Pag Sara ko sa pinto Ng kotse ko ay doon Lang ako naka hinga Ng maayos
Hindi Ko aka laing sa isang open place Namin ginawa Yun
What if someone just come and see us f*****g !?
Holy crap I will never turn him on again while we're in public or some kind of an open places
Mamaya niyan hubaran nalang Niya ako kahit may Tao f**k you Malix your such an horny beast ....
I start my engine and drove home to take a bath
As I enter my condominium and put my mini shoulder bag in the coffee table in front of my sofa I lay down and close my eyes while thinking about what happened an hour ago
10;00am palang ng umaga pero sobrang pagod na ang boung katawan ko maybe tomorrow nalang ako tutulong sa charity nila sister Beth
I opened my eyes again and inhale , pano niya nagagawang hindi ako maalala dahil ba bago na ang itsura ko ngayon o dahil sadyang hindi lang talaga ako important para sakanya
Ako nalang ba talaga ang nakaka alala ako nalang ba talaga ang nabubuhay mula sa mga nakaraan na akala ko ay perpekto na
*5 YEARS EARLIER*
Hinalikan ko pa isang beses Ang kulay pulang love letter na hawak ko bago iyon isuksuk sa maliit na siwang sa baba Ng locker Niya
I smiled when the love letter fit in
I was about to go but when I turn around he was there standing infront of me and he look at me those look was disgusted
'is he disgusted about me '
"M-malix "
Lalo pang nagsalubong Ang kanyang dalawang makapal na kilay at halatang galit na Siya sa nga titig Niya saakin
"Don't you dare called me again with my second name Miss.!"
At binunggo Niya Ang balikat ko upang mapunta ako sa isang gilid
"Next time you put an love letter make sure it's not in my locker or better yet not for me !"
At halos mapatalon ako Ng matapos niyang ilagay Ang mga gamit sa loob ng locker Niya ay malakas niyang sinara Ang locker Niya
Tumingin Siya saakin na Parang Hindi Siya makapaniwalang nilagay Ko sa locker Niya Ang love letter na hawak na niya ngayon
And what he just did broke my heart into pieces for the first time
Pinunit Niya iyon sa harapan ko at hinagas sa ere it's look like a raining piece of the ripped papers in mid air while he looks at me angrily
"Stop doing this miss your disgusting "
And he left me alone in that place
Nanlabo Ang paningin ko habang tinitignan Siya palayo
Masakit Ang mga sinabi Niya noong araw na iyon , iyon Ang unang araw na nagkalapit kami at kinausap Niya ako but instead of an sweet words I received harsh words from him
But, it didn't stop me for doing that because in the next day I cook something for him it's adobo mainit pa iyon at nakalagay sa isang transparent tupperware and put it on a paper bag I left it in his table and put some words
'if you think I'll stop .. keep thinking then '
Halos matawa ako sa sinulat ko at umupo sa upuan ko he was late when he come in and my chair was infront so I didn't see what his reaction when he see's the food but I think he didn't like it at all because after the class while I'm fixing my things up
I felt the hot Chicken above my head
He poured it on me and it's hot...
"I will never waste my time thinking on some stupid things Miss "
That's when I've realized that his heartless and he make me feel like I'm worthless
Everyone was laughing about what he did to me everyone was making fun of me while I walk the corridor towards the nearest rest room
I have an extra uniform anyway it's oky
"It's oky Parisa your strong you can do it nag papa hard to get Lang siya ang gagawin mo Lang ay palambutin Ang puso Niya Yun Lang "
But who am I kidding because next thing I knew my other schoolmates lock me up in the restroom
Who would want an ugly nerd anyway if Malix can't like me how about the others ...they hate me so much ..
*PRESENT*
I picked up my phone when I hear it ringing I was in a bathtub and relaxing nakatulog pala ako doon kanina noong nagdisisyon akong mag babad nalang muna after I ate icecream
Hindi nako nag abalang tignan pa kung sino Ang caller basta ay sinagot ko nalang iyon at tinapat sa tenga ko habang may naka patong na na-sliced pipino sa mata ko
"Hello Raquel Sabidro Speaking .Who's this ?"
Mahabang segundo Ang lumipas and no one answered in the other line napagdisisyonan ko nalang na papatayin na Ng sumagot Ang nasa kabilang linya na naka pag pa bangon sa akin sa bathtub the sliced pipino fall in the water in tab and been place in my thing in there , and it's sent shiver down my spine plus that freaking deep and manly voice of him
"Are you home ?"
I gulp and went back on laying my body in the tab
"Yeah, I'm in my condo right now why ?"
I didn't know why but even if his that slow to answer I keep on waiting ...(yeah I always keep waiting )
Tumayo nako at inaabot Ang Robe Ng magsalita siyang muli
"I'm outside can I come in "
"HOLYSHIT !?..FVCK !!"
halos maiyak ako Ng madulas sa tub dahil sa gulat sa sinabi Niya
"Hey Miss. Are you oky ?"
I didn't answer because I accidentally throw the phone and it's been inches away from me and my fvcking toes hurts so much that it turned my white skin into a red one
"Ahh ! I think I just broke my leg !ahh fvck "
"W-wait !?-w-what you've w-what ?! I-Im gonna come in --f**k your room was locked tell me your password please faster Miss !?"
I'm kinda surprised that his worried so I'm speechless he was actually worried about me is he making me fall in love to him again am I gonna fall this time
"Tell me your password Miss! Now ! Miss?! Are you listening --"
"Yes I-I am ahm... M-my password w-was my birthday ahh!"
I was about to say my birthdate when I heard the click that's means he opened up my room ohh he knows my birthday
"Where the fvck are you ?!"
"In my room upstairs iisa Lang Ang room dito I'm in the bathroom "
"Oky I'll be there "
With that he hang up the phone call and the next thing I knew he was entering the bathroom and putting the robe on me to cover up my body he carried me bridal style and lay me down in the matress
"Let me see "
He examine the wounds and massage my legs a bit
"Ahh!"
Napakapit ako sa balikat Niya Ng mariin niyang pisilin Ang binti ko
"D-dont do that fvck your waking up a dragon Miss!"
I was about to ask what was that when I get what his point
"I-im sorry "
"It's oky"
Binitawan ko Ang pag hawak sa balikat Niya at Hindi na nagsalita pa habang ginagawa Niya iyon she was pressing it so hard
"I was about to ask you for dinner tonight but I think maybe tomorrow you need to rest your legs"
And he look at me, eye to eye , to see his amber eyes this closed again make my heart ache because I remember something that eyes was my favorite view of him thats the part of his physical appearance that I really love to look at
Narandaman ko nalang Ang kamay niyang humawak sa pisngi ko at punasan Ang isang takas na luhang Hindi ko namalayang tuluyang bumagsak sa mga mata ko
"Why are you crying is it hurt that bad "
Kahit na Alam Kong ang hita at binti ko Ang tinutukoy Niya ay umu oo padin ako
'its not my legs Malix it's my heart ..it's my heart Malix it's hurts so much that I can't breath '
Tuluyan Ng naging hagulgul Ang mga paunti unting Luha na bumagsak mula sa aking mata
Nakita ko Kung paano Niya ako tignan ng may pag aalala he never look at me like that he never did
"Shhhhh stop crying I'll take some ice in your fridge wait me here "
Lalabas na Sana Siya Ng magsalita ako
"I like you "
"I know ... "
Pag labas Niya sa may pinto ay doon nalang ako ulit umiyak I covered my whole face with my hands and try to stop crying but my tears keep falling
"Stop Crying Raquel stop!!"
'hindi dapat ikaw Ang umiiyak dapat Siya dapat Siya Ang umiiyak Hindi ikaw '
*5 YEARS EARLIER*
Mabilis akong tumakbo palapit sakanya habang malalaki Ang hakbang Niya psa corridor Ng school and after half an hour following him I catch him
"Why the fvck are you always following me !?! Don't you have anything to do with your life !?!! "
Napapikit ako sa lakas Ng pagkakasigaw Niya sa harapan ko theirs no other person in here except us were in the basketball court of our school
"May ibibigay Lang Sana ---"
Napa attras ako Ng mahigpit niyang hawakan Ang braso ko sa tingin ko ay magkakapasa iyon dahil sa higpit Ng hawak Niya
"I don't care ! I'm not interested anyway so stop and shut the fvck up and freaking leave me alone !!??"
Ang hindi mapansin Ng lalaking nagugustuhan mo ay masakit na Ang mabaliwala Ng taong gusto mo ay sobrang sakit na ...ano nalang kaya Ang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon habang masama siyang nakatingin saakin at itinataboy ako
"Now your crying who's fault anyway isn't it you also ?!"
Marahas niyang binitawan Ang kamay ko upang mapa upo ako sa sahig Ng court
"Worthless b***h ."
And he walk away but before he could leave the court I shouted
"I like you !!!I really do !!Please give me a chance !!"
Mula sa ilang hakbang na pagitan Namin ay lumingon Siya saakin the looks of sarcasm printed on his face and a sarcasm laugh came out to his mouth
"Idiot ! I already know.. obviously ..and ohh I already like someone else Thank you anyway "
When he leaves that's when I've realized that it's not just us inside the court their are some student who's taking their free time in the court
And its hurt so much Ang mapahiya sa harap Ng maraming Tao ay nakaka durog na Ng pagkatao paano pa kaya Ang ipahiya Ng taong ginugusto mo
I don't deserve this kind of treatmeant but who am I to be treated as a special someone I'm just Worthless as he said
I'm f*****g worthless
*PRESENT*
Halos nalibot Kona ang boung condo Ng Wala akong makitang bakas Niya it's like it was just my imagination that he come up to my condo it's like it's just an imagination when he massage my legs
Is that an imagination
I sat down on my sofa in the living room and look at the floor
Siguro kahit magbago pako Ng itsura kahit ibigay kopa Ang Lahat sakanya Hindi parin Yun magiging sapat sakanya Hindi Niya padin ako matututunang magustuhan na kahit Hindi na kagaya noon Ang itsura at ugali ko siya padin si Malix na kinamumuhian Ang isang Parisa Raquel Sabidro
Siguro ay may mga bagay na mas maganda na kaysa sa pagtrato Niya saakin noon sa ngayon pero Hindi parin noon mababago Ang katotohanang His Zachary Malix Monteverdi
One of the most popular guy who would never be fallen for a stupid young girl like me
I stood up and lazily walk towards the stair when I heard my front door open
"Why did you walk I said rest ...so stubborn"
I slowly faced him and my knees doesn't have the strength to stand up again
He come back ...he just came back and now walking towards me
At dahil sa nanginginig na mga paa ay bumagsak ako at Napa upo sa unang baitang Ng hagdan
He squat infront of me and hold my chin gently
"Why are you keep on crying Miss..I think it's not your legs anymore ..what it is ?"
tumingin ako Ng diritso sa mga mata Niya as he look at me that way same ferocity
Even in my dreams never ever happened this scenario I've never thought that one day he will look at me like that ...that one day he would touch me gently and not that painful and rough touch like before
Never in my imagination that I will end up falling again ....no! I didn't stop loving him anyway it's just been burried inside because I hate him
"It's not my leg I-its my heart "
He look at me and look at my lips nakita ko Kung paano Niya marahang binasa ang labi Niya gamit Ang dila Niya
"Why --is your heart aching!? are you sick ?"
Umiling ako sakanya at malungkot na ngumiti if only you'll know you will gonna freak out and leave me. I know you already Malix, you hate me so damn much so if you'll remember that I'm the same person who keep following you before, you would never ever gonna come near to me
Because I'm like your allergies your gonna die when I'm near you
"I just remember someone ..that ...--"
I remember you ...I remember how you hurt me yet my heart just beat for you now and I hate it because I think I just woke up the old Raquel the Raquel back in college that willing to be your slave and willing to be hurt all the time just to come near you and hear your voice
"That ..what !?"
"Nothing important just, nevermind "
I stood up and walk upstairs
"Just locked the door when you will go home I'm tired ...I want to rest .."
I want to rest for the painfull memories that keep coming up on my mind
"Goodnight Malix "
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