Montecillo Series - Tiffany Montecillo

Silence

Tiffany POV

Months have passed and I am close to graduating from College. Since nasa senior year na ako tambak ako parati ng school works. I do go out on dates, which pinipilit pa ni Tristan, but most of my time I spend it at home doing school works.

Minsan nalang ako pumunta ng library sa school, I use the study room sa bahay. I really did not see him anymore, kahit pa sumasama ako kina Dad during his trips. He did what he said. I should be happy but I found myself saddened by the fact na di ko na siya nakikita.

It was Friday and I was at school. Wala nanaman si Amber kasi daw may lagnat. So it was only me, since Tristan is also out kasi sinama ng dad niya.

It was lunch time, I was eating all alone sa table. Sometimes merong gusto sumabay but I just stared at them. Hindi ko alam bakit ako naging ganun.

I just ate alone. I saw the table for the faculty na napupuno na din. I saw her there, pero wala siya. I thought wala nanaman but to my surprise, he was there. Umiba lang siya ng upuan at hindi tumabi sa kanya.

Ayoko maglagay ng kahit anpng malisya. He didn’t look my way, but I saw her glance at me with a blank face. I just lowered my head saka nagpatuloy sa pagkain.

I was in the middle of eating nang tumawag naman si Tristan sa phone, a videocall. I answered it and saw na it was for the three of us, Amber was also there.

“Hi baby!” bungad ni Tristan.

“Besh, sensya na ha, masama talaga pakiramdam ko.”

“Okay lang naman, konti lang naman class o ngayon kaya di ko na alintana.”

“That’s my girl. Yaan mo, sunduin ita mamaya.”

“Kahit wag na.”

“Ahy grabe naman siya, syempre gusto naman kita makasama.”

“Kung ako tatanungin, mas pipiliim ko ding wag na.”

“Walang nagtatanong sayo, Amber, kaya manahimik ka.”

Napatawa naman ako sa kanilang dalawa. Nahagip ng paningin ko na nakatingin siya sakin kaya’t napatahimik ako.

Natapos ako sa pagkain na kausap pa din sila. Tumayo na ako dala ang aking kinainan at nilagay sa sink bago ako luabas ng canteen. Patuloy pa din sa pagbangayan sila Tristan at Amber habang nakikinig lang ako sa kanila.

“Basta, baby, susunduin kita jan. Di ba last class mo is 5pm? I’ll be there by 4.30pm.”

“Tiff, besh, ihi mo nalang ako kay sir Miguel ha.”

I just stared at them silently then smiled a bit.

“I have to go now. Papasok na ako library.” I said then hung up.

I sighed and just went in the library. Pinili ko pa din ang pinaka dulo na upuan. I sat there and took out my books.

May 2 hours pa ako kaya tatapusin ko lang muna yung papers ko. Binuklat ko ang libro ko saka nagsimula nang magbasa.

Kalagitnaan nang pagbabasa ko ay napansin kong may naupo sa tabi ko, I didn’t mind it pero nang maamoy ko siya ay biglang napa angat ang ulo ko.

Tinignan ko siya pero natatabunan ng partion ang mukha niya. Ang bilis ng t***k ng puso ko, f**k I missed him.

Binalik ko sa aking binabasa ang mga mata ko pero halos di ko na ito makita dahil sa namumuong luha sa aking mga mata.

I couldn’t handle it so I stood up and went to find some books. I stood at the very end trying to hide my tears. I just stood at the very end of the shelf and stayed there for a while. Nakaharap ako sa bintana so I didn’t see him coming.

“Why are you crying?” his deep voice penetrates my soul.

“Nothing.” Nakita ko nalang na sumandig ang pang ibaba niya sa cabinet.

“Nothing, yet you cry in here.”

Hindi ako umimik, I wiped my tears and composed myself again. Tumikhim lang ako saka tumayo ng matuwid.

“Did you guys fight?” I looked at him and I have to say that it was a wrong move because the I saw how his gloomy eyes is. He lifted his hand only to caress my cheeks.

“I miss you.” He whispered, and I closed my eyes because I miss him too.

I didn’t say a thing but I know that my tears were falling, pinahid niya ito.

“Why make it difficult for us?” he softly said.

“I don’t want to ruin you.” I said as I open my eyes. Nakita kong kumunot ang noo niya sa sinabi ko.

“Ruin me how?” I wish I can tell him, I wish I can.

“I think it’s better this way. It’s better this way.” I try to convince him, or maybe convince myself.

“Please tell me. I can’t go on like this.” He said as he cup my cheeks.

I held his hand and stared up at him. His blue eyes shows me his feelings, his deep desire t be with me.

“I’m sorry...” I whispered.

“Please don’t say that.” Dinikit niya ang noo niya sakin, God he’s so tall. I reached up and kissed him lightly.

“Just know my feelings hasn’t changed.”

Humiwalay ako sa kanya then went out of that place. Kinuha ko ang mga gamit ko saka lumabas, I went to the girl’s washroom and doon ako nag iiiyak. Silently crying.

It really hurts na pinipigilan ko ang nararamdaman ko para sa kanya just so it wouldn’t harm both of us.

I received a text from Tristan that he was already on his way back, eksakto lang sa oras ng uwian ko. I just replied to him na mag aantay nalang ako.

I wiped the tears from face and washed it also. Nang mahimasmasan na ako ay lumabas na ako sa washroom.

As I was walking down the hallway, I saw him na palabas din ng library. But he was not alone anymore, nakakapit sa kanyang mga braso si Mam Kisses, I looked away and even turned to anorher path para di ko sila makasalubong,

Pumasok nalang ako sa room ng klase naming since bukas naman ito and continued my work there. Hanggang sa di ko namalayan na unti unti nang pumasok ang mga kaklase ko.

Nagligpit na ako sa mga books ko then fished out the notebook and book I had for this subject. It was a 2 hours class and after this, uwian na.

Time flew by so fast na nakikinig lang ako sa instructor ko, then the class got dismissed. Hinay hinay kong niligpit ang mga gamit ko.

I was on my way out already nung makita ko si Tristan talking to some girls. Pero nang makita na niya ako ay nag excuse na ito then lumapit sakin taking my bag.

“How’s your day, baby?”

I just smiled and let him hug me on my shoulders. Gusto kong umayaw but again, he is my boyfriend. Nang nasa parking na kami, iniwan na muna niya ako sa gilid to get his car.

While waiting Narinig ko ang sigaw sa pangalan niya.

“Miguel! You can’t do this to me. Ikakasal na tayo, we are f*****g engaged!”

Nagtago ako sa isang puno dahil parang papalapit na sila. Nakita ko ngang nagmamadaling makasakay ng sasakyan niya si Sir Miguel.

“Kisses, please just stop.”

“Ano bang problema mo? Bakit ayaw mo na? Ano, may iba ka na ba?” hindi ko narinig na sumagot ito.

“Just tell me goddamn it! Pinaasa mo lang ba ako?” he stopped and faced her.

“Let’s be real Kisses, you took advantage of my kindness to you, pero alam mo sa simula pa lang, I never really had feelings for you. I tried. I did, pero hindi talaga.” Nang akma na itong sasakay, napahinto ito sa tanong niya.

“Did you really even try?”