AFTER ng reception, nagkayayaan na magpahinga ang lahat. Pero bago kami tuluyang maghiwa-hiwalay, kinausap ako nina Kuya Adrian at Elora sa kwarto nila sa isla.
Fresh pa ang kilig nila, parehong naka-bathrobe, parehong parang ayaw matapos ang araw nila. Ramdam ko ang excitement at saya sa mukha nila â the kind of happiness na bihira ko lang makita kay Kuya.
âElle,â bungad ni Kuya, âpaalis na kami bukas. Early morning flight to Switzerland.â
Napataas ang kilay ko. âAs in madaling araw agad?â
Tumawa si Elora, halos hindi maitago ang kilig. âYes. Ang aga, pero sulit. Honeymoon namin âto.â
Naglakad ako papasok, crossing my arms. âGamit niyo ba ang jet, Kuya?â
âOf course,â sagot niya, mayabang ang ngiti. âPero hindi ako ang magpi-pilot.â
Nagulat ako. âTalaga? Why? Ayaw mo?â
Kinindatan niya ako.
âHindi ako puwedeng mapagod. Mas gusto kong mapagod sa asawa ko.â
Nasuklian ko siya ng tawa â as in tawang hindi ko napigilan.
âKuya, please. Newly married pa lang kayo pero rated SPG na agad?â
Nag-blush si Elora habang tinatampal ang braso niya.
âHuwag mo ngang idamay si Elle!â
Pero nakangiti rin siya â sobrang in love, sobrang masaya.
After a few laughs, biglang naging gentle ang tono ni Kuya.
âElle, no need for you to wake up early tomorrow. Ayaw na rin namin istorbohin ka. Gusto naming magpahinga ka.â
Tumango si Elora, eyes soft.
âWeâll visit you in Thailand soon. Promise. Pero for now⊠stay here muna. Enjoy the island.â
Napatingin ako sa kanilang dalawa â happy, peaceful, fulfilled.
And for the first time in a long while⊠na-feel ko na okay lang na hindi ako tumakbo.
Okay lang magpahinga.
Okay lang huminga.
âI will,â bulong ko, smiling softly.
âEnjoy your honeymoon. You both deserve this.â
Nagyakapan kami ng tatlo â warm, tight, genuine.
At habang naglalakad ako pabalik sa villa ko, carrying the quiet of the night and the soft crash of waves⊠hindi ko maiwasang maramdaman:
This islandâŠ
This momentâŠ
This peaceâŠ
was just the calm before another storm.
Because somewhere out there, on the same islandâŠ
was Kierran Withmore.
And I wasnât ready
âat allâ
for whatever came next.
PAGLABAS ko mula sa kwarto nina Kuya at Elora, tahimik kong tinahak ang pathway pabalik sa villa ko. Malamig ang hangin, may kasamang halimuyak ng dagat at bulaklak. Dapat diretso na ako sa cabin⊠dapat.
Pero may isang bahagi ng isla ang agad na pumukaw ng atensyon ko.
Soft lights.
Warm music.
Golden glow.
A bar â pero hindi ordinaryong bar.
Parang floating lounge na ginawa mula sa dark wood at glass, nakausli sa mismong gilid ng lagoon. The entire place glimmered under the moonlight. May fairy lights sa kawayan, soft jazz in the background, at napakagandang ambience na parang inaakit ang kahit sinong dadaan.
I stopped walking.
And before I could even think twice, my feet turned toward it.
Paglapit ko, mas lalo akong na-amaze.
The bar looked like a secret getawayâopen, breezy, intimate. May mga lanterns sa bawat sulok, nagre-reflect ang ilaw sa tubig. The kind of place where people forget their worries⊠or drown them.
Then I made a decision.
âFor tonight,â bulong ko sa sarili,
âArielle Zaragoza gets to breathe.â
I walked in confidently, sat on a velvet stool, and ordered something light.
âJust one drink,â I promised myself.
But one drink became two.
Two became⊠well, more than I planned.
At hindi ko alam kung dahil sa pagod, sa emotions, o sa kaninang tensyon na ayaw kong balikan â pero ang bilis kong naka-relax.
Too fast.
The music changed into something upbeat, warm, inviting.
Before I knew itâŠ
I was dancing.
Barefoot on the smooth wooden floor, hair down, dress swaying with the breeze. The lantern lights kissed my skin, and for the first time in years⊠I felt carefree.
I laughed with strangers.
I swayed with the rhythm.
I let go of everything â the stress, the fear, the confusion.
âFor tonight⊠just tonightâŠâ
I whispered as I twirled lightly,
âI deserve to feel alive.â
Pero hindi ko namalayan â
napapasobra pala ang iniinom ko.
At the moment na umikot ako sa dance floorâŠ
my vision tilted slightly.
The lights blurred into soft halos.
My laughter came out breathy.
Oops.
I steadied myself on the bar counter, cheeks warm, heartbeat light and fluttery.
âOkay⊠medyo naparami,â sabi ko sa sarili ko, tumatawa nang mahina pero mahina na rin ang tuhod.
I closed my eyes for a moment, trying to regain balance.
KIERRAN'S POV
AT THE BAR
âKier, how are you? Kung hindi pa kinasal si Adrian, âdi pa tayo magkikita-kita,â sabi ni Burn habang umuupo sa bakanteng upuan sa mesa nila. Hawak niya ang whiskey, nakangiti tulad ng dati.
He leaned back in his seat, relaxed on the outside, kahit may humahampas na pagod sa loob niya mula sa buong araw.
âIâm good,â sagot niya simply.
âMatagal-tagal na rin mula nang huli tayong pumunta sa bar at uminom,â dagdag ni Carl bago tinunga ang laman ng baso nito.
Kierran nodded slightly, eyes scanning the entire bar â dim lights, warm lanterns, soft music. His bar. His island. His territory.
âThatâs great,â sabi niya, more out of courtesy than anything else.
âMay balita pala ako,â singit ni Frank, swirling his drink lazily. âNakausap ko si Dianne.â
Napatingin si Kierran, jaw tightening almost imperceptibly.
âShe said na-miss ka raw niya. AtâŠâ Frank paused, raising a brow, ââŠbaka nga makipagbalikan siya sa âyo. Kasalanan ko kung bakit kayo nagkahiwalay noon kaya naman inalam ko kung babalik siya. And yes â next month daw.â
Kierran exhaled sharply.
âAhh. Actually, I'm not intereââ
Pero natigil siya.
Parang may humila sa paningin niya.
Parang may sumipa sa dibdib niya.
Because from across the barâŠ
a familiar silhouette caught his attention.
Long hair.
Soft dress.
Barefoot on the wooden floor.
And a bottle of rum beside her.
Arielle.
He froze.
Hindi dahil lasing siya â pero dahil hindi niya inaasahan ang tanawing iyon.
âWhat theââ
His brows met sharply.
What was she doing here?
At bakit parang⊠hindi na siya steady?
âSabi ni Dianneââ tuloy pa rin si Frank, clueless. ââbaka mag-ayos kayo. Soââ
âExcuse me.â
His voice was tight.
Controlled.
But his body was already standing.
âKierran? Saan ka pupunta?â tawag ni Burn.
Hindi niya sinagot.
Hindi niya kayang umupo roon habang pinapanood si Arielle na lasing na parang walang pakialam sa mundo.
He crossed the floor in long strides, jaw clenched, eyes fixed on her.
Paglapit niya sa gilid ng bar, nakita niya mismoâ
She was holding a bottle of rum.
Hawak, pero halos walang laman.
âStop drinking,â sabi niya, boses mababa pero malinaw.
Kinuha niya agad ang bote mula sa kamay niyaâ
At napamura siya nang maramdaman ang bigat nito.
Walang laman.
âShit.â
He stared at her, disbelief flashing in his eyes.
âAnoâng tingin mo sa alak? Tubig?â
Dahan-dahang nag-angat ng tingin si Arielle.
Her eyes were glossy.
Her lips slightly parted.
And her wordsâ
soft but sharp in that drunken slurâ
âWhat are you doing here, gago ka?â
She pushed weakly at his chest.
âUmalis ka nga.â
Kierran felt something dangerously unfamiliar tighten in his chest.
She was drunk.
And not just tipsy â fully, recklessly, beautifully drunk.
And the thought of her being this vulnerableâŠ
because of him?
Hindi niya matanggap.
He leaned closer, voice low, steady, possessive without meaning to be.
âIâm not leaving you like this.â
Arielle scoffed softly, eyes heavy.
âHindi kita kailangan,â she mumbled, turning away.
âHindi kita kailangan sa buhay koâŠâ
Her voice broke into a soft laugh â or maybe a soft cry.
He rolled his eyes and handed the empty rum bottle to the bartender.
âIlang bote na ba ang nainom ng babaeng âto?â tanong niya, trying not to sound as alarmed as he actually was.
Napangiwi ang bartender. âNaku, Sir⊠marami na po. Noâng una, pa-shot-shot lang, pero nung tumagal⊠hindi ko na mabilang.â Nag-lean ito forward, mahina ang boses. âGirlfriend nâyo po, sir?â
âOo.â
He didnât know why he said it.
Hindi niya rin alam bakit parang automatic lumabas ang sagot.
Pero sa sandaling iyon⊠it felt right.
âMay konting away lang kami,â dugtong pa niya, almost convincing himself.
âAh, ganun po baâŠâ Tumango ang bartender, mukhang naniniwala. âJose, pakilista mo na lang sa account ni Sir Kier lahat ng nainom ng babae.â
âKopya, Sir Kier.â
Hindi na niya pinatagal.
Hinawakan niya si Arielle sa braso â firm, protective â at marahan pero may diin na hinila patayo.
âBitawan mo nga ako!â sigaw ng dalaga, pilit ipinipiglas ang braso niya. âAno ba?!â
She stumbled a little.
God, she was really drunk.
âShut up,â naiiritang sabi ni Kierran habang hila-hila siya palabas ng bar.
âPara kang hindi babae. What the hell are you doing here at this hour?â
Without missing a beat, Arielle shot back, slurred but sharp:
âMalamang⊠umiinom.â
Then she glared at him, eyes blurry but defiant.
âBakit ka ba nandito? Ang mga gagong katulad mo dapat nasa impiyerno.â
He froze.
Talagang⊠impiyerno?
He turned to face her fully, jaw ticking dangerously.
âTawagin mo pa akong gagoâŠâ
His voice dropped low, dark, threateningâ
ââŠhahalikan kita.â
Arielleâs lips curled into a slow, drunken smirk.
Not scared.
Not intimidated.
NO.
She leaned closer.
âHalik?â she whispered, mocking him.
And before he could warn her, she closed the remaining distanceâ
Her body pressed flush against his.
Soft curves meeting his hard lines.
Her breath hitting his throat.
Her warmth sinking into him like fire.
His entire body reacted instantlyâviolently.
Damn.
He sucked in a breath, eyes darkening.
âStop,â he muttered, voice strained.
But Arielle just tilted her head, lips brushing the corner of his jawâ
intentional or accidental, hindi niya alam.
Pero sapat para mabalewala ang hininga niya.
âOh, come on, KierranâŠâ bulong niya, pabiro pero may bahid ng katotohanan.
âYou know you can kiss me anytime.â
Her fingers slid lightly along his shirt, gripping the fabric.
Her eyes half-lidded.
Her smile wicked.
âHindi mo na ako kailangang takutin pa.â
Bumaba ang tingin niya sa bahagyang nakaawang na labi ni Arielleâsoft, flushed, inviting in the most dangerous way.
He swallowed hard.
Because when his eyes lingered too long,
his body reactedâŠ
slowly, involuntarily, undeniably.
Damn it.
âGo on,â Arielle teased, voice low, slurred, seductive in a way she probably didnât even realize.
âKiss me, Kierran. Hindi ba doon ka naman magaling?â
Her words hit him straight in the gut.
Napapikit siya sandali, pinipilit pigilan ang sarili.
This womanâŠ
This intoxicating, stubborn womanâŠ
was seconds away from undoing the last bit of control he had.
Ipinilig niya ang uloâalmost violentlyâthen hinawakan siya sa pulso.
Ayaw niyang magpadala.
Not when she was drunk.
Not when she wouldnât even remember this tomorrow.
He pulled her gently but firmly toward the Resort Shuttle cart waiting outside.
âIhahatid kita sa villa,â he said, voice clipped, controlled.
Walang imik si Arielleârare, considering how sharp her tongue usually was.
She simply slid into the passenger seat, legs crossing, hair tousled, cheeks flushed from alcohol.
Too tempting.
Too beautiful.
Kierran exhaled slowly before taking the driverâs seat.
He started the cart.
Pero ramdam niya ang tingin ng babae sa tabi niya.
Sinulyapan niya itoâand caught her staring directly at him, her gaze soft but unfocused, like she was memorizing every angle of his face.
âKasama ko ang mga kaibigan ko nang makita kita,â he muttered, eyes on the dimly lit road.
âI got worried when I saw you were drunk.â
Mapaklang tumawa si Arielle, leaning her head back, eyes half-lidded.
âBakit naman?â she murmured.
âItâs not like you cared.â
Ouch.
He tightened his grip on the steering wheel.
He cared.
More than he should.
More than he admitted.
More than he understood.
But all he said wasâ
âEwan ko.â
Arielle chuckled softly, shaking her head.
âKierran, babyâŠâ
She leaned closer, her shoulder brushing his arm, making his breath catch.
âSiguro nga lasing ako, pero hindi ibig sabihin nâon ay kailangan ko na ang tulong mo.â
His jaw clenched.
âArielle, marami ka nang nainom. Baka kung anoâng mangyari sa âyo.â
Napatingin siya saglit, catching the way her lashes fluttered.
âPaano ka makakauwi?â he added, voice lowering.
âAt sinong nag-aalaga sa âyo kung hindi ako?â
Her lips parted.
For a momentâ a very long momentâ neither of them spoke.
Only their breaths filled the space between them, warm, shaky, unsteady.
The Resort shuttle cart hummed quietly through the palm-lined path,
moonlight catching her hair,
wind brushing their skin.
And the whole timeâŠ
Kierran fought every urge to pull her closer.
To touch her.
To give in to everything she was stirring inside him.
But he kept his eyes forward.
He wasnât going to kiss her tonight.
Not when she would wake up not remembering how badly he wanted to.
Not when he wanted her soberâ
awareâ
and choosing him.
Even if she claimed she never would.