Belong To You (COMPLETED)

Seven

Rainbow

I squinted my eyes as the rays of the sun shone on my face. 

Umaga na pala, pero malungkot pa din ako at masakit ang ulo ko. Usually, pag ganito ang pakiramdam ko ay nanggaling ako sa matinding paglalasing. Pero ngayon, di lang masakit ang ulo ko, kungdi masakit din ang katawan ko.

Inangat ko ang aking ulo upang luminga sa paligid at napansin kong hindi ako pamilyar sa lugar na iyon. Inalala ko kung ano nga ba ang ginawa ko kagabi upang sumakit ng ganito ang ulo at katawan ko.

Unti unti ay may naalala ako. Una sa lahat, wala ako sa bahay ng isa sa mga syota ko.  Pangalawa, wala ako sa Pilipinas. Nasa US ako, upang sundan si Shayla.

Habang nagpoproseso na ang isip ko, ang mga impormasyon ng kaganapan kagabi ay unti unting bumalik sa alaala ko.

"Ano bang merun sa inyong mga tangna niyo na wala sa'men?" galit kong tanong habang hinihila ang shorts ni Max, hanggang mapunit ito. "Sagutin mo ko!" Galit ko pang utos. "Ito ba?" muntik ko pang madakot ang b*yag niya, ngunit mabilis siyang nakaiwas sa akin.

"Pambihira! Tinutulungan na nga kita, balak mo pa ako gawing baog?" napipikon na alalay sa akin ni Max.

Pilit niya pa akong pinapatayo ngunit nagwawala pa din ako. Tatakbo ako dapat papunta sa dagat.  Narinig ko siyang magmura at nahuli niya ako sa may t-shirt. Pinilit kong lumayo habang hindi siya bumibitaw sa tshirt ko.  Napunit ito at lumaylay sa aking katawan habang ako naman ay natumba sa buhangin at gumapang.  Pilit kong gustong abutin ang dagat.   Saglit siyang natigilan pero kinuha kong pagkakataon iyon upang makalayo sa kaniya.

"Damn it, Rain! Nagpapakamatay ka ba?" he lifted me up in one swift move and carried me like a sack on his shoulder.

"Baba mo ko!" I pounded on his chest. "Nasusuka ako." Pakiusap ko at mabilis naman niya akong inilapag sa sahig.

Bahagya akong napasuka pero naramdaman ko ang paghagod niya sa likod ko. Mainit ang kanyang palad and it was soothing me. Pero inalis ko ang kamay niya na nagbibigay ng kakaibang pakiramdam sa akin.

"Wala kayong mapagmamalaki sa'ken dahil d***o lang ang katapat niyo!" Sigaw ko at nagsisipa pa.

Si Max naman ay nakakaiwas.  He grabbed me by the arm. 

"Tol, kahit may d***o ka, hindi mo pa rin mabibigyan ng anak si Shayla. That's a man's physical difference from you." He tried to explain.  "Kaya puwede bang tigilan mo na'to at pumasok ka na sa loob? It's freezing here and dammit... baka kung ano pa ang isipin ng iba sa hitsura natin!"

Napatingin ako sa aming dalawa.  He was only wearing t-shirt and black boxer brief dahil nasira ko yung shorts niya. Ako naman ay naka-sports bra na lang at cargo shorts.

"No!" The rebellious side in me still refused to abide.  "Shayla.... I want to talk to her." I pleaded.  " I want her to get some sense! She can't marry that guy!" Naiiyak na naman ako. "Nakatikim lang siya ng s*x, nabaliw na siya sa lalakeng iyon? s**t! Mahal ko siya!" Nagwawala na naman ako at pinigilan niya ako.

Nagbunuan at napahiga kami sa buhangin.

I was expecting to get hurt, but I realized I was on top of him, and he took the impact of our fall. 

A part of me felt touched by what he did, and I had the need to make him feel better. 

"Rain..." he groaned.  "You are one little unpredictable gatinha..."

That's when I realized I was nuzzling my face in his neck and trailing kisses on him as my hands tried to caress his face down to his chest.

I had the need to be loved... to not be rejected....

"Rain...lasing ka..." iling niya at pinigilan ang kamay kong gumapang papunta sa p*********i niya.

A part of me wanted to surrender to that mysterious feeling that all my friends felt for men.

I wanted to understand why Shayla, who was so afraid of men, suddenly gave herself up to a guy she hardly knew.

Napatitig ako sa kaniya.

"Kiss me?" I pleaded as tears filled my eyes. I felt desperate.

Suddenly the rejections I suffered in the past came back to me.

I felt rejected when He allowed my mother to die giving birth to me... when my own father rejected me because I reminded him of my mother... when my stepmom and stepsisters competed with me for my father's love... when one school after the other couldn't understand what I was going through and saw me as a problem student... when the families of my ex-girlfriends didn't want me for their daughters...

"Pati ba naman sa lalake, rejected din ako?" napahikbi ako.

Max cupped my face, and without a word, gently pressed his lips on mine.  Hindi kaagad rumehistro ang nangyayari pero naramdaman ko ang mabilis na t***k ng aking puso, at ang electric current na dumaloy sa aking katawan nang halikan niya ako. The kiss tasted sweet... his lips tasted sweet, and I craved for more.

I kissed him back, and my hand automatically went to his hard chest.

Dahil nakasanayan ko sa mga babae, I flicked on his n*****s. 

Napahawak siya sa bewang ko ng mahigpit habang pareho kaming hinihingal.  I initiated to kiss him back.  I wanted to check if it would still feel the same way. And it did.

He kissed with passion habang ako naman ay nage-explore ang mga kamay sa kanyang muscular shoulders, arms until I felt him intertwine his fingers with mine. I led them to my chest gesturing him to touch me.

I felt him restraining himself.

"Let's go..." he said and was about to stand up.

Pero hindi ako pumayag.  I was feeling bold and so I unhooked my sports bra.

"No, tol." He tried to hook them back again, but his hands were trembling, and it just exposed my breasts more. "Pag gising mo bukas, pareho pa din ang preference natin- babae!"

"T-touch me please..." I requested.

"Tol..." bumuntong hininga siya. "This is torture! Do not make me lose control." He tried to resist me.

"F*cking shut up! If you don't want, I'll go get some f*cking guy and still do this boyxgirl f*cking exploitation!"

"What?" may inis sa tono ng boses niya. "You might mean exploration?"

Even I was drunk, I sensed the mock in his voice.

"I didn't attempt to touch you before, even when I had the chance.  Then you'd just go f*ck a random moron?"

"Then go do as I say!" Inis kong utos.

He gulped but obliged.  He didn’t only cup both of them, but he suckled each one of them sending my core to clench and unclench.

Napapikit ako at napaliyad sa sensayon naramdaman.

Napasabunot ako sa kanyang buhok habang ang kamay naman niya ay nakasuporta sa aking likod.

Napaisip ako. Ganito pala ang pakiramdam ng mga babaeng pinepleasure ko.

I quivered at the sensation that his mouth was giving both my twin peaks. 

Malamig na ang paligid, at naramdaman ko ang pangangatal ng aking baba.

He removed his shirt made me wear it. Sumunod na lang ako dahil giniginaw na ako. Isa pa’y gusto ko ramdamin ano ba ang pakiramdam ng babaeng inaalagaan.

Baka makakuha ako ng tip how to make women swoon to me.

Inaya na niya ako maglakad upang bumalik sa mansion nila Gerard.

"I dont want to go inside..." tanggi ko.  Ayokong makahalata ang mga kaibigan ko at mabuko ako.

Napahilamos siya ng mukha. "Come gatinha, we will rest for a while in the guest house." He said.

I nodded my head in agreement, and he helped me up. But instead of walking with me, he carried me in bridal style.

Isinandal ko ang aking ulo sa kanyang chest habang napapapikit sa antok at lasing.

It was just like a dream when he laid me down on a bed. I observed that he was about to leave, when I called for him.

"Don't leave me..." I pleaded and raised my hand to reach for him. 

I didn't know why I was feeling afraid for him to leave me. 

Perhaps I feared what would happen after this?

Even if it was dark and we could only hear the sea, he sat beside me on the bed, and I heard him sigh, before face palming himself.

"I'm not leaving you." He assured and kissed me on the forehead. "You go rest.  I will just get you water to hydrate and a towel to clean you up."

"Clean me up, Rain..."  I remember one of my ex-girlfriends utter as we were making out.  A desire to experience it too stirred something in my abdomen.

I tried to pull him to me and kiss some more, and he indulged me.

"You are a desirable woman, gatinha... I'm afraid I have little restraint left in me..." he spoke in English, and I was so sure his voice was very familiar when he spoke in a deep soothing tone.

I ignored it and pursued to kiss him, and even removed the shirt off me.

"Fod*r!" He murmured. "You would be the death of me..." he whispered and grabbed me by the neck to kiss me thoroughly and passionately.

He cupped one of my breasts and gently squeezed it before travelling his hand to my side, down to my waist and inside my cargo shorts. 

He lowered his hand further down, and I was surprisingly wanting him to feel me down there.

Posang gala, dalian mo... I moaned as I felt his warm finger touching my apex, then delve a little deeper.

"Gatinha," he uttered as he felt the wetness under.  He removed his hand and placed his finger inside his mouth. 

It turned me on but still waited for what he had to say.

"Can I taste you?" he asked permission, and I nodded my head in response.

He moved his fingers between my legs and started kissing my belly down to my abdomen as he unzipped my cargo shorts and removed it with my underwear. 

I could already smell the musky scent of my arousal when he spread my legs.

I felt embarrassed and tried to sit up, but he gently pressed my abdomen to make me lie down again. He used his other hand to massage my folds and gently slid deeper to touch my love button.

Napasinghap ako at isasara dapat ang mga hita ko, pero nagsalita si Maximillan.

"Relax, Rain." He said as he proceeded to caress my slit and massage my love button.

I found myself moaning and soaking wet while clutching his hand by the wrist, and his finger was doing magic on my love button. I didnt even remember being able to do this to my own ex- girlfriends. 

Perhaps, all v*ginas have their own f*inger f*cking mates. You know? Like that of soul mates? And Maximillan's fingers are my v*gina's FF mate.

Shit! I'm just drunk. I'm aware that I'm drunk, but it feels like I just had weed. I'm high! And this f*cking good o*gasm he is giving me... makes me feel like inuuna niya ako bago ang sarili niyang pleasure. Parang ako sa minamahal ko! And that act alone made me fall.