never feel this way after had a conversation with whom I just met but when I talked to James something feelings that hit me that I can't understand.
"Mommy why did you say Ninang is my mommy?" Galit na tanong ng anak ko.
I chuckled. "For purposes anak"
After we go shopping. Hindi mawawala ang pagkain I missed filipino foods especially the the adobong manok and tinola.
"Eat up Sachie that's your favorite food right?"
"Gab nagte-text saakin si James"
"Don't reply and please huwag mong banggitin ang pangalan ni james pag andito anak ko" sinabi ko iyon na para bang nagma-makaawa ako sa kaniya.
"Oo naman basta ikaw"
If Zia's with us and we talked something about her father I try hard to speak in tagalog she doesn't really understand it we used to speak italian and english when we were in italy.
Tomorrow will be my first day in office and I want to make a rules for my daughters that's very important especially now that I'll be a Ceo for a life time.
"Listen Zia, you're not allowed to go outside without my permission"
Pinapakinggan din kame ni daddy dahil kapag may mali akong rules pwede niyang itama yon like for instance Zia not allowed to breath chaar! Just kidding as much as possible i want it mild rules only for her.
"And since you're not yet enrolled you're not allowed to use gadgets for 4hrs. 2hrs or 1hr will do"
"Mommy I would be bore after using gadgets" reklamo niya.
"la regola è regola" rule is rule.
Ang hirap pa lang magpalaki ng anak na matigas ang ulo back then I wasn't stubborn at all but my daughter now two times what attitude I had when I was a kid.
"Zia you won't get bored I'm here" panghimasok ni daddy.
"Dad don't spoil her" pagbabanta ko.
"Slightly anak"
"Dad?!"
"Alam mo anak.." he walk towards me.
"You cannot give many rules to a child I swear they will not understand it anak yes they will follow but the rest of the day your daughter will forget about it. You can discipline your daughtef by saying what is wrong and what is right"
Mukhang ako pa ata yung nasermonan ni daddy i'm very thankful to have him in life we already passed so many struggles but my mom seems no likely to see us again.
"Thank you dad"
He just smiled at me.
"Sleep now Zia"
Hindi man lang nakakaramdam ng pagid tong anak ko kahit sa flight namin hindi siya napagod basta't nakatulog siya ng three to four hours thas okay with her.
Lumabas ako ng kwarto niya ng makita ko si daddy na naghihintay sa labas.
"Need help dad?"
"No anak, I can't believed that you are now a mother"
I slighlt smiled. "But just like you I can't even give her a complete family"
"I'm sorry for what decisions I did back then i don't want to lose you anak"
"Dad I'm not going to leave you"
"I know but now that you have a daughter you're going to decide on your own and I'm not used to it" pagda drama ni daddy.
"Enough for the dramas dad" natawa lang siya sa sinabi ko.
"Anyway tomorrow you're going to have meeting with our competitors and this will be a big decision making to do anak so goodluck"
"Name it dad"
"I don't have any Idea Gabriella, find it out darling"
Hindi na ako tumutol pa ano pa't nagstudy ako ng business course sa ibang bansa kung hindi ko lang magagamit I was enrolled to the one of the greatest school in italy.
I was so early the other day i'm using a plain black dresssed with a stilleto partner
It with a designer bag that I bought in italy. Wala pang masyadong tao kasi maaga pa masyado sinadya ko talag ito para may magagawa ako habang naghihintay ng oras para sa meeting mamaya.
"You are my dads secretary right?"
Tumango siya.
"Please give me all the unfinished business of my dad"
Umupo ako sa swivel chair at nagsimula ng isa isahin basahin yung mga papeles na nasa table niya. Ang daming kalaban ni daddy including ang mga Madrials but their company name was really below tje list is it possible that they will not competiting us.
"Ma'am may report po akong natanggap mula sa finance department na may nawawalang 30M sa bank account ng company. Heto po yung Initial reports nila"
Napahilot ako ng sentido habang tinatawagan si daddy.
"Dad did you know about this 30M?" Agap ko.
"Yes and I don't have enough evidence to help me catch the thief"
"Okay Dad I'll help you about this issue"
"Okay, please don't forget to eat i know how hardworking you are"
"Okay bye"
Pagkababa ko ng cellphone ang siyang bukas rin ng opisina ko.
"Ma'am andiyan na po yung investors ng company at yung mag co-contract for partnership"
Akala ko ba mamaya pa to sisimula? Syempre wala na akong magawa andito na eh.
"Ms. Rivera Its nice to finally meet you" sabi mg isang medyo may edad na.
"Its my pleasure Sir"
"Cut that formal calling just call me Mr. Boston"
"Mr. Boston" ulit ko.
All of them are inside now and they already introduce themsleves i choose to have a meeting inside my office instead having it inside the conference hall.
"Ms. Rivera this is Mr. Madrial"
Imbes na kamayan ko siya hindi ko nagawa dahil himdi ko inaasahan na siya or company nila ang gustong makipag partnership sa kompanya ni daddy.
I just smiled at him and never hold his hand for shaking.
"Okay, lets stary" deklara ko.
Nagtayo ang secretary ko para magsalita.
"Today's meeting we are going to do Decision making meeting regarding the partnership of our previous competitor na Madrial International Airport"
Pagkatapos non umalis na siya tabi ko. I can handle this. Nakatingin ng seryoso saakin si James at hindi ko maiiwasang mailang.
Nag clear throat muna ako. "I had receive the report of financial department and it stated here that someone stole 30M" diretsong sabi ko.
Nagbulong-bulongan ang mga tao sa mesang piname-meetingan namin.
"But i will do my best to have a deep investigations about it"
"Ms. Rivera as investors of this company.."
Tumingi siya kay James na seryosong naka tingin saakin. Napa 'What the hell?' Look ako sa kanya.
"I suggest Mr. Madrial to have talks to you Ms. Rivera for what he can do to make our investors worth and what will be their contributions?"
"What is the use of this meeting?" Tumaas na ang kilay ko sa kanya.
Relax Gabbi.
"What I'm trying to---"
"If you have something to do Sir you can now leave this four corners room" sabi ko.
"Ms. Rivera our company needs to have partnership because the new competitors are big" may balak pa pala tong magsila.
"Our? Or yours? Bumabagsak na ba kayo?" Seryosong tanong ko.
"Just tell me if you don't want us here Ms. Rivera" sabi niya.
"A simple question and seems like it is hard for you to answer it"
Alam kong tensyonado yung mga tao sa paligid namin dahil sa sagutan namin.
"You insulting my company thats not a question"
"Thats not insulting Mr. Madrial i'm stating a fact and i'm just trying your patience i need it in my company i don't want impatience that doesn't show any interest on work"
Someone cleared a throat.
"Ms. Rivera our final decision will email you as soon as we finalized the everything"
"Okay thank you gentlemens' for the time"
To respect them I go closer to them to shake hands but not to James. Alam kong sinadya niyang magpahuli hinatak niya yung braso ko.
"What is your problem Abbi?"
"You! And now please go out now"
Hindi pa rin siya umaalis.
"If you don't want then I'm going to move out" sabi ko.
Umalis na agad ako sa loob feeling ko pag magtagal pa ako doon mas lalo lang ako mahihirapan.