Perdita I watched as they sailed away. The ship turned smaller and smaller as the waves took them further from me. When I couldn't see the ship anymore, I sat down behind the railing resting my head on my arms over I asked Tyler if he would come next weekend as well... He said he would, but part of me wanted him to avoid this nightmare, even if that meant that I'd stay alone forever. The fear and pain I saw in his eyes after today's incident was really eye-opening experience. This was my reality and sooner or later, I would've regained consciousness either way. I'm glad they helped but the terror in Jake's eyes and the pain in Tyler's made me question if this whole friendship and love thing was a good idea. I mean, friends and love are supposed to share great and happy memories together,

