A light at the end of the tunnel

I left

Cameron's POV

I stood there watching her as I told her I was leaving. She didn't seem sad, just a blank stare. I couldn't believe I was actually leaving Sarah and my baby. I took one last look at Sarah and turned my head and walked toward the car. I slowly got in the car and just drove away. I felt like I was the worst person ever. Who abandons their family, especially their child. Caleb and Sarah were better off without me anyway. I would have been a terrible father and eventually a terrible husband. I did the right thing. As I drove I slipped into a daze just thinking and I found myself not even knowing where I was going. I snapped out of it and looked around to see where I landed up. I was parked in front of my parents house. Why would I come here? I don't want to explain to my parents that I left Sarah. Suddenly I knew why. I came to see my parents  neighbor Linda. My parents and Sarah didn't know it but I was sleeping with her since I found out Sarah was pregnant. I knew I was a bad person for doing that, but I couldn't help it. Linda was easy to be with, there was no responsibility and I didn't have to pretend to be happy with her. Linda Knew I was with Sarah, in fact she told me that she told Sarah how old I really was a few years back because she wanted Sarah to break up with me so me and Linda could be together. Honestly when she told me when we started things up I wasn't mad. Me and Sarah were just not meant to be. Me being a father was not meant to be.

I get out of the car and head over to Linda's house. I knock on the door and there Linda was smiling wearing these sexy tight jeans and low cut shirt. She comes toward me and says "hey sexy what are doing here? I didn't expect you today, you should have called me. She seemed a bit nervous not inviting me in.  I told her trying to maneuver my way in through the door. "sorry I didn't expect to come here either, I have to tell you something I said nervously, not knowing what her reaction would be"  I couldn't get passed her though. So I just asked "whats going on Linda? why cant I come in? she turns to me and says " nothing Cameron, its just not a good time" she says in a low scarce voice. I then knew something was going on, did she have another guy here? I soon heard a mans voice calling out "Linda" I look at Linda and ask" who is that?"I said sternly. "That's just a friend of mine" she said nervously. I yelled at her upset " I came to tell you I left Sarah and I wanted to be with you and now you have another guy here?" she was lost for words. I stormed away and said " don't ever call me again, I'm done" She ran after me and said in a sad tone" I'm sorry Cameron, I never thought you would leave her and I couldn't wait forever" "I found someone who really loves me and doesn't have anyone else" I looked at her with my eyes tearing up. I sighed and told her " i'm glad that your happy, sorry I waited so long to leave Sarah. " she was pregnant and I didn't want to leave and I didn't know what to do" I said goodbye and headed to my parents house. It was going to be weird staying at my parents house and seeing Linda with another guy. What did I do? I ruined my whole life.

I settled in at my parents house and start thinking what am I going to do? my mom and dad head over to me and say to me sternly," what were you thinking leaving Sarah and your baby!" I said I know mom and dad i messed up" we aren't meant to be though and i'm not meant to be a father" they knew I was right, their face told me I was. My mom says " Cameron you still need to be in that child's life. I told  her, "sorry mom I cant." In fact i'm only staying for a while and i'm going to take some time to think, not sure where i'm going or when i'll be back, but I just need to go" I walked out of the living room and walked to the backyard to get some fresh air. My parents not saying a word. I was thinking about where I could go, in fact just start a new life. I ruined this one so I needed a fresh start. I knew I was being selfish but I didn't care. I just wanted out of this life. I went in the house to use the restroom before I headed out, I grabbed a few waters from the kitchen, gave my parents a hug and left. As I left I seen Linda outside on the porch smoking a cigarette. I looked at her and she looked back each of us giving each other a small smirk. I got in the car, I took a deep breath and just drove off. Never to come back.