'yun napaka-sensitive." Grabe ah? Ba't parang ang taray ata ni Cori sa totoong buhay, ang bait niya naman sa mga movies niya. "So... anyways, we're talking about what na, Caishia?" Tanong ni Miss Cori. Tumuloy ang kwentuhan namin. Tulad ni Kylene ay napaka-rami ring tanong ni Miss Cori. Higit pa ata niya si Kylene. Pero ganito pala ang welcome party sa kanila? Napaka-sosyalin! Hinigit pa nito 'yung 18th birtday ko last year! Napaka bonga! May mga wines at iba't ibang klase ng inumin, sabi ay celebration daw ito ng pag-wewelcone sakin at thanks giving dahil kumpleto na sa wakas ang grupo. Pero hindi ako maka-move on na napaka-sosyalin dito! Halos lahat ng paporito kong batikang artista ay narito! Hindi na lahat pero napaka-rami na nila. Okupadong-okupado ang isang huong empty floor na kinatatayuan namin ng mga artista at iba pang sikat na tao. "Let's party people!" Sigaw ng DJ. Si DJ Hance! Naku! Fan na fan ka po ni Kyam. Gusto kong isigaw pero nakakahiya naman 'yun. Sabi nga ni Kyam dapat ay umarte ako na parang sanay ako sa ganitong eksena, party dito, party doon. "Hi, can I have this dance?" Tanong ng isang sikat na artista, batid ko'y lasing na siya amoy na amoy ko ang alak na humahalo sa perfume niya. Akmang sasagutin ko siya ng biglang nag-vibrate ang cellphone ko. "Sorry, kailangan ko 'tong sagutin." Nahihiyang sabi ko at sinagot ang tawag. Si Kyam 'yun background niya ang restaurant at batid kong kakatapos lang ng shift niya, mukha talaga siyang pagod na pagod. "Hey, Kyam! Musta na?" Tanong ko. Pero sa halip na sagutin ako ay parang may tinipa siya. Kayama Bacolod: Hindi kita marinig. Bago ako umalis para lumipat sa mas tahimik na lugar ay nagpa-alam muna ako kay Mama Lorin. Dabi niya ay sa roof top na daw ako pumunta dahil napaka-ingay ng floor namin, serado din daw kasi ang ibang ilaw sa ibang floor. Dalidali akong sumakay ng elevator at pinindot ang pinaka-huling floor. Nang dumating ako ay dali-dali akong umakyat ng hagdan para maka-rating sa roof top. "Kyam? Naririnig mo na ba ako?" Mahinang tanong ko. Madilim na at malamig ang simoy ng hangin. Wala ding ilaw tanging mga ilaw lang sa ibang building ang bumibigay liwanag sa mukha ko, buti nalang at binilhan ako ng bagong telepono at klarong-klaro ako sa camera. "Oo." Maikling sabi niya, miss ko na siya. Tiningnan ko ang orasan, 8:00 na pala, kaya. Sabi ko kasi sa kanya na tawagan niya ako tuwing alas-otso o tatawagan ko siya, friendship time kasi namin 'yun. "Kumusta ka na diyan? Ayos ka lang?" sunod sunod na tanong ko, sa itsura niya? Alam kong hindi, kilalang-kilala ko siya. Umupo ako sa isang gilid. She smiled weakly, "Ganun pa rin, Kai. Kada takbo ng araw guamagaling naman si Mama mas namomotivate akong mag-trabaho." "Sana nasa tabi kita ngayon, para mayakap kita." Mahinang sabi ko. Simula pagkabata ay magkaibigan na kami ni Kyam. Nag-aaway man ay bumabati agad. Parang mag-kapatid na ang turing naman sa isa't isa. "Miss na kita, Kai. Miss ka na ni Mama. At ng kapatid mo at ng mga magulang mo." Bigla siyang naging emosyonal. "Kyam-" "Hindi mo sana sila ma-mimiss nang ganito kung hindi dahil sakin." Tuluyan ng nalaglag ang mga luha niya. "Pasensiya na, Kai." "Ano ka ba? Ayos lang 'yun, Kyam! Diba sabi ko sayo na pangarap ko rin 'to? 'wag ka nang umiyak-" Naputol ang sasabihin ko ng biglang naputol ang linya. First day of Saturday this month, siguro ay dumating na ang boss niya't bayaran na ng sweldo. Bumuntong hininga ako't tumayo na. Akmang aalis na ako ng biglan akong naka-rinig ng tila nabasag na bote. Kinabahan ako bigla. Pa'no kung... "f**k, Elle, that was your last f*****g bottle, and you f*****g drop it, great, just f*****g great!" I stopped when I hear her familiar voice, it's Elle-Elle. Dahan-dahan akong naglakad papunta sa may ati ng boses na 'yon at dun ko nakita si Elle na lumuluhod at inayos ang bubog. Astherielle's PoV Damn! f**k me! I'm so bobita! That was my last f*****g bottle and I just f*****g drop the f**k out of it. f**k! I slowly pick up the broken bottle. Mahirap na, if they'll see this here and found out that I drink it, I'm dead. Mama Lorin, strictly don't want us FN's ladies to get drunk, should I say all of her artist? Yeah... we need to avoid alcohol, you have to if she's your manager. She said as long as possible, stay away from alcohol. "Pwede mo naman ipagawa 'yan sa mga janitor." I was shocked when somebody talked behind me that I accidentally cut my finger. "Ah!" "T-teka? Ayos ka lang?" She asked curiusly. "Damn it you damnass! I just f*****g cut my finger and you're asking me if I'm okay?" I shouted. Damn, I think I'm drunk. "Pasensya na. G-gagamutin ko nalang." She said, scared. "Go away you, fu-" I stopped when I saw who it is. Hmm... it's Kai, the new member, and the lady who just drives my mind crazy thinking 'bout her the whole time. Ajd again, the ducking feeling I'm feeling earlier came back. I hate it. "Ya know what?" I asked her, "It's you *hik* foult." "A-alam ko, pasensiya na talaga." I walked near her, so f*****g near. I just want to tell her that she just f****d up my whole system and it's her goddamn foult. "Y-you-" I didn't finished my words and my sigh turns black. Caishia's PoV Nanlaki ang mata ko ng biglang nabuwal si Elle sa kinatatayuan niya. Dali-dali ko siyang sinalo. Ang bigat ng babaeng 'to. Dahan-dahan ko siyang pinahiga sa kandungan ko. "Elle? Elle? Ayos ka lang? Kaya mo bang tumayo?" Tanong ko, kahit alam kong hindi niya na ako masasagit ay sinubukan ko pa rin. "You f-f****d up my mind..." 'Yun lang ang sinabi niya at nawalan ulit ng malay. Inabot ko ang cellphone ko at agad na dinal and phone ni Mama Lorin. "Mama? Si Elle po..." [Why? What happened?] Base sa tono niya ay paniguradong nag-aalala siya. Malamang kapag may emergency lang ako tumatawag e'. "She passed out. Sa tingin ko na sobrahan ng inom." After the call Mama Lorin arrived with her assistant, Alfred. Alfred carried Elle bridal style and bought her to the company's service. "Mama... magpapaalam na rin sana ako. Gabi na po masyado 'e." Nahihiyang paalam ko. "Naku! Sakto! Magkakalapit lang kasi 'yung appartment niyo, sa kabilang pinto mo lang si Elle, dadalhin ka dun ng driver." "Okay." Sabi ko at pumasok na ng sasakyan, sa tabi ni Elle na tulog na tulog. "Manong, may alcohol po ba kayo diyan o kahit bulak?" "Naku, hija, wala 'e." Bumuntong hininga ako at kinuha ang panyo galing sa bulsa, binigay sakin 'to ni Kyam at ayaw kong gamitin, mamamantsahan ng dugo e', pero kawawa naman si Elle kung pababayaan ko siya. Tumigil na ang pag-durugo ng daliri niya at maliit lang naman ito kaya siguradong kaya ko lang itong gamutin, marunong naman ako sa basics. Nang dumating kame ay inilalayanan namin siya ni Manong maglakad, kahit pa-gewang-gewang na rin kame. Nang dumating sa tamang floor ay binigay sakin ni Manong ang dalawang susi, isa ay para sa condo ko at isa naman ang kay Elle. Pero dahil lasing siya ay sa condo ko nalang muna siya pinatuloy. Itinuro ko ang couch. "Dito nalang po, Manong, salamat." "Sige, una na ako, Hija." Umalis na siya. Bumuntong hininga ako at inilibot ang paningin sa lugar. May kalakihan ito at maganda rin ang mga muwelebes, dark brown, white, at cream ang tema. Nilingin ko si Elle mula sa couch. Hindi ko pa nalilibot ang buong lugar pero hahanop muna ako ng first aid kit. Nang makita ang First Aia Kit ay binalikan ko si Elle at inalalayan siyang tumayo papunta sa aking kwarto. "Teka, Elle." Sabi ko ng bigla niya akong kinalabit, ang lapit ng labi niya sa tenga ko. "I don't... w-wanna go." Bulong niya, amoy na amoy ko ang alak sa hininga niya. Nang maihiga ko siya sa kama ay sinimulan ko ng linisan ang sugat niya. "Hindi ko naman kasalanan 'no? Malay ko bang magugulatin ka pala?" Bulong-bulong ko habang nililinisan anh sugat niya. Nilingon ko siya, naka-pikit habang naka-awang ang labi, tila sarap na sarap sa tulog niya. Umiling-iling ako. Papahiramin ko nalang siya ng damit. "I hate you..." Ano bang pinagsasabi niya? Hate niya si Adrian? E' sabi nga na may ka-date ng iba diba? Sabi ni Mama 'wag kong ipilit ang sarili mo sa ayaw sayo. Noted na noted 'yan. Ganun niya ba ka-mahal 'yung si Adrian? Na mag-lalasing siya ng ganun? Na magna-nock out siya sa sobrang kalasingan. Pumunta ako sa kwarto ko, sinubukan kong mag-ikot-ikot kanina at nakitang dalawa ang kwarto sa appartment na 'to, isa ay masters bedroom at ang isa nama'y guessroom. Naayos na rin ang aking mga gamit, nailagay na sa walk in closet. Nakakatawang isipin na noon ay napaka-kaunti lang ng mga damit ko, lahat ay puro malalaki at luma na, ngayon ay branded o signatured brand na ang nasa Closet ko at malaki pa, ang galing. Napagastos talaga sila ng malaki dito pa lang, pero ayon naman sa kanila ay sponsored kadalasan ang mga meron kame. "Ano bang pwede dito?" Tanong ko sa sarili. May nakita akong pink terno pyjamas, 'yun ang kinuha ko. Binalikan ko si Elle sa guessroom at nakitang tulog na tulog siya, amoy alak na rin. Ayoko talaga sa lahat ay 'yung amoy alak. Napaka-kaayaaya ng amoy. Pero sa amoy ni Elle? Alak na nahaluan ng smooth scent perfume niya? Parang nakalimutan ko na ayaw ko sa amoy ng alak. Nang dahil kasi sa alak ay nadisgrasya ang pinsan ko, kaya simula 'nun ay tumigil na rin sa pag-iinom ang pamilya ko. Pa'no ba naman kasi? Malaki ang naging gastos ng pamilya dahil dun. Pa'no ba tatangalin 'tong damit ni Elle? Alam ko naman na kaparehas na babae lang kame,anong meron siya ay meron lang din ako, except sa lovelife. Wala pa akong natitipuan. "Elle, alam kong tulog ka, 'wag kang mag-alala, babae din naman ako. Anong meron ka ay meron din ako. Gusto sana kitang pabayaan nalang diyan pero ayaw ko namang mag-amoy alak ang kama, mukhang mamahalin kasi." Pumikit ako at dahan-dahang kinapa ang ibaba ng damit niya. Normal na damit lang naman ang suot niya. Pero may turtle neck iyon sa loob. Tapos ay naka skirt. Nang makapa ko iyon ay nanatiling nakapikit ang mata ko, dahan-dahan kong itinaas ang damit niya, nang natangal ay sinunod ko ang turtle neck, tapos ay kinapa ko ang kinuha kong pyjamas pero hindi ko ito makapa-kapa, sinubukan ko pa ng ilang beses ngunit hindi ko pa rin ito makapa, dahan-dahan kong binukas at nanlaki ang mata nang makitang nakabukas rin ang mata ni Elle. "Ahhh!" Astherielle's PoV I was f*****g shock when I feel something, like somebody's removing my f*****g shirt off, f**k, where amI? Am I about to get raped? And when I open my eyes my head aches. Then when I open it again it settled in a women who's eyes close shut really hard, I tried to look at what she's doing, she's like reaching for something. I wanna shout but my throth is so dry, that I can't even speak. I look down when i feel so cold and my eyes widened when I saw I'm only wearing my f*****g f****d bra! I look back at the girl and realizes that it's Kai who opened her eyes, slowly. "Ahhh!" "Ahhh!" We both screamed! "Go the f**k out!" I shouted, Wow, Elle? May tinatago? May maha-hide ba? She quickly stand up and close her eyes shut with her hands and pointed something. " 'Y-yan ang gagamitin mo, t-tawagin mo ako k-kapag may k-kailangan ka!" She said and quickly run away. "Where the f**k am I?" I hissed at myself. Fuck my head hurts doubled, it was like hit by a ten wheeler truck. Damn, I am such a mess. I quickly stand up and realize that the room looks so different, this is not my f*****g room! I think I'm at her place. Yeah, I ak at her place because I get my self drynk and I fyck up big time, such mess, b***h, I just wanna die sa khihiyaan! And fuxk my tagalog! I am a fast learner but my tagalog is just... f**k! f**k! f**k! f**k! A bigvMother f*****g f**k this s**t! Damn me, my tagalog, my everything! I think... I suck... big time, the f**k, s**t! I tried to recall things that happened earlier but I cannot! I remember nothing! What happened last night? I... can't remember! And everytime I rhink about it my heads hurt doubled. I'll think about it later nalang. Right now I will take a bath muna, I feel so stinks as f**k. Nakahihiya kay Kai! Damn now all I want is for the soil to open and eat my whole being. Damn me! To be continued...