unwanted success

became stonger

At the age of 13 i went to south korea. Where my father wanted to go he was very exited that night and me too. we planted to visit together but now i was all alone. I remember first time when i landed in korea i really understand why my father liked korea so mush. A 13 years old kid all alone visit different county i know its sound scary but still i made it. In korea i went to a hotel to stay the night. I stay a south korea capital city name seoul city. And i decide to take a night walk and then i saw how beautiful korea is. Every peoples looked very happy and there dress hair looked different to me. They were eating the street food. Some where many young kids are dancing and singing its seem very passionating. Everything seem different here. And i felled like i am hungry. I saw a tent in the street and i decided to have something. The owner was a old lady. She said "welcome "in korean language"asoseo". I know korean language very well because sometimes me and my dad talk to each other in korean language at home. But this was the first time i speaked a native lady i was nervous at first but she asked me i am foreigner or some thing..? I said yes in korean language. she recommend some food what was best her there. She gave me some rice in a bowl, kimchi, some other side dish.dry fish.,vegetables. And she gave me chop stick. My father told me everyone in korea use chopsticks include chaina and Japan. At first i had a problem to use chopsticks but the owner old lady seem very sweet and teach me how to use it.I barly can use it the old lady saw it and give me a spoon. The food was good. And it was a traditional food in hear. I eat indian food regularly maybe that's why i did not fell any spices. And i really love the food mostly the decoretion . I paid here and she ask me how was the food i told her i really enjoy it and she seem very happy and ask me to if i like her food want me to came another time. And she said i am a very beautyfull young lady.I know beacause i mostly look after my mother fair skin, short heart lips, double eyelashes, high pointed nose, black hair . Everyone in the street seem very shocked and said i am very pretty in there language and must say thank you to everyone in there language (khansammida). And that's why the first time i feel shy.When i speakes korean language everyone get shocked and surprise they ask me how i knew there language and i explain them that my father was half korean.And i learn korean language form him. l am kind of forgot what i lost that was a very pleased experience. The next day i planed where i wanted to go . The highest tower in korea ( Namsan) tower. The tower was very big and high. And like my father said to me the hole city can seem in this tower . And this is the place where my father propose my mother and they even lock there lover key in this tower wall.. I grow up seen a photo in our wall that my parents in a Namsan tower lock there love key.And i am here today to find the key but when i came here its like million million people lock there love key and wished for there love to be successful . Me and my father planed to came here and found the key that my mother lock in here.But right now i am the only one who came here and wanted to find it. Its took me 4 hours to found the key but finally i found it.And like my mother did i also wish here and lock my key in this wall. I spend 1 full week in korea and like my father said when you are in korea you don't want to leaves korea. That this was happen to me. Korea was different maybe i fell like this because i am half korean too.Korean people are very respectfull they bow eatch other at first. They dont drink alcohol infond of elder face. They really enjoy there meal and respect food.Korean school have very unique rules they start class in the morning and its finish at 10 pm. They spend time together and learn many things like i did in my militarily traning. Koreanes are very hard working and very enjoyable country . whey like there k pop idol like there own husband. I like how the girls were there traditional dresses. school girls have to were skirts and shirt they looks very beautiful. After i came back to America and my house i fell empty inside i lost everything in here but i had many friends here everything i know in here every people every place but still i dont know . but when i was in korea i don't even know anyone but still i like to be with them i dont fell empty inside. After i came back America my friends and my parents friends came to me and try to inspire me. I don't even want to attend the traning. I skip the class and set in the beach and think about to kill myself. Suddenly 1 day i found my fathers notes. When he was sad he use to write down a notes. I really wants to read that. When i stated to read the notes the line was cough my eyes that my both parents don't wanted to me joined the military. They both love there own job but they don't wanted to me joined the military they want me to do something else. I looked up my fathers nothes he actually speakers to my mother throw the notes. And then i understood why my father don't want to talk about my mother. Because he had his own world with his imagination where he talk with my mother. That was a very sad night. I cried all the night. After 2/3 days the news came out that American government don't want to send there army anymore because America don't want to loss there armys life And they wanted to stop the war different way. I dont know what to do because i dreamed about the position that does not have any meaning. And also i loss all my hopes to live life. Most of the time i spend my time to read my dad notes and found our hsppy memories . And i found out my dad wanted to live korea permanently when his retirement. The day after day its was very painful to live alone in this house.And karim gets old he always wanted to go back to India but maybe thinking about me he couldn't do that.One night i just lay in the grass and try to life on SO I decide to change my plan and try to do something that a normal kid not to do