*** Ayla ***
I am not looking forward to seeing Jay in the afternoon. It’s not like I actually want a relationship with him or anything -no sir-ee- but the fact that he dismissed me as damaged goods so thoroughly and immediately - well, it hurt. I called him briefly and told him Charlie would drop me home so I didn’t have to ride in the car with him.
Pathetic and immature? Yes. Do I care? Nope. Ok, also yes. I care. I’m one of those over-sensitive people who care too much about what people think of me and who cares too much about other people.
Why was I so damn unlovable?
I try to be a good person. It is easy for me to avoid love because it truly terrifies me to be in love. Is that it? Maybe I don’t take care of myself as I used to, who would want to love someone like me? But then
