My ex is my soulmate

Chapter four - Party for welcome

Austin's POV:

I can't believe that Ally is here. It's not enough that she is in my classes, but we also have to share the same room. If we were still together, I wouldn't mind it, but now, it feels awkward. The worst thing is that no one wanted to be her roommate. The same is for me. I guess that we are stuck together. Well, most of the time we have classes and during the other time, I am outside, but I still have to sleep somewhere. Very soon, since we started dating, we slept together. I mean that it was only sleeping. I know what sense people put into this, but we didn't do anything. Now, it's weird to sleep with her in one room, but not in the same bed. I won't lie that it hurts me a little bit, but I won't do anything. After all, I don't know how she would feel about this. I won't lie that I would love to take her in my arms and never let her go, but I know that it's wrong. Sometimes I wish that I hadn't loved her so much. Well, we all know that this is impossible. No matter what Ally does, I can't get mad at her. Since the day we met, she has done something to me and I couldn't stop thinking about her. This is until today. Maybe we can work things out. I don't know if we can be friends, but if this is the only option, I prefer this instead of being strangers.

I woke up and looked to see that Ally was still sleeping. You have no idea how much I want to get under the covers of her bed and cuddle with her, but I won't do it. Instead, I got up and went to get ready. We have a class in thirty minutes and I don't want to be late. When I am done, I will wake her up. Well, if she doesn't do it by herself. Let's hope that she does because I won't lie that this will be awkward. The only times when I have woken her up personally was when we were sleeping together. Now, things are different.

I went to the bathroom and when I was done, I walked out to see Ally still sleeping. Damn it! She still sleeps cute. I would gladly leave her, but I know that she doesn't like to be late. The same as me. I have to admit that I have pretended to be a bad boy, but only around her. For the others, I was just me. I walked up to her bed and sat on the ground. She sleeps so peacefully.

- Ally. Wake up. You will be late.

- Five more minutes mom.

- I'm not your mom. Will you get up?

With that, Ally opened her eyes and didn't look very pleased to see that it was me. I'm not surprised. Probably the first thing that she wanted to see wasn't me for sure. She didn't say anything and closed her eyes. I got up and sat on my bed. I can go to class without her, but I'm not a jacka*s.

- If you wake up, we can go together. Otherwise, I will go, and you will be late. I know that you don't want it.

- You better go. I will come later.

- If that's what you want. I tried to be nice, but ok. I will go.

I thought that she would say something, but no. Well, in that case, I can't do anything else. I took my things for class and walked out. When I arrived, the room was only half-full. One boy made a sign for me to sit with him. I met a couple of boys when I came here, but I didn't notice him. I left my things on the desk, and he gave me a flyer. I looked at him, and he smiled.

- I am making a party for welcome. You can come if you want.

- Thanks, this is what I need.

- You can tell your roommate as well. It's open to everyone.

- I will do it.

- Oh, there she goes.

- Who?

I looked up and saw Ally with a girl. Don't tell me that he is going after Ally. I know that she is single, but I won't let her go out with someone who she has just met. I looked in his direction and noticed that he was looking at the other girl. I won't lie that she looks good.

- You like her or what?

- That girl over there is my best friend Macy.

- What? Really?

- Yes. She hates parties, and that's why I didn't invite her. Well, she can come if she wants, but I don't think that she will do it. After all, I know her.

- You can find another girl. By that way, what is your name?

- Oh, I am Toby.

- Nice. I'm Austin.

- Can I know why you looked so weird when the girl with my best friend came?

- So you noticed this.

- Everybody did. Now, spill the tea.

- There is nothing to spill. We were at the same high school, and I was surprised to see someone from there. No one else has chosen this university, or at least I don't know about that.

- I understand. Macy and I both decided to be at the same university. We grew up together. She even helped me with one date, but it didn't end very well. I won't say much, but I thought that the girl was something else.

- Well, there is a lot of fish in the sea.

- True.

After all my classes, I went to my dorm to take a shower. I will go to this party. Mostly, because I need a distraction from Ally. It's not like she did something to me, but I need to stay away from her. At least for now. I walked into my dorm and saw her coming out of the bathroom with only a towel on. Can she stop doing this? Like it's not enough that I still have feelings for her and now that. I don't want to do something which both of us will regret later.

- Excuse me.

- Hey! Don't scare me!

- Don't go just with a towel in front of me.

- I didn't know that you would be here.

- Yeah, definitely.

- What do you want?

- To use the bathroom. A boy invited me to a party, and I am going. Even you are invited.

- Really?

- Yes, look at the flyer. - I said and pulled it out of my backpack

- It sounds interesting. I'll call Macy.

I took my towel and went into the bathroom. An idea came to me. If she could walk with no clothes in front of me, I would be without a shirt. It's not like she didn't see me on the first day. In my defense, I expected a boy. When I was done, I put on my clothes, but without a shirt. I walked out and sat on my bed. I saw how she looked at me, which made me chuckle. Before, Ally loved it when I did this, but now, I don't know how she will react to that. We made eye contact, but soon she pulled out her phone. I wonder when this will be over.

- I know that you probably will say no, but since both of us will go, do you want us to go together?

- Why not? As long as you keep your hands away from me.

- Yes, mam.

We decided to go at 7 pm. Not too early and not too late. When we walked inside the room, there were many people. I wanted to grab her hand and protect her from all the weirdos here, but I didn't have the right. Now, Ally is single and I can't stop her from doing what she wants. Both of us separated. She walked to Macy and me to Toby. I saw how his eyes widened when he saw his best friend. It's like he didn't expect her to be there. Toby walked up to her and I followed him. That will be interesting.

- Can I know what you are doing here?

- Partying what else? - Macy said

- You hate parties.

- True, but I decided to give them a chance.

- No, no. I don't want to be a babysitter tonight.

- Who said that you had to do it?

- I won't let you alone with all these freaks over here.

I looked at Ally who was trying so hard to stop herself from laughing. Yes, they are definitely only best friends. I wonder how long they can keep fooling themselves. I took Ally's hand and pulled her away. Let's give the love birds some time.

- What was that for?

- They need some time alone.

- Who is this boy?

- Macy's best friend.

- What?

- I thought that you knew.

- No, she never mentioned it.

- Maybe she forgot to tell you. Ok, I will go for drinks. Do you want anything?

- No, thanks.

I went to grab a drink and one girl came to me. I will try to be nice, but I am not interested. No matter who she is. I smiled at her and walked away, but she didn't give up.

- Hello handsome. I haven't seen you here.

- Hi. This is my first year here.

- I can give you a very good experience if you want. Something that you will never forget.

- I'm not interested.

- Are you sure? You haven't seen what I can do.

- I don't care. Now leave me alone.

She didn't say anything and walked away. Soon Toby came and looked at me, chuckling.

- Tell me that you didn't cut off Alexia.

- Why?

- She is one of the most popular girls here. Well, she is not looking for a boyfriend. This girl only likes hook-ups and make-outs.

- I don't care. I'm not looking for any of these things.

- Is it because of Ally?

- What does she have to do with that?

- I thought that you would tell me.

- There is nothing between Ally and me, ok?

- If you say so.

I looked up and saw Ally talking with a boy. Well, it looked like he was talking with her. She doesn't look very interested. Would it be wrong if I punched him? Yes, it will. I don't have the right to do anything which will look like I care for her or that there is something between us. We are nothing, and I have to accept it. It's not like I want to. I saw that he was about to do something, but Ally stopped him. That's it! I won't stay here, watching this. I left my drink and walked away. I need to calm down. If I keep acting like that, she might get mad at me and that is the last thing that I want. Soon I heard a voice and turned around to see that she was there.

- Hey, what's wrong? Why did you leave like that?

- It doesn't matter. You can go back to the party.

- Austin, you can tell me if there is a problem.

- I told you that it doesn't matter.

I was about to walk away, but she didn't let me. Instead, Ally grabbed my hand and pulled me for a hug. You have no idea how good this feels. I haven't done this for more than three months. I don't want to let her go, but everything is over. We are not together anymore. When we pulled apart, she looked at me with a smile on her face.

- Do you want us to watch a movie in our dorm? - Ally asked me

- What about the party? I don't want to ruin your night.

- It's fine. I didn't like it anyway.

- Ok, then. Let's go home.

- You mean to our dorm. - she said, chuckling

- Yeah, the same thing.

Both of us walked to our dorm. Ally wanted to choose the movie, and I let her. She grabbed her laptop and a chair, which she put in front of my bed. Soon she played the movie and laid her back on the wall. Why did she have to play the After movies? These were our favorite. She rested her head on my shoulder, and I used the chance to wrap my hand around her and pull her for a hug. In the middle of the movie, I felt that there was something wrong. I looked at Ally and saw that she was crying. I don't know if it is because of the movie or there is another reason.

- Hey, are you ok?

- Yes I'm fine. - she said and wiped her tears

- If you want, we can watch something else.

- There's no need to. I'll be fine.

- Look, Ally...

- No, I don't want to hear anything.

We didn't talk until the end of the movie. After that, she went to her bed. I don't want to leave her, but I don't have a reason for which I can keep her close.

- Austin, what happened?

- Nothing.

- I don't think so. Did I do something?

- No, you didn't do anything.

- Ok, then. Good night.

- Ally!

- Yes?

- Can I get a hug?

- Um... sure. - she said and gave me one

- Thank you.

- No problem.

- Good night and sweet dreams.

- To you too.

With that, I went under the covers of my bed. It hurts me watching her without being able to do anything, but that is better. I won't lie that I want her back. With her, everything was easy. Even if I had problems, they were solved by themselves. Ally was my life savior. Now, I lost her. Maybe not forever, but I still don't know how to fix our relations. I can easily tell her how I feel, but this is not enough. I need to show her how much she means to me. Ally is the best thing that happened in my life, and I want to keep her. I hope that she feels the same. I love you Ally, and I always did.