Nicholas p.o.v.
I was still as restless as a caged beast.
It's been one month now, and I was still here, seeking chastity. But nothing helped, I woke up every day, thinking about Xenia, missing her sweet voice as she used to hum the prayer while making tea. I work all day, thinking about Xenia, missing those curious innocent eyes as she used to watch my every move from afar, I pray in the evening, still thinking about Xenia, missing that peace of her presence as she used to pray with me, And at night, I slept, obviously thinking about Xenia, missing that serenity I had felt, knowing Xenia is safe...and with me.
My entire life was just around Xenia, and now when she wasn't here with me, I was as lost as a vagrant, with no destination to go and no home to live. How was I even living be
