My Merciless Alpha

Chapter:20( Messed up life)

Delian's POV

I asked her to sit on the chair while I stood admiring her beauty.

Her white hair was tied in a French braid which made her more adorable than usual. She wore a white chevron skirt with a red blouse which covered her upper body entirely. Her red orbs made me feel nearer to her. I am quite happy that she had our heredity eyes.

I came to know that she hated to wear exposed clothes. I liked the way she thought about decency of clothes, unlike Della who always loved to wear revealing clothes.

I basically hated the idea of wearing short dresses which made other men aroused and stare darkly at women. I am not judging Della, but there is a limit to wear clothes.

Lily wore short skirts too, but it at least kept men from lusting around. Della on the other hand, always loved to were tight clothes which seemed like thin layer of second skin. She even wore club clothes on formal parties.

I feel really bad for comparing my gf with Lily. I am the worst boyfriend ever!

There is something that makes me be closer to Lily. It's a feeling that I never had with Della. I liked Della before Lily came into my life, but nothing more than that.

After hearing Lily's history, I made sure that Jacob could never reach her. I ordered my friend who is a witch to cast the most powerful seal on the cave entrance after filling up with stones.

I knew that Jacob would come for Lily as she was damn sure about it.

The cave entrance leaded straight to my castle room.

That day, to evert any spies I didn't use that cave road. By the way, it was my secret hideout which I only filled up for Lily.

Lily doesn't know about the filling up of the cave. I kept her oblivion of everything that happened at the cave.

I know, Lily will never love me the way I do.

What if she does? Will you break up with the poor girl who claims to love you? Weren't you supposed to propose her and rule the kingdom with her? - my conscience said.

Right! How could I break Della's heart like that? I promised her that she would be the only woman in my heart.

But will she be happy if you married her, but your heart belongs to someone else? She will be happy with the happiness that lies in you and your happiness lies with Lily. Will you be happy if Lily marries another man? If you can be happy for her (L), then why can't Della be happy for you? - my inner voice argued.

That's true...if I love Lily can't Della accept my happiness. - I thought.

My thought where interrupted when Lily said, "Before you say anything, I just want to say that I am very mush sorry for my behaviour before. I know that you wanted me to be safe, otherwise why would your angry tone on me. But I really want to take the ritual. Just listen to me it's really important for not my life but also yours."

Why does she still have to think about that damned ritual? I am thinking to confessing me love for her, where she is thinking to give up her life for me. I don't care for the kingdom; I am trying so hard to make her understand. Why can't she just give up the topic and take the title for god's sake! I am tired of making her understand.

Cool down! You just don't want to scare her, do you? - my inner voice said.

Sometimes I think that my inner voice is not my inner voice. What rubbish am I saying? I think I am losing my mind right now. What I meant to say that is I think my inner voice is another entity. Bruh! I am such a trash!

But I will not allow her to perform this ritual. I need her in my life even if she doesn't love me. How can I not love her when she is so considerate and sacrificing? Just the thought of her not being here with me makes me very scared. Just come on, I just found her and I am not planning to push her to the game of death.

"NO. I know you are doing this for me. I am ready to give up the kingdom and it is not for only you rather I never wanted to be bounded by the rules which are set for a true King. Anyways, I can't put you into danger," I keeping my composure. I don't want ever want her to fear me. Heck! Why would I even want that!

"You are the best King I've ever known. You were meant to be the king, because it was written in your destiny. My life is not only in danger instead your life is!" she retorted.

What! What does she mean by that? I thought she was doing this for me. Why do I feel like she is trying to tell me something which is a threat to my life? Is she protecting me from someone?

I need to know more about it.

"What do you mean? Is it that you know something that is a life threat for me?" I asked trying to clear out my suspicion.

"Yes." was the only thing to make me understand everything. Even though I am very confused about the circumstance, I very well know that Lily has found something dirty that is happening behind my back.

I need to know everything quickly or else the consequence can be deadly.

I ushered Lily to come with me. I can't discuss this much of a sensitive topic inside my office. I always knew that there were many moles in the palace. If they got the clue of what we are going to discuss, I'm afraid they will use the info to achieve their motive.

We went to the most silent part of the palace. Only I knew about this place as I was a usually curious boy who wanted to know every part of the palace.

One day while playing hide and seek with my friends I unexpectedly found this place. Since then this place became my other secret hideout apart from the cave.

I hope my life doesn't get crazier and I still wanna grab the chance to tell her about how I feel.