The Alpha’s Weakness

Isabella- Chapter 13

You ever have so many mixed emotions that it makes your head hurt and all you want to do is scream…? Or Cry?…. Or both?

Yeah that is exactly what I’m feeling right now. This bond with Xander is getting hard to ignore and it hasn’t even been two days yet. I was tempted to let him kiss me. I knew that was what he was thinking before my dad graciously mid linked me asking if he could interrupt. Yes please!!

It’s not that I don’t want to kiss the guy but a lot has happened and I don’t want to give him mixed signals. I'm still heartbroken about Ryker. If I let him comfort me now it would only be because I’m distraught and I don’t want to lead him on.

“Sierra, you said you’ve seen Ryker?,” I ask. She’s been quiet for some time. I know she’s still there because all I can feel when Xander is near is her giddiness. I’m trying to stay heartbroken but her positivity is getting annoying and unfortunately it’s a bit contagious.

“Yes, I have. Why?”

“Well, did you talk to him about what happened? Did he say anything about me? How could you have seen him if he’s dead?” I start rambling off. Talking about this helps keep my mind off of other matters… like the ones that are about to start outside.

“Relax. He understands why it happened. He’s sad he isn’t here with you but he isn’t in pain. If he wasn’t killed that night something else, possibly worse would have happened. It isn’t your fault. The goddess and I have spoken a great deal, and I agree that it was the right thing to do. The trauma was necessary for you to have this great and powerful ability. And we are only touching the surface of what we can do. I’m sad about Ryker as well. I do share your memories after all. I know what all you two have been through and I care for him as well. But now we have Xander. He is the true half of our soul. The quicker you accept that; the easier the pain will be able to go away. That is only part of the reason why he is here. As far as the other part, that is up for him to tell you and for you both to figure out together. Now please just accept him. Even just a little bit.”

And with that all was silent. An uncomfortable silence. I know she claims that he is alright, but I can’t help but think that it was a mistake. I was excited for these powers, but if it meant losing Ryker… I’m not sure I’m happy I have them. As to what Sierra claims Xander needs to tell me… it must be big if we need to be figuring it out together. Not going to lie… It sounds like it's something major and why Sierra won’t just tell me (since she obviously knows) is kind of worrisome.

I head down to the ground floor in the castle. I know I’m supposed to stay on the upstairs floor, but they are all lucky I haven’t left the castle… yet. I didn’t make any promises and frankly Sierra wholeheartedly agrees. I know I just woken up from a three week nap but I just want to do something instead of staying trapped.

As I’m pacing back and forth I hear the attack siren start to wail. The battle has begun. This waiting here has suddenly got increasingly difficult. I can hear the sound of howling, and thanks to my better hearing every other sound I don’t want to hear. Just as I’m about to burst through the doors and run to help, I notice all the wounded start to be carried to the hospital and I head there to help instead.

The amount of blood I saw would make even the strongest of warriors pass out. I quickly got orders from a doctor to take the minor cases and shove the more serious ones to him. The smaller the wound though, got set to the side so they could heal up themselves. Thankfully cuts and lacerations will heal themselves quickly. In fact a cut all the way down to the bone will stop bleeding in about an hour and they will be fully healed and one hundred percent functional.

I get put in charge of resetting bones that are starting to heal wrong, dislocations that need to be put back, and sending major body wounds straight into surgery. I can hear all the cries and pains from the packs outside and the ones trying to make it into the hospital through mind links. The amount of fear coursing through them gets transferred to me and it makes it incredibly hard to focus at times.

As I was setting a broken leg with a cast, that was when I noticed it. My first fatality. Now this wasn’t my first time witnessing death in a battle. And I knew it wasn’t going to be my last. But I recognized this soldier. I trained him personally for two years now. He was one of my first students, and he was incredibly close to Ryker.

That’s when I lost it. I lost all sense of control. I finished the guy I was working on and then pointed to the nearest mostly healed wolf.

“You. Take over. Now!” I couldn’t help but let my aura seep into the words. He was going to do it whether he wanted to or not. Baring his neck in submission I helped him get the next person onto the table. It was Rachel. One of my commanders in training.

“You’re majesty, you can’t go! You need to stay here!” I heard her call out to me but this time Sierra was starting to fight her way through. She was just as angry as me. I whip my head around and let a growl escape my mouth, instantly causing every wolf within a fifteen foot radius to bare their necks in submission and look towards the floor. Later I would be told my fangs were out and my eyes had started to glow blue.

I ran out the door, thunder clapping up above me as the heavens threatened to spill buckets of raindrops all over. I wasn’t one for sitting on the sidelines and Sierra and I both could agree on that. I could feel Sierra starting to take control as my clothes started to rip off my body. With one single howl I was now running on all fours. Every rogue in my way was taken down in my path of fury.

Red. That was all we could see. Red blood from our enemies. Red flashes as lightning strikes at wolves from both sides. Red from the anger boiling through me. I couldn’t contain it. Nor did I want to. This was power, and it was f*****g intoxicating.

How I managed not to personally maim one of my own soldiers clearly remains a mystery. But the storm was not picking and choosing which sides. Where it landed, no matter the side, those wolves were hit. The fighting continued for what felt like forever. They weren’t backing down and neither was I.

I was just about to take down another rouge when someone jumped in front of me. It was Xander. He was in wolf form trying desperately to get me to stop, but Sierra and I were a force to be reckoned with. I fought him. There was nothing I could do to stop it. The anger was overpowering me. Luckily for him he was bigger than me. Not by much but all the same; bigger.

“GET OUT OF MY WAY!” I screamed to him via mind link. That was when the channel was open. As a royal we could talk to anyone but until we initiated it… they couldn’t talk back. I opened the channel which finally let him in.

“Isabella, I know you're angry! But you have to calm down. Your rage has started a tornado! Please listen and calm down!” He called out to me. That’s all it took. A small bit of his voice made me falter. A small bit of his voice in my head made me become distracted enough for him to pin me down.

“NOW!” I hear him call out through my mind. I felt it working before I knew what was going on. Frankie came in from behind, placing his hand on my head. Chanting like a crazed lunatic as I felt myself start to fall asleep. Fear ripples through me as I struggle from getting out of his reach and Xanders grasp. Slowly I change back to my human form. Feeling the wind against my bare skin and the rain and hail pelting down, I can’t help but whimper at what I’ve done.

I feel Xander shift back to his human form, never letting his hands leave me. I slowly start drifting off to sleep.

“Xander….. I’m sorry” I manage before my eyes fall shut.

“It’s alright Bells, I got you. We can get through this.” I hear him whisper in my ear before losing consciousness.