We walked most of the journey in silence. Mostly cause of the pep talk I kept giving myself. Was I really ready to allow him in all in one day.
We had just started approaching the hotel near the café when I realized I wasn't ready and I needed to talk to Jean tonight. I turned around to face him.
"wait. I can't" I looked down ashamed of doing this.
"what's going on?"
"I'm not ready. I thought I could but I can't yet." I was too ashamed to even look at him.
"it's okay. But how do I know where to find you maybe we can meet tomorrow." I could see that he had so many doubts and didn't trust that I would show up. I totally understood just that I really wasn't ready to tell him all that I have been through during this healing process.
"we can meet at the same cafe tomorrow."
"okay."
