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Amnesia
June 30 – 2:45pm
After my last night’s break down and giving Saskia her name, I went back home. Kahit gaano kasakit yung pagpasok sa loob ng unit, pinilit ko pa ding magstay dun.
I can’t stay in the hospital. So…I lay down on my bed and never drifted to sleep.
Mag-iiba lang ako ng position… tatagilid, dadapa, yayakapin yung unan ni Loislane… or ibabalot ko ng mahigpit yung blanket na gamit-gamit namin. It still smells like her and…that’s the only closest thing I can feel her embracing me.
She’s gone.
I know! I know… but my brain’s not accepting it. It keeps on rejecting the idea of her not being with me.
But here I am, in front of her grave.
Loislane Amya M. Silva
July 14, 1992 – June 25, 2015
I was supposed to say my eulogy today after her Dad. Binigyan nila
