Goddess Reborn

Lust and longing

After another hour or so of shopping we headed back to the apartment. As soon as we were in the elevator the guys said it would be safe to drop the glamour and I did, allowing myself to just be in my own skin. I had not realized how exhausting keeping it up all day had been, but it really had done a number on me. I decided to ask the guys if we could postpone going out to the next night, I really felt like I could use the rest and I wanted to spend the night in the real world. Thankfully, they agreed after seeing how tired I was so we got into the apartment and they showed me around.

3 Bedrooms down a long hall, Roman grumbled that I had the master bedroom even though I had never been here. Apparently, it was something Deacon had insisted on when they got the place, citing that 'one day she will be back, and if we find our way back to each other we will need the space.' His admission made him smile shyly as he looked down at me. I needed to tell him that I may not remember it all yet, but I knew I felt something for him. Without a doubt in my mind there is a deep love there, when we had some time alone I would explain it to him.

As we walked through the rest of the apartment we discovered there was no food, which I was not sure how to guys could forget that, but they did. Deacon decided to go out and get some things to make dinner and we settled into the apartment for the night. As I was putting away my new purchases I could really see myself being comfortable in this space, Roman commented that we would likely get back to spending more time here now that I could handle myself in this realm. As I puttered around the room I did not initially notice that Roman had come to stand in the doorway, only realizing when he spoke.

"You make him happy, you know? When you weren't around he was never quite himself and looking back, even to before you two fell for each other, or admitted it, it was always you." He said, quietly. His admission stunned me, being here made me happy too. I had been happy in my life but this was different, I felt at peace, comfortable in my own skin and like I was at home. Every time I learned something new, whether it be a skill or a piece of my old life, I felt stronger and happier. If you had asked me a month ago if I was happy I would say yes, but now I know I was not at all. I was walking through the motions and was just doing what needed to be done to keep what I thought was happiness.

"I'm honestly feeling better than I thought possible. My whole life has changed and even though I can't remember everything yet, I know I could not live without him now." I explained to Roman. I needed to say these words outloud, even if it was not to Deacon. "There is something when I'm in the same space as both of you, a comfort and peace, but when I'm with Deacon, there is more. He makes me feel like a piece of my soul had been missing." I finish. Suddenly hearing bags hit the floor behind me. Roman just gives me a smirk, letting me know he set me up.

I feel Deacon come up behind me as Roman walks away, and I turn to face him. As I do he moves to me in giant steps that take me by surprise. When he reaches me his hands grasp my hips and his forehead rests on mine, instinctively I find myself gripping his shoulders in my hands. I can tell he wants more, but he is hesitant, as am I. Currently I know he makes me feel whole, but I am unsure if it is because people tell me we were in love or because I feel it in my soul. I know what I said to Roman, but a soul mate and someone you are in a relationship with can be different.

As if reading my mind, but without moving away, Deacon starts, "I'm not going to rush you, we have all the time imaginable, but knowing you feel even the smallest something for me has renewed my strength in this. Today, getting to be connected to you physically made me feel like myself, like I am breathing again for the first time, and I just need that to continue. Just promise me you won't push me away, let us see if you can come back to me completely." How could I say no to such a beautiful sentiment? I knew I had to give this every opportunity to find my love and myself again.

Standing there, grasping to each other just breathing and being in the moment I wanted nothing more than to stay here forever. I could see the appeal of spending time in the cabin when we could be there for years and it be mere hours here. We were pulled away from our interlude by a clearing of the throat by Roman.

"As great as this is" He said as he motioned at us. "Are we going to eat at some point here? You two can do whatever this is after dinner, though I had a fun idea for how we could spend a couple hours if you're interested." He finished with a smirk. Deacon moved to get food and start dinner, which I agreed was needed, even if I did not want him to move away. As he left for the kitchen I looked to Roman.

"So, what's this 'fun idea' of yours?" I asked, noticing he was still looking pretty smug about breaking up our moment.

"Well, there are two sides to a glamour, making yourself look different, or not being visible at all. You have already mastered one, we should practice the other next. Tonight, we should go out, wander the city, but without being seen." He suggested. It made sense, it would be a skill I would need. "We may even run into some old friends at night, help you jog that memory." He added with a shrug. I liked the idea, so we agreed to talk to Deacon about it when we ate.

We were pulled from our conversation by an amazing smell from the kitchen. I walked in to the sight of Deacon humming as he cooked, and the kitchen smelled of something that seemed familiar. Walking up behind him, circling my arms around his waist I look down and see a beautiful red sauce and seafood.

"Seafood Puttenesca, it has been one of your favorites for a long time." Deacon told me, offering a spoonful of sauce. It was delicious, a bit of spice, but also amazing with the mix of spice and capers. "Even in your human life you would eat it often." He added, with a kiss to my forehead. I had not realized that I ate it that often but thinking back he was right, I did enjoy it.

"Roo and I were talking, he thinks we should try not being seen at all tonight. Said we may even run into some old friends?" I postured, trying to see how he felt about the idea. I felt him tense slightly at the mention of friends. "We don't need to, but the idea of continuing to work on this seemed exciting."

With a sigh he agreed; "if you want to do a hidden walk through the night I am all in, but let's try to avoid running into anyone. I am not ready to share your attention yet."

With that decided I stayed with Deacon while he finished dinner then helped get it served for all of us. As we ate we discussed the way to make myself invisible to the humans. "Not invisible, just outside of their spectrum." Deacon kept adding, to which I kept saying invisible. I knew he disliked it but it was too much fun not to mess with him. Deacon was right, this is an amazing dinner, having paired it with a beautiful wine. I asked the guys about where we first had this and I was told about a time long ago where we were in Italy. At the time the meal did not have a name, but using left over seafood to create a dinner was a common practice. Apparently I liked it so much I would go there almost weekly to eat and wander.

As dinner came to an end Deacon told me to dress warm, more for comfort than style, so I went for leggins, sweatshirt snd boots. Deacon explained that instead of wanting the humans to see a specific image this time I wanted to imagine them seeing nothing at all. Once I felt I had it we went out into the town, starting with walking down the street, then heading to the park. The colours of the foliage was beautiful and I could not imagine being anywhere else in the world.

As we approached some humans coming at us I panicked, wondering what would happen if we collided. "The humans feel the urge to move around us without even knowing why. It is very rare they run into us in this form, but it can happen. Mostly, the humans think they stumbled.# Roman explained.

As we walked close to the end of the park I noticed Roman seemed distracted watching the waitress in a near by Cafe. I couldn't help it to look and smile between them both, he clearly had a thing for her but had a hang up about talking to her. I nudged Deacon and he smiled, leaning down to whisper in my ear. "He has been watching her for a bit, there is a chance she could be something like us and not know yet, new ones are born all the time." I just nodded as he spoke, but continuing to watch them both.

An idea popped into my head; "Deac, could we spend some time together cuddling and getting to know each other. Roman, think that would be ok? I'm sure you'll have no issue finding something to stay busy with." I finished with a wink. He knew we had noticed him staring, and although his cheeks picked slightly, he just nodded. With that Deacon and I took off to the house. We would be alone and get a chance to connect.

Time to get to know this man of mine.