Zara I had gone too far and I did not even need any soothsayer to tell me that. When I heard Zaccai's tone and voice, I realised that this man was hurting and it was all because of me. All along, he had been trying to show me that he was by my side and I just could not resist pushing him away. Even with what I said about him incapable of making me feel anything, he still looked at me with so much love and kindness. I had regretted those words the instant they left my mouth. Actually, I was not prepared to lose him completely and I thought that he would reject me when I said that. Instead, Zaccai was still trying to fix things. How on earth do I make him understand that I was an emotional wreck and there was absolutely nothing he could do for me. He still tried his best to tell me that

