The Billionaire's Hidden Heir

Chapter 2: Going back home

Vanessa's POV

“Mommy?”

My eyes shifted to my son who is standing in front of my door. He smiles at me that somehow comfort me. Should I just go alone, and leave my son here? In that way I could able to protect him. My life is a mess, and I want him out of my cruel world.

“Is there something wrong, Mommy? Are you tired? ” he asked, this time he looks concern. He stopped in front of me. “Should I massage you, Mommy?”

I chuckle as I carry him and make him seat on my lap. He is the only one I have, and I will do everything to protect him. I won't let anyone to hurt him.

"I'm fine, Baby." I kissed his forehead before I hug him tightly.

I still am thinking if going back home is really a good thing to do. I can quit to my work if I want to, however I know that's being selfish and coward. I closed my eyes as I took a deep breath again.

"Baby, I have something to say to you." He face me with a bright smile pasted on his face. I gulped. "You see, mommy got promoted." His smile became brighter and wider.

"Really, Mommy? That's a good thing! Yey!" He hugged me afterwards he plants little kisses all over my face. "But Mommy, why do you keep sighing? You should be happy."

Sometimes I still wondering, is he really my son? He is only five and yet he is acting as if he is already an adult. Every time I feel blue he is always there to comfort me, and makes things lighter. I really am happy to have him.

"Look, Baby. I'll be gone for like I don't know... the company I'm working want me to work far away from here, and you can't come with me." I already made up my mind, I will leave him here. That's the only thing I know so that I could be able to protect him. "I don't want to leave you, so I'm thinking if..."

"Mommy," he cut me off. He cup my face. "Aren't you going to come back here again?"

I was froze for a second. "Of course not, I will visit you if I have time, but Baby... I don't want to leave you here." I know it's a lie. I can actually bring him with me, but I don't have courage to do that.

"Mommy, I'll be fine. I have aunt Merry and Jeco. We can have a video call everyday." He hugged me. I wasn't able to stop my tears to fall. This is so f*****g guilty.

"I'm sorry, Baby," I said. Tears keep falling to my eyes especially when I saw his smile.

"Mommy, I'll be fine. So stop crying." He kissed my eyes afterwards he hugged.

I'm sorry son, this is only the way I can protect you. If Maxwell found out about you, I'm afraid that he will take you away from me. I will protect you against your father.

The next day, I became busier because I need to deal with a lot of things. I prepare all the things I need, attended a lot of meetings, and talk with Mr. Chiangco with the things I need to do. I will be the one that will manage the branch company, that's why I need to learn the whole situation so that I will be able to manage it properly. This is actually a good break to me, for five years I really work hard to get this promotion however I didn't know that this promotion will damn going to lead me home.

I took a deep breath.

"You don't need to worry about Eli, Nessa, however are you really sure that you will leave him here?"

The tears I keep trying to stop not to fall suddenly fell off. Leaving my son here is a selfish decision of me, but I can't risk my son, no, not him. I will going to miss him, and he will live his life alone here, I know even though Merry will stay with him — still I want to raise him in a comfortable life and family, but sadly I can't give him that.

Merry hold my hands, tightly. My heart is in so much pain for these past few days. Every time I see my son, and the thought that I will soon leave him already kills me.

"I know the decision you made will be hard for the both of you, however you just did what you think is best for him. Eli understand your decision, so leave without worry." She smile at me. I wipe away my tears.

"I feel sorry to my son, Merry. I feel sorry to him." I cover my face out of frustration.

I drink in one shot my beer in can. Why do I need to go through this again? This is f*****g suffocating me. I know I can't back down to this anymore, but why... why do I need to feel anxious again? I’m so exhausted… so exhausted... but then I have Elijah, and he needs me more than anyone else. I’m only the one he has. I need to be strong for him.

"Nessa, look. In order for you to protect him, you must be strong and learn to protect yourself first. You will go there to work, yes, there might be a possibility that your path will cross, however no matter what happen, face it... face it fearlessly."

I closed my eyes. Merry is right. This anxiousness will only lead me in the wrong path. Five years had passed already, and probably Maxwell already forgot my existence, and we actually don't have any connections at all, so why am I worrying as if he will do something that will break me. What matters to me right now is that, no one knows about Elijah. If hiding my son forever will make us peaceful, I will do that so I could just be at ease.

I never wasted my spare days in nothing anymore. I will make sure after I leave I will be able to make my son happy, because he deserves it.

I watch my son happily playing with his friends at the school playground together with Jeco. Merry isn't here today, so I was left babysitting. I smiled again when Eli wave at my direction with a beautiful smile on his face.

He is growing too fast, and I want him to enjoy more of his childhood. It feels like yesterday when I have him in my arms crying as I slowly dance him with a sleepy eyes. Honestly at first, I'm actually afraid to even touch him. I don't know how to raise him, because I don't have any idea how to be a mother. When Lili ordered me to get rid of him, at first, I think I should, but I can't — and so my decision lead me in a happy memory. Eli is my life, and I won't let anyone ruin him. Not again.

"Mommy!" Eli happily run towards me so I immediately welcome him together with Jeco.

The thought of leaving him really makes my heart break into pieces, but I need to be strong.

"Let’s go have some ice-cream." I hold their hand as they both happily nodded.

Being a single mother is not easy especially when it's your first time and unexpectedly, but at the same time this feeling is very fulfilling especially when you see your child happily growing.

"Aunt Nessa, is it true that you are leaving?" Jeco suddenly asked, he licks his ice-cream as I slowly nodded.

"I told you, Jeco, Mommy will leave to reach her dream, right Mommy?" Oh damn! I felt a hot liquid to my eyes, but thankfully I able to stop it from falling. I smile as I wipe the side of Eli's lips.

"So Jeco, protect Eli for me, okay?"

Jeco smile and nod afterwards. "Don't worry about Eli, aunt Nessa, I will protect him for you," he said as he shows me his pinky. "Pinky promise." l chuckled as I sealed the pinky promise he offer.

I watch them happily eating their ice-cream. Eli will be happy and safe here. This is for the better. This is for him. We didn't stay long at the ice-cream parlor. I sent Jeco home afterwards.

When we finally got home, I carry Eli. He maybe got tired from playing that's why he fell asleep. I slowly lay him down to his bed. I was about to get off from his head when suddenly he calls me.

"Mommy, I love you."

My heart break into pieces when he starts crying. Oh damn it. I immediately hug him. I know he is also in pain, and it's a selfish of me to neglect what actually he feels. I'm so focus to my own frustration, and didn't think of his.

"I'm sorry, Baby. I'm sorry." I keep apologizing to him as I let myself cry too. I cup his face as I brush away his tears. He cup my face too as he also started to brush away my tears.

"Mommy, you're leaving tomorrow... I'll miss you."

I tried my best to stop my tears but I can't actually help but to cry. I hug him again, tighter. While he keep saying how much he loves, I can't say anything but to feel so sorry.

"I'm sorry, Baby."

If I could just take you with me without worrying... I will take you.

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