Guilty Tripping
1239 Words
"you don't have to do that." sofia refused weakly, "please, give me some time."
"so you want me to see the s**t he give you!?" dominic suddenly snapped, causing sofia to take a step back in surprise.
sofia's eyes widened in fear, her current expression was the same as their quarrel at the hotel, the other side was frightening to her that she just saw, she forgot that fact because the conversation she had with her mother was very gentle and touched her heart.
but now ...
sofia begins to regret agreeing to live with him again instead of living with her parents.
dominic exhaled, his face reddened with anger slowly started to return to normal, as well as his expression flat again as if what he said was not wrong, "babe, you have to understand my position if you want our relationship to return to normal."
sofia turned her face away, she understood how he felt, but he wasn't ready for a physical relationship, "you don't have to worry, i'll cover it up."
arsenio only had one love bite on his neck because he was worried that people in the kitchen would notice it while he was working.
but ...
because arsenio gives a lot of love bites in the chest and inner thighs.
"what did i do wrong that you treat me like this, huh...?" dominic muttered desperately to himself. he thought his plan was working, in fact he was hesitating to get in touch with her?
"you promised never to yell or say dirty words in front of me." sofia decides to be honest so that they understand each other.
"it's all your fault, you know that right?" dominic pointed back coldly, "you just think about how it feels to hear the person you love moaning someone else's name when you give him pleasure...!" he won't be able to accept it until he hears sorry from her mouth.
"dominic, please stop..." sofia pleaded weakly. he had thought about it, he also always thought about it until he felt he did not deserve to be loved by a man as good as arsenio because of his attitude.
"now you want me to stop?" dominic rolled his eyes.
"yes! because i always regret it!" sofia couldn't hold herself back and she finally let out what she had been feeling for a long time, "he offered me love, but i always hesitated! i feel like i don't deserve it! you are a woman full of problems! can you hear me!?" he snapped with all his heart, "you hear!? are you satisfied!?"
dominic didn't budge from listening to all of that, instead he was satisfied that he was suffering, so balanced now, "good." he muttered haughtily, only briefly because in the next second he was startled he fell to the floor sobbing. she didn't ask right away, leaving him in a position like kneeling begging him for mercy. after quite satisfied, he invites her to sit on the sofa while stroking her trembling back with all love, "babe, it's okay. i forgive you. you don't have to blame yourself anymore."
sofia is still sobbing. everything is not going to be okay, he hurts her and arsenio's heart too. their relationship will not be the same because her heart loves two men at the same time, "maybe you should find another woman..."
"don't want to." dominic quickly refused, "look. i forgive everything you did, including the time with him. so i ask you to do the same, okay? forget what happened yesterday, and look to the future with me."
"but..." sofia wasn't sure about that.
"sshh..." dominic put his index finger on her lips, "forget it. pretend everything never happened other than our relationship getting serious."
sofia looked into his eyes, neither doubt nor hatred radiated there, only sincerity and tenderness, all for him. seeing it all made him look down regretfully, "i'm sorry, dominic. if only i had listened to your warning from the start."
none of this will happen.
their relationship might be fine if he doesn't let arsenio give a chance.
arsenic...
without realizing it, sofia's eyes moved to the ring around her ring finger.
***
flash back
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"sofia, wait a minute."
sofia stopped walking to turn her head at the same time arsenio took his left hand to put something on his ring finger, "this ..." he watched in amazement a sparkling white diamond ring on his finger.
"i promised, didn't i? i'll give you a new one." arsenio explained proudly, "i'm wearing your pair of rings too." he raised his left hand where the silver ring with diamonds was smaller and much simpler than his.
so arsenio seriously said that yesterday the day after tomorrow?
sofia thought she was just joking to boost self-esteem in the midst of their fight, "it's a miracle people don't realize the ring you were wearing before wasn't a match to the ring dominic gave me."
"you mean lucky that men's styles are much simpler than women's?" arsenio expressed his opinion, the ring he wore before was only bought from a jewelry shop his distant brother, arkyn, "this way, we start a serious relationship."
are you serious?
sofia feels uncomfortable with it.
"our marriage may have started with a lie, but i never thought like that, i took it seriously all this time, i acted uninterested when actually in my heart i was happy. you can judge i'm selfish, i understand," arsenio couldn't believe himself explaining what the last part, "from now on there will be no more lies, i promise you. so i beg you if there is a problem about me, you ask me first okay?"
"how would i know if you were trying to cover up your lie with another lie?" sofia asked because all this time her acting was almost perfect she didn't realize it.
"you know how i lie, don't you? we've been friends since childhood, i guess that's enough for you to understand me, just as i understand your good and bad habits." arsenio answered him in a calm voice, "i'm trying to build an honest relationship between us, it's all up to you whether you trust me or not. you are free to make your own decisions, but once again i beg you to talk to me first if there is a problem, ok? "
sofia agrees with what he says, but the problem is that she was fooled all along, not realizing she loves him secretly, "i'll give it a try, arsenio." he might be disappointed with her answer, but this was all he could give at this point, their relationship was just starting after all.
arsenio smiled bitterly. he poured out his heart, but apparently he didn't believe it completely, but the feeling was only for a moment, he was sure he could change his mind, they still had a long way to go, "thank you for giving me a chance, sofia. i promise not to disappoint you."
for that one, sofia nodded sincerely, so far she hasn't disappointed her, always treats her special, "you can back off fighting for me, you know that, don't you?" she is afraid he made her wait for him too long as her feelings are still undecided.
"i didn't know that, it wasn't in my dictionary." arsenio took a step closer to him "all i know is i want to make you mine, sofia ..."
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