Hate Me Not

Chapter 28 Boyfriend/ girlfriend

Cadley

"Cadley anong nangyayari sayo?" Salubong na tanong ni Manang sa akin. She is like a mother to me here. Pero di ko siya magawang sagutin. Nahihiya ako kaya dumeretso ako agad sa aking silid.

"Ano ang ibig sabihin nong sinabi niya?Ako ang gusto niyang maging girlfriend? Is it true? No it can't be, si Kuya yun eh, maraming babae yun, never akong magustuhan nun. He hated me."

I was just hallucinating. That's impossible. It is just a product of my imagination. I am like this, mahilig akong gumagawa ng storya sa aking isipan kaya minsan akala ko totoo pero yun gawa gawa lang ng mapaglaro kong utak.

Kailangan ko lang itong baliwalain sa aking isipan. Tama yun ang gagawin ko. It will pass, ayokong mapahiya.

I was just there lying in bed for couple of minutes. Still thinking of what happened.

"Shacks kailangan kong pala i-remind yon sa mga gamot niya. Ah bahala siya kaya na niya yun. Matanda na siya para painumin ko pa ng gamot."

"Wait paano naman ang sugat niya? Paano yun lilinisan? Ako lang naman ang gumagawa nun. Hay, maluluka ako. Plano ko pa naman na di magpakita sa kanya baka makalimutan ko yung nangyari kanina."

Para akong tanga na kinakausap ang sarili.

"Inhale, exhale, di yun totoo. Kailangan ko lang siyang harapin para matapos na."

I was still lying in bed, nagtatalo ang aking isipan sa anong dapat gawin. I decide to just get up and clean myself para ihanda na sa pagtulog.

I am already in bed, ready to sleep.

"Anong oras na ba?" I look at my cellphone, wala namang message or call from him. Oh my goodness, it's already a quarter pass 10 in the evening. Patay nakainum na kaya yun ng gamot? Saka ang sugat niya. Di ako mapakali, kaya I walk into his room.

"Kuya;" tawag ko sa kanya. Walang sumasagot.

I open the door. I saw him kalalabas pa lang ng banyo at nakatapis lang ng towel. Di ako makatingin sa kanya ng deretso.

"Oh my goodness, naging malaswa na yata ang isipan ko. Kung ano ano na ang pumapasok nito." I am not innocent of those kind kasi napag usapan sa school at ng mga kaibigan ko.

"Cadley bakit di ka pumasok?" He looks okay, he sounds normal kaya yeah it just my imagination. Erase it Cadley. Palo ko sa aking ulo.

"Gusto ko lang itanong kong naka-inum ka na ng gamot mo?"

"Di pa, hinihintay kita. Ikaw lang naman ang nakakaalam sa gamot na iniinum ko."

"Stupid Cadley, kung di ako pumunta dito eh di sya makainum ng kanyang gamot. Dinamay ko pa sya sa katangahan ko." Pagalit kong kausap sa sarili.

He is right ako lang ang nakakaalam kung ano ang mga yun. Halos same lang ang kulay.

I went inside and took a glass of water inside his mini fridge. Kinuha ang gamot at binigay ko sa kanya ng di makatingin.

He accepted all the med I gave to him but his eyes never left me. I know it kahit di ko siya tingnan. I feel it.

"Why wouldn't you look at me?" Di ako makasagot.

"Is this because of what I told you kanina?" Bigla akong nataranta, ibig sabihin that was real?

"Ano yung kanina Kuya?" Try kong sabi to clarify if tama ba ako, baka nagkamali lang ako ng dinig. But I am still nervous.

He stepped forward facing me at nakahakbang ako paatras but he keeps moving forward kaya he cornered me at the end. Nakasandig na ako sa wall niya.

"Why act like you don't hear it? I am clear with what I said a while ago."

"Di ko kasi alam kung it was real or not, baka imagination ko lang." Nakayuko kong saad. But he lifted my face up to look at him in the eye.

"Then I'll tell you it's not an imagination. I said I want you to be my girlfriend." Biglang lumaki ang mga mata kong nakatingin pa rin sa kanya. So it's all true. Sinabi talaga niya yun.

"P-pero K-kuya kita." Out of the blue kong sabi.

"There's nothing wrong with it Cadley, di tayo magkadugo."

"Oo nga pero yun ang tingin nang lahat na magkapatid tayo."

"I don't care kung ano ang sasabihin ng mga tao. What's important is what we feel for each other. I like you Cadley that's for sure and I am beginning to love you." Seryoso niyang sabi sa akin at di maalis ang mata ko sa kanya.

"These past few days nakita ko ang halaga mo, how you took good care of me. You have become an important person in my life. I always seek your attention at nagseselos ako sa mga lalaking na dumidikit sayo. Kaya ayaw kong magpaligaw ka sa iba kasi you are mine. Ako lang ang lalaki sa buhay mo."

I was shocked with his revelation. Pareho kami ng naramdaman, may katugon na ang naramdaman ko. Hindi na siya isang pangarap lang.

I can't help to shed tears. I am so emotional.

"Di ba nakakahiya?" Sabi ko sa kanya

Kung ipagpatuloy namin to marami ang manghuhusga sa amin. Lumaki ako na magkapatid ang pakilala sa amin. He is my step brother.

"No, we have done nothing wrong. We just follow our heart. Unless di tayo pareho ng naramdaman? Do you love me too Cadley?" Malumanay niyang tanong as he wipes my tears that flows my face.

Di ako makasagot. Nahihiya ako sa kanya.

"I need your answer now Cadley." Bulong pa niya mas malapit siya sa akin ngayon.

"Oo matagal na;" confess ko pabalik.

"Then beginning tonight you are now my girlfriend and I am your boyfriend officially." Nakangiti niya sabi. Bakas ang kasayahan niya sa mukha.

"Akala ko ba bata pa ako, bawal pa magkaboyfriend? I decided na iparinig sa kanya nong sinabi niya sa akin dati.

"Ah f**k that, I changed my mind. Bawal sa iba pero di para sa akin. I just said it kasi marami ang umaaligid sayo ayokong maunahan." Ayun lang pala reason niya at sineryoso ko yun.

"Talagang boyfriend na kita Kuya?" Di parin ako makapaniwala. It just happened suddenly.

"Yes and this is the proof." With that he suddenly kissed me.

Napapatanga lang ako. Di alam gagawin. Kasi it was my first kiss.

"Open your mouth and move your lips Cadley then follow my move." Mahina niyang sabi. I did what he instruct.

Ganito pala ang kiss. Masarap, nakakawala ng katinuan at nakakaliyo. Ang dila niya naghahanap kaya napapasabay ako.

I hold into his shoulder kasi parang nanghina ako bigla. I feel para akong matutumba at nawawalan ng hangin.

"That was a great baby but we have to stop baka saan pa tayo umabot at makalimot pa ako. You are still not ready for it."

Bigla akong nahiya sa aking ginawa. Naging aggressive ako bigla.

"That's our seal baby. We are officially having our relationship. We are exclusively dating." Napapangiti ako sa sinabi niya.

"Kuya baka nagdugo na ang sugat mo. Kanina umaray ka eh."

"Di aray yun, may nasanggi ka sa baba kaya napapamura ako."

I look at it, bigla akong namula. I know what it means. Kaya di ako makatingin sa kanya uli.

"Hey look at me, it's normal Cadley. One day you'll see it, kaya wag kang mahiya. If may gusto kang malaman or natutunan about anything like relationship, romance and other stuff sa akin mo yun itanong or sinasabi at sa akin lang din mo yun matutunan. I am your boyfriend now, it's part of the relationship." Pisil pa niya sa aking pisngi na natamimi parin.

"You can dress my wound now, while I am still bare." Sabi pa niya. Yeah makalimutan ko na yun. He just uses a towel and I know wala siyang panloob.

I clean it, it's healed now. Kunti nalang it will fully healed.

"It's healing now Kuya." sambit ko while putting a plaster.

"Magaling kasi ang nurse ko eh, thank you baby;" sabay kiss niya sakin. Bakit parang normal lang sa kanya ang mga ginagawa niya samantalang ako parang akong mamatay sa kilig, takot kaba at hiya.

"Don't call me Kuya anymore, remember I am your boyfriend now."

"Anong gusto mong itawag ko sayo?" Di ko talaga alam." What if i call you boyfi nalang."

"It's up to you, whatever you want."

"Pero nahihiya ako malaman nila Manang." confess ko sa kanya.

"Why? You are close with them."

"Yun na mga para ko na siyang ina kaya nahihiya ako. She knows our story eh. Di pa ako ready sa kantiyaw nila."

"Okay as you wish, so we will keep it a secret for now. But I don't want it long babe."

" I know, Itago nalang muna natin until makahanap ako ng timpo or ready na akong malaman nila."

"Okay, up to you. So we cannot be sweet kapag andiyan sila ganun? Kapag gusto kitang landiin it should it be in my room or your room?" Tumango ako.

"And I still call you Kuya kapag nasa labas tayo at boyfi kapag tayo lang." I smiled at him.

This past few months since nagbago ang treatment niya sa akin, naging malapit na ako sa kanya. Our communication change and I way I talk to him. Naging magaan na lahat.

"For now but it won't take that long, okay. I want everyone to know that you are my girlfriend. But I will respect your wishes."

I am so thankful he understands. I finally have a boyfriend.

Jacko

When she leaves me outside. Natatawa ako. I know she is having a hard time digesting what I had confess.

I don't worry kasi I know she will come around later for my medicine and dressing my wound. So I just wait on her.

I am decided, I will make her my girlfriend tonight. Wala ng atrasan.

Ano ngayon kung bata pa sya. She is 20 already, nearly 21. Shes in the legal age.

Nakita ko kung paano siya nahihiya sa akin. I noticed that she is trying to elude me with the topic, akala ko ayaw niya but di lang pala siya makapaniwala na I told her that.

Now I am officially become her boyfriend. I felt happy, di ko maipaliwag. I never felt like this before. I admit I refrain myself from getting serious with girls. I don't believe in relationships.

But with her I felt different. I suddenly became a different person. Now I know what Adric feels. What he is trying to say to me back then coz now I understand it now. I feel it too.

When I hug her I feel hot coz i am bare, just towels that separate our skin. With her just using a thin pajama doesn't help. I feel the heat between our body.

When I kissed her I felt heaven. Nadadala na ako sa aking ginagawa. My hands started roaming around already and my tongue is sucking her. When I smell her mas lalong akong naging demonyo but i had to hold myself. She is still innocent on this part. Ayokong mabahiran ng malaswa ang utak niya for now. But I don't know how long i can hold myself. I can't wait to taste her.

"Baby can you hug me? I just want to feel you next to me, enjoying this moment with you." Sabi ko pa. I just want her to embrace me, feel her warmth.

"I know you are still young babe. I promise di kita muna pakikialam but I feel hot all over because of you. Can I hug you tight?"

Tumango naman, we enjoyed that moment but I feel something na affected na ako. I had to stop and control myself.

"Babe bumalik kana sa room mo baka di ako makapagtimpi pa at magalaw kita. Mahirap na" Sabi ko sa kanya at tumango naman. She is not talking too much, I guess nahihiya pa siya.

"I love you, goodnight." We did kiss once again. Parang ayaw kong bitawan.

Ramdam ko ang mga butil ng pawis kahit kaliligo ko pa lang.

My goodness di ko alam kung hanggang kailan ko kakayanin na magtimpi. Totoo pala ang sinasabi ni Adric, iba ang dulot ng isang young blood. Nakakagigil.

Dali-dali akong pumunta sa banyo. Para alisin ang init sa aking katawan gamit ang image ni Cadley. I have good release.

Hooh that was hot. Cadley makes me hot. Para akong teenager na di pa nakatikim, aggressive, excited at mas lalo akong nanggigil.

I am excited to the life ahead of us. I felt being a new person. I am so inspired.