I awoke knowing all I needed to, and regretting ever learning any of it. I stayed in bed all day, sobbing, and cursing Fate. My sorrow was an abyss and I was held firm in it's darkness. I mourned that which I had yet to lose, and I cried until my eyes burned and my throat ached. I stayed under the covers, trying to recreate the warmth of my mate's arms, but to no avail. I grieved for all that I knew was to come, until there was nothing inside me that could cry out anymore.
I sat surrounded by my own sense of numbness, too empty to feel anything anymore. I felt the aching pain that the matebond brought. I was too far from Rider, and my emotions were too suffocating. I wanted to see him more than anything. To be comforted, to the point of forgetting everything I had learned, but that wasn'
