That night was horrible. I cried myself to sleep. Praying that this feeling would fade away and won't chase me back. Sige lang, okay lang, after this wala nang Mat. Wala na si Mattias. No one will bother me anymore. I was just silently whimpering inside my room.
Kinabukasan, we didn't talk to each other, unless it's a part of the line na mag-uusap kami. Bland. Too bland. I guess Ceejay didn't notice it. Napagalitan pa ako ng makeup artist ko, my eyes were puffy and bloodshot. It's unfair how Mat's eyes were okay as if he didn't cry. When I look at them, malamig ito. Monotonous. Lifeless. Naging ganoon lang sa mga nagdaang mga araw. Alam kong nagtataka na rin sila, no one dared to ask. Minsan nasusuway rin sa pagiging lutang. We're almost done. Just a couple of weeks and then we'll say g
