Things between Ralphael and I were awkward, even in bed. Hindi na kami nag-uusap the way we used to. Wala na rin ‘yung titig na parang may sinasabi kahit wala namang salita. Ramdam ko, nasaktan ko siya that night na nag-confess siya ng feelings niya. Pero I told him the truth—hindi talaga puwede. We can’t be together, no matter what.
Pero ang totoo niyan, I like him a lot. I care about him so much. Noong sinabi niya sa’kin na may feelings siya for me, I was overwhelmed. Pero deep inside, masaya ako—kasi hindi lang pala ako ang nakakaramdam ng ganito. I knew it wasn’t just lust. It was something more… and that’s what scared me.
Ang dami kong kinatatakutan. I’m scared na malaman ni Mama na si Ralphael pala ang lalaking nagbayad ng surgery niya at kapalit no’n, gusto niya ang katawan ko. I’
