SPG: This chapter includes harassment. Be aware.
"Now, Where were we?"
He smirk before walking towards me. I held my breath and ran towards the door. I immediately open it at napabuntong-hininga ng makita na hindi na siya nakasunod. How dare him facing me, naked?! Nilingon ko pa muli ang pinto at halos mahugot ko ang hininga nang makita na nakabihis na siya at papalapit na sa akin. I ran towards the elevator and saw Kenjiro there. Kumaway siya sa akin kaya agad akong lumapit sa kanya.
"Are you done cleaning?" He asked and I nodded. I have a chance to glance at Sylvan and saw him walking towards the elevator. Napadikit ako kay Kenjiro ng tuluyan na siyang makapasok sa loob ng elevator. We both consumed silence not until I heard his voice.
"I love how you suck my cock." He said that making me stiffened. Narinig ko rin ang pagsinghap ni Kenjiro sa tabi ko. "Pity you, My brother. He's your girlfriend but he suck other cock."
Bumukas ang elevator and Sylvan smirked at us before leaving. I inhaled then faced Kenjiro.
"I didn't. I swear." I tried to make my face stoic so he couldn't tell if I'm lying or not. Shet! -100 sa langit na nga kanina tapos madadagdagan pa ngayon.
"I know. He's just jealous. And that's funny." He chuckled and encircle his arms around my waist. We both headed towards his car and he said he will drive me home so I agreed. He really good at portraying as my boyfriend. I know it's bad to use someone but he's the one who insist. He likes me and here I am, using him to Sylvan get jealous. Kung bakit itong pisteng puso ko ay sa iba pa nafall. Gwapo naman si Kenjiro, pero mas yummy si Sylvan. -1M ulit sa langit.
"I don't know but this is always in my mind. Why are you afraid of guns?" I stilled by his question. Paulit ulit na naman na pumasok sa isip ko ang nangyari noon. I tried to overcome my fear but it doesn't work. I didn't realized that my tears was slowly falling throughout my eyes. Kenjiro wipe it using his thumb and lift my chin so I could face him.
"Tell me. I won't judge you." He whispered as I feel his arms embraced me. I felt a comfortness on his hugs that only him could give.
"I-I was k-kidnapped." The fear I tried to hide was consuming me. I'm still scared. I'm still scared of the possibility that they came back. I remember their faces, clearly. I remember how they tortured us and I clearly remembered how they opened the kids tummy and get the organs there. I want to erase that memory but everytime I would, mas lalo lang siyang lumalabas.
"I think you should go to some Psychiatrist." He suggested.
''Hindi ako baliw." I keep my voice straight even I wanted to shout. I was just kid back then, and I saw that. Hindi ako tanga para hindi malaman kung ano ang gagawin nila sa laman-loob na iyon. They will sell it and they're a pig!
"Shhh. Don't cry. I'm always here." I cried as he hugged me. We stay like that until I decided that I should go home because it's too late now. He agreed and drove me home. We were both silent and I thanked him after he brought me on my apartment.
I was shocked when I saw Sylvan outside my apartment. He walk towards me and claimed my lips into a kiss. I didn't kissed him back nor pushed him. After he pulled away, I immediately get my keys and entered my apartment. Sumunod siya pero wala na akong pake. I just realized that all of this was wrong. He was cheating with me.
"May I talk to you, sir Sylvan?" I sat on the sofa in front of him and give him the juice I prepared. He slowly nodded while staring at me. Huminga ako ng malalim habang pinapakalma ang sarili.
I slowly accepting the fact that I can't have him. I slowly accepting the fact that all of what I've done was wrong. I slowly accepting the fact that he fooled me.
"I'm resigning." I get my bag and find my resignation letter I made yesterday. Ayaw ko ng gulo at kung kinakailangan na maghanap ako ng ibang trabaho para umiwas ay gagawin ko. Tinitigan niya lang ang papel na nasa ibabaw ng mesa bago bumuntong-hininga.
"If it's about Sydney, we're no-"
"It's not about it, sir. It's about my peacefulness. Everytime you're near, there's trouble." I explained at bahagya pang diniinan ang tawag ko sa kanya. Umiling-iling siya bago nilagok ang laman ng baso. Sinundan ko ng tingin ang adam's apple niya. Shet.
"I'm not going to sign it. But, if peace is what you want, I'll give it to you." He stood up at pinagpag ang kaniyang damit. Kahit sa pagtayo ay bumabakat ang kaniyang.... Shet ka talaga!
"I'm leaving, Ms. Herrera. Thank you for your time." Pagkatapos non ay umalis na siya. Napahilamos ako ng mukha dahil sa kaba. I heard the sound of his car, sign that he's leaving. I was going to lock the door but Sylvan suddenly just entered.
"I will just do what you said but remember you still mine." He whispered before kissing me again. I tried to fight the lust but when he pushed his tounge inside my mouth, I lost.
I gave up, again.
NAHIHILO at pagod man ay pinilit kong tumayo sa higaan ko. Wala na si Sylvan sa tabi ko kaya siguro ay umalis na iyon. Walang kapaguran na inangkin niya ako kagabi kaya pakiramdam ko ay hindi na ako makalakad ngayon. I clean myself with warm water and wear my favorite dress. Finally, hindi na siya makikielam pa sa buhay ko. I can wear what I want and bond whoever I want. The dress was ending just above my knees and perfectly hugging my body. I wear my pumps at pumara ng taxi. I just feel beautiful today.
"Savanna?" Gulat na wika ni Marites na nakatambay sa labas ng building namin. I chuckled on her reaction and I invited her for breakfast. As we enter the fastfood chain, many eyes darted on us. I waved so I can get the waiter's attention. Grabe, pati waiter dito gwapo. Hinayaan kong umikot ang mata ko sa paligid ng lugar but I was stilled when I saw Sylvan staring directly at me. Nasaa 2nd floor siya at may kasamang ibang lalaki.
Pansin ko rin na nakatitig sa akin ang mga kasama niya. I know one of them and that's Kuenzier. I know him because he's famous on Engineer world. Idolo din kasi siya ni William. Tumayo ako at nagpaalam kay Marites para umakyat sa 2nd floor. Binilisan ko pa ang pag-akyat para maabutan ko sila. I walk towards to them.
"What are you do—"
"Sir Kuenzier, Can I take a photo with you? I idolize you!" I cut Sylvan off. Narinig ko pa ang mahinang tawa ng isang kasama nila at nakita ko pa kung paanong hinamas ang balikat ni Sylvan.
"Sure." Tumayo si Kuenzier at lumait sa akin. I excitedly get my phone and click the camera. Nanginginig pa ang kamay ko dahil ramdam ko ang kamay niya sa bewang ko. I took a photo with him.
"Thank you po talaga! I'm really your fan! Ang ganda po ng building na ginagawa niyo! Ang gwapo niyo din po sa personal!" Exxagerated man ay wala na akong pakielam.
"Mas gwapo pa kay Sylvan?" He asked and I nodded. I heard how Sylvan gasp and how they laugh. Nagpaalam na ako sa kanila dahil naghihintay na si Marites sa baba.
"Kilala mo rin pala si sir Kuenzier? Gwapo noh?" Bulong sa akin ni Marites. I nodded and then finally entered the building. Agad kaming dumiretso sa 15th floor and as usual, inayos namin ang sarli. Sa lobby ang assigned place ko kaya agad akong bumaba. Binati ako ng ibang nagtatrabaho kaya nginitian ko lang sila. I saw how Sylvan enter the building kasama sina sir Kuenzier. Napatingin din ang iba sa kanila dahl they all stunned out. Nginitian ako ng mga kasama ni Sylvan and I smiled back. Shet lang!
PAGKATAPOS maglinis ay nagbihis na ako. I still wear the dress I was wearing earlier. I was just going to get out but Marites said that Sylvan is calling me. Nayayamot man ay agad din akong nagtungo sa opisina niya. Nandoon parin ang mga kasama niya kanina including Kuenzier. I blushed when he waved his hands. Darn, he's so handsome.
"Get that papers and put it in the stock room." Sylvan commanded and I just nodded. I get the paper on the floor. I heard someone whistling and I just realized that I was wearing a dress. Agad akong tumayo at inayos ang damit ko.
"What the hell, Sav?!" Sylvan voice roared around his office.
"What a position. I like that position when I f**k. Do you want to give it a try?" Said by a man sitting beside Kuenzier. I gasp when Sylvan walk towards him and give him a punch on his face. Damn, anong pinasok ko?
"f**k you." Sylvan shouted infront of the man face.
"I rather f**k her than you. I don't f**k a man." The man smirk at tinapik ang kamay ni Sylvan na nasa damit niya. Galit paring nakatingin sa lalaki si Sylvan. Tumikhim ako sanhi upang makuha ko ang atensyon nila. I don't know what to say so I just get the papers and then left his office. I take a deep breath when I finally get outside. Damn, what a hell!
I took an elevator upang makarating ng mabilis sa stock room. I was thinking if why Sylvan gets mad? I mean, I'm pissed on that guy too but I just want it to passed. I sighed and put the papers in the cabinet. Maliit lang ang liwanag sa loob ng stock room kaya may makikita ka parin kahit papaano. I was just getting to stand up but someone just grabbed my waist and pinned me on the wall. I was shocked but I calm myself and face who it was.
"Do you even like it when someone drooling over you? What a slut." Sylvan murmured. I stilled on what he just said. I can't help but to slap him. Tumabingi ang ulo niya dahil sa lakas ng sampal ko but he just smirked. He held my nape and kissed me.
"D-don't." I murmured between the kiss. My tears fall because of pain. He think I'm a slut. He let me go and slapped me. Akala ko titigil na siya but he don't.
"Open your mouth, slut." He whispered and then kissed me, again. He made me parted my lips and pushed his tounge inside mine. Wala akong nagawa kung hindi ang umiyak.
He ripped off my dress. I don't know what to do, I feel weak. I felt a hot liquid dripping out on my nose. Pilit kong inabot iyon and I saw a red stain. It's blood.
"S-stop." I whispered. I can't say it aloud because I'm so weak. Pinilit kong itulak siya ngunit bumagsak lamang ang aking kamay. Nanghihina na ako at hinayaan ko na lang siya. He believes that I'm a slut.
Halos wala na akong maramdaman kundi ang sakit ng puso ko. Akala ko ay may susunod pa siyang hakbang na gagawin pero agad iyang lumayo sa akin habang may nababasa akong kaguluhan at pagsisisi sa mukha niya. Umiling siya bago ako inabot sa akin ang dress ko at umalis. 'Ni hindi man lang ako tinulungan.
Nanginginig ang kamay ko na kinuha ang cellphone ko at tinawagan si Kenjiro.
"Hello? Where are you?" He asked and after hearing his words, I cried. "Damn, Where are you? Sav!"
"I-in t-the S-Stock room." My voice broke. Nabitawan ko ang cellphone ko at tinakip na lamang ang palad ko sa mukha ko. I just want to work. I just wanted to escape the pain in my past and now, Sylvan gave me another pain again. Bumukas ang pinto ng Stock room and I saw Kenjiro entering. He immediately kneel infront of me and examine me.
"f**k!" He shouted and took off his jacket. He made me wear the jacket and cover my body. Binuhat niya ako at inilabas sa Stock room. Mabuti na lamang ay wala ng tao dahil kanina pa uwian. Nadatnan pa namin si Kuenzier sa parking lot. He looked at Kenjiro and then me.
"What happened?" He asked at hinubad din ang jacket na suot niya. I'm thankful that they help me dahil kung hindi ay baka tanging umiyak lang ang magawa ko. Isinandal ko ang ulo sa dibdib ni Kenjiro. I'm tired. Ipinikit ko ang mata at hinayaan ang sarili na lamunin ng kadiliman.