My Mate is a Traitor

5. The unrevealed feelings

Lachesis room in Crystal Palace

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I thought that as soon as I would be in my room I would be save, because my room was my sanctuary. The place that was created for me and for my needs and no one could enter it without my permission. But soon I figured out that I was mistaken.

Totally exhausted I opened the door to my room. I considered myself lucky that I made it till to my room because I almost fainted right in front of my mother in the Clotho’s room. It saved me that the Clotho’s room wasn’t so far from my room but still coming to my room costed me more energy that I thought because as soon as the door of my room were closed behind me, I leaned against the door and I slowly slided to the floor.

Damn!

What the hell happened to me!?

I never felt as much exhausted as today. I tried to come to myself, but it was hard. It was like I used almost all my power, but how? I was trying to find out what exhausted me so much when suddenly I sensed that I wasn’t alone. There was another consciousness near me and whoever it was, it was too close too me.

F…ck!

Who dared to come to my room without my permission and what was the reason to come unnoticed? How was it even possible that someone could enter my privat room?

Damn! There were too many questions in my mind and I couldn’t just ask.

I was exhausted and my only advantage was that thanks to my skills I figured out that the intruder was there. Knowing that he was near me he lost the surprise moment. I should use this as an advantage.

I tried to calm myself down because I didn’t want that he would suspect that I noticed something. I started to thing what would be my next move when I sensed that the one came even closer.

S…t!

I had to do something immediately or else if he had bad intentions I wouldn’t have many chances how to defend myself. I had to find out why he was there.

There was only one way to finding out who it was and what was his intention. I had to use my power.

Damn!

Knowing that I was barely breathing I focused trying to gather my powers to break in to the intruder’s mind.

It was strange!

I was almost in his mind. I could see his consciousness but there was something else that was guarding it. I stopped and I looked around. I felt it but I couldn’t see it. I got goosebumps.

I tried to make another step closer to his mind when suddenly something invisible caught me.

I tried to escape but it held me tight. When I tried to move it held me more tightly and soon it started to be painful.

My body groaned from the sudden pain.

“STOP! IMMEDIATELY! You will hurt yourself if you keep going!” said suddenly someone and I heard in his voice that he was worried about me. It was a men’s voice that I knew. But what was he doing there?

I didn’t have time to think what was his reason to came because I started to loose control.

S…t!

I tried to stop but my powers didn’t listen to me. This was really bad! I started to panic. I couldn’t stop my powers no matter how hard I tried. Knowing that if I keep going I would hurt him or myself I started to shake.

Damn!

I didn’t want to hurt him but how could I stop myself? I didn’t understand why I couldn’t control my powers anymore and exactly in that second I felt helpless. Suddenly I felt something on my cheeks. It was his fingers. He was wiping my tears.

I was confused because I didn’t realize that I started to cry.

“ You are really stubborn. If I didn’t let you in, you would definitely hurt yourself and I couldn’t see you suffer like that foxy. I didn’t want to expose myself like that but it looks like I don’t have another choise if I want to save you. I hope that you won't be too disappointed.” I heard his whispering in my ear. Suddenly the pain was gone and I was left free. There was nothing that could stop me now to enter his mind.

For a second the better part of me was hesitating because he was obviously not there to hurt me. He deliberately let me enter his mind when he found out that I will not hurt myself. But the other part of me that was uncontrollable now wanted to see everything so I entered.

The first thing that I saw when I came to his mind was me entering my room. I could feel how worried he was when he saw me almost fainted to the floor. On the same time I saw how mesmerized he was when he saw how stubborn I was trying to find out who he was even when I was obviously exhausted.

I looked around because I wanted to see why he came. There were many images moving around me from his past and I wasn’t sure which one should I choose to see what I wanted. I was too exhausted and I almost used all my powers for entering so I had to just choose randomly. I chose the one that was closest to me and almost immediately I fe0ll into his living memory.

I was now back in the Golden hall on the Mount Olympus in time when we were still living on the Earth. Everyone was gathered there and I looked around because I wanted to see what a special day it was. The Gods gathered there before only when there was something extraordinary or special. So this day had to be special as well. When I was looking around I saw Hermes standing back from the others. He was looking like he wasn’t there at all. He was leaning at one of the pillars with crossed arms obviously waiting for opportunity to leave as soon as possible. I smirked. It was funny to see Hermes so impatient and frustrated.

Suddenly I heard that everyone got silent and I looked where everyone was looking as well. I saw my mother Nyx that appeared in front of everyone in most beautiful dark dress that I saw only once in my life. Then I suddenly remembered.

It was a day when Nyx introduced the tree of us to other Gods as the Moirai the Goddesses of fate. It was the first time that we met the others as well. I remembered how excited each of us was to see other Gods. When Nyx came to us and we saw how beautiful she was we were so proud that we were her daughters. She looked amazing in her dress. I was wondering who created such a masterpiece because her dress looked like it was made from the midnight sky. They were dark and everywhere were tiny little shiny stars. With the small diadem she looked like a true queen of the darkness. We were so enchanted with her beauty that for a second we totally forgot that this day should be actually our day. We should be the center of everyone attention but with this dress all attention was stolen by our mother. So when Nyx called Clotho as the first of the fate Goddesses no one actually looked at her and her beautiful blue dress because everyone was looking and admiring Nyx.

I clenched my fists when I saw the same in Hermeses memories what I remembered. The second that came out was Atropos in her gold dress. She looked amazing but still not enough to catch the attention. I sighed because I knew what should come. The third person that my mother called was me. When I came out things has changed. The everyone's attention was on me. Everyone was looking at me with a shock. I was the first goddess that had a flaming hair. I still saw how disgusted it was for some Gods seeing me and I still felt how hurt I got when I saw it. I thought that it was already behind me but when I saw myself standing again in front of everyone I still felt embarrassed. I shaked with my head because I had to focus on Hermeses feelings and memories and not mines. I looked at him because I was expecting that he would be one of those that found my appearance disgusting but I got surprised. My appearance took his attention indeed but not in the way that I thought. Not at all. He was mesmerized. When he saw me his heart started to beat faster and I clearly saw his desire. In his eyes I was the most beautiful creature on the world. He wanted to hold me more than anything and not just to hold. He wanted to kiss me, to be with me and to protect me. Suddenly he caught his heart when he realized that this small red haired Goddess stole his heart.

As soon as I found it I got out from that memory.

Damn! This was too much!

I didn’t expect to find that Hermes was actually in love with me.

S…t

I entered his mind to find why he came and what was his intention and I found something else. Something that made me more confused. Instead of some answears I was leaving his mind with many other questions.