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Letting out an excruciating sigh, I set my eyes on the scenery that I envy so much because of its freedom and its abiding beauty.
Despite the countless storms and unforeseen weather alteration — knowing that it is inevitable, still, it stood up beautifully.
Sana ganun din ako. Sana ganun din ako kalakas at katapang na kahit anong bagyo, paghihirap at sakit ang magtangkang sumira sa buhay ko — sa akin, mananatili pa rin akong nakatayo at hindi sumusuko.
But I, too, don't think that will ever happen. Simpleng hindi pagpansin sa akin ni Izi, parang ikamamatay ko na, paano pa kaya ang mas malalang problema?
Because of that, I literally want to punch myself repeatedly so I can make myself wake up from the painful reality that Izi will never, ever love me.
Unfortunately, in the end
