Maybe this time [[ NaLu: Fanfiction ]]

(2) CHAPTER #17

LUCY's POV

I POUTED my lips as I survey the entire place, and I really don't know what should I feel on my surroundings. The entire place was full of couples who have been dating, I guess and some are doing some lovey-dovey which is really irritating in my eyes.

"There's no forever" I murmur under my breath.

"Why you're acting like that Lucy" I heard a soft chuckle from my side and when I turned my head to see her face - I almost roll my eyes when I saw a familiar emotion that flashed on her eyes.

"Seriously, Erza" I say "Even you," I say disbelief is really visible on my voice.

"What's wrong about being in love?" She asked me.

I sighed "Its not wrong to be in love as long as I didn't this super irritating PDA," I say emphasizing the last four words "I went to this cafe to remove my stressed but it gives the opposite feeling," I said while massaging my temple.

Its been three days since my brothers learned about what happened in my marriage life, three days since they keep on nagging me about our divorce, three days and they keep on repeating to me that I shouldn't think of the man who hurt me. It's been three days and they keep on telling me that I shouldn't think about him that if Natsu approaches me, they will surely kill him.

So here I am right now, I went to the cafe with Erza so I could escape to my brothers "So, what happened to you?" Erza ask me.

"I just worried," I say. Erza raised her eyebrow as she waiting for me to continue "My brothers knew about what happened to me two years ago. And they keep on telling me that they will surely kill Natsu for hurting me"

"So Sting and Rogue huh" she murmured "But, I think you shouldn't be worried about your ex-husband, I mean, you don't have any feelings about him or you still have"

Am I?

I TRIED to stop myself from crying again but it feels like I can't control my own emotions. Crying should help me alleviate the pain but its not. It feels like my tears won't stop. "C-Can you fixed my heart? C-Can you heal it? C-Can you say to my f*****g heart to forget that stupid man? T-That this heart of mine will never beat for him. Tell me Zeref, can you make my heart to forget... Natsu Dragneel?"

Zeref pull me into a hug - I don't know what to feel right now... I feel like I was dying all over again... I just want to kill myself so that I can't feel this pain. I just want to forget him.

"Let's go"

With my eyes streak with tears and my body heaving with a sob, I looked at him and sob "W-Where?"

"Where do you wanna go?"

I slowly brush my tears away on my cheeks "I want to forget... everything."

I CLOSE my eyes tightly when I remembered that day - the day when Natsu hurt me and leave me with broken pieces of my heart "Lucy are you alright?" Erza ask me worriedly

"What?"

"I was asking you if are you still in love with him, with Natsu Dragneel?"

I shook my head "The moment I left this country two years ago, it was the moment, my feelings for him died"

"But you are worried about him"

"Because I knew Lisanna will be sad if something happened to him"

"Are you sure that it will be Lisanna, Lucy? Like what I've always told you, Lisanna is dead"

I know that my friend is dead and I do know for myself that I wasn't in love him. That the day I left, I knew that I don't any feelings for him because that's how it should be. That I should move forward without him because...

...

We are not really for each other.

That we just destined to meet each other but we are not meant to be.

I SILENTLY watched the whole area, after Erza talked with me I went to the nearest park.

I don't want to go home because I know that my brothers are going to just ask me about my decisions and about him. Right now, I just want to be alone, I want to think. I stopped walking when I suddenly to hear my name from my back. I slowly turned around and I was surprised to see someone I was not expecting to see "Loki"

He smiled at me before he pulled me into a hug "How are you?"

He releases me from his hug as I cheerfully start our conversation. Loki was one of those who had been my suitors when I was studying but because I was foolishly in love with Natsu Dragneel I never got a chance to accept his feelings towards me.

"You're beautiful," he says.

I rolled my eyes as I laugh "Stop flirting me Loki, or I'll cut your balls " I joke.

He laughs " You didn't change even a little, Lucy " He pulled me again and hug me. I just smile on him but I was about to push him when I felt someone has grabbed my arms.

My body landed on his perfect chest. I slowly, very slowly look on him as I saw Natsu's face, "Don't touch my wife or I'm the one who will cut your balls"

"Wife?" Loki looks on me "Who is this bastard, Lucy?" Loki asks me curiously.

A smirk from on my lips as I say " He's nothing Loki. Let's go" I was about to hold on his arms but the next thing I knew. Natsu's eyes lit up and he began walking after me, his tall frame catching up quickly. He grabbed me by my waist and flung me over his shoulder, causing me to squeal in shock " What the f**k! Put.Me.Down. Dragneel"

"Shut up Lucy," he says as he keeps on walking.

"How many times do I have to tell you that you don't have the rights to dictates my own life?" he doesn't say anything and he just continues to walk. He just drops me down the opposite side of her car "Why are you doing this s**t?"

"Hop in," he says

"Why you're not answering my freaking questions?"

"I said hop in, Mrs. Dragneel!" He almost yells "hop in, NOW!" I bite my lower lips to control my temper but then again I just found myself slipped into the car. He peeled out of the driveway before I could even buckle my seat-belt.

"What is your problem? " I ask him "Chill out, Dummy," I said annoyed.

" Care to explain to me, who's that bastard is? "

I rolled my eyes "He was just being friendly. It's not a big deal." He slammed on the breaks, causing my body to lurch forward and my purse crashing against the dashboard.

"Not a big deal?" he snarled. He took a deep breath, calming his temper. "You even say to him that I was nothing to you. I'm your f*****g husband." he trailed off.

I could feel him glaring at me, but kept my gaze straight ahead, "You said those words on your flings, Natsu. So what's the big deal?"

" Lucy... I regret what I did to you. I'm sorry for being a world-class jerk. "

"You regret it?" I look on him and give him a disbelieving look before I speak again "If you really regret then stop messing around, and go back to your f*****g wife."

"You're my wife, Lucy."

I laugh sarcastically "Wife? I thought you married that lizard," He glares on me "Eyes on the f*****g road Dragneel."

"I can't be married to someone if I'm still married to you Lucy, You know that's put in the law. And Leona is nothing. She's part of my past"

" I'm also part of your past, Natsu. " I mumble under my breath. Looking out the window, my mind in a thousand different places.