Taste of Poison

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There were things that need to let go of in order to give ourselves the happiness we deserved. Though I believed that I don't deserve this. The love he's showering me, the kindness, all his admiration. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba sa akin niya iyon binibigay. 

I did nothing but forsake him in any way.

But still, I stayed after knowing everything. Hindi iyon ang pinakatama na desisyon pero tama si Azarius. I'd leave, think, and would come back for him again. Hindi naman iyon pagsasayang ng oras pero gusto ko sa pagkakataon na ito ay kasama ko siya. 

Although everytime we're together, I always ask myself if I'm worth to be with as I caused him wrong which can't be no longer be corrected. Hindi ko nga alam kung matutuwa ako o ano dahil hindi ko naramdaman ang pag-iba niya ng tra