Misguided Hearts

VII

Phae

Balisang balisa ako habang nasa loob ako ng private office ni Scor. Hindi ako mapirmi sa isang tabi and I kept glancing anxiously at the conference room door na kadugtong nitong opisina nIya.

Damn! Sh*t!

I know for a fact na hindi ako kulang sa s*x! I just had s*x with Hera before I got up to meet my devil brother. So, why on earth am I feeling hot and bothered right now?

Bwisit na Scor kasi 'yan!

Thoroughly f*cked. Thoroughly f*cked.

Ahh! Sh*t! Hindi mawala sa isip ko yung sinabi niya na 'yon! Why? I should be disgusted, right? The thought of having s*x again with a guy should totally repulse me! But why! Why—in the name of all that's holy—am I feeling tingly all over? Nasapo ko ang noo ko. This isn't happening! Hindi na dapat ako apektado sa Scor na 'to! Nakakadiri siya!

And did you see how he looked at me earlier? Damn f*ck! Nag-iinit ako nang husto sa mga titig niya. It's as if he's f*cking me with his eyes, if that's even possible. I felt that delicious tingling in the lower half of my body again. Oh, damn. All because of Scor? Really, v*gina? You're that low? Ang baba ng standards mo, ha?

I nervously wring my fingers. I need a distraction! Hindi pwede itong ganito! Nauulol ako sa sobrang libog! I wanna weep, sh*t!

I called my girlfriend.

I was still pacing around the spacious room as I waited for her to pick up her phone. Ni hindi man lang ako na distract sa pagkagulat ng kuya ko na magkasama pa rin kami ni Scor. Wala naman daw siyang sinabi na sumama ako! Kaya nga ako naiwan dito sa opisina ng demonyong iyon habang sila abala sa pagsa-strategize sa gagawin nilang paghahanap kay Charlie sa loob ng conference room.

Nagsinungaling ang gagong Scor na 'yon! Pero hindi man lang ako nagalit! Instead I was busy trying to picture what position he's going to f*ck me on that damned bike! Is it dog style? Maybe. Ah snap! Enough!

"Phae, baby?"

I soon as I heard Hera's voice, I rushed towards the door opposite the conference room which I knew was a restroom. I made sure I locked it before turning my attention back to my phone. "Hi, baby.." I said in a breathy voice.

"Hey, what's up? Nakausap mo na ba ang kuya mo?"

"Yeah, we're done talking. I'm in his friend's office." I tried unclasping my bra with one hand while the other one's grasping my phone against my ear. Hindi iilang beses na sinubukan namin ni Hera ang phone s*x. Heck, we even did skype s*x twice—no, thrice! At lahat iyon na-enjoy namin. Siguro naman hindi niya mamasamain kung mag-initiate ako ngayon? After all, I need some release. Kung hindi mababaliw ako sa sobrang horny ko! "Hera, baby, are you busy? Are you doing anything?"

"Uhm, no, what—"

"Remove your clothes, baby." My voice is full of urgency. I know that I'm about to do right now is probably wrong. But I badly needed to get myself off the edge. Cause if not, I'd seriously combust the hell out of me!

I heard her chuckling on the other line and some shuffling, proof that she's taking her clothes off. "I'm ready baby.. I like that you're up to something adventurous right now, that's so hot," sambit niya sa pinalambing na boses.

"I know," I murmured as my hand found its way up to my bare breasts. "Touch your breasts, baby, imagine me nipping those pebbled nipples."

She moaned. "Ahh, God, baby. . . I want more. . ."

"Do you want me to suck it, babe, huh?" napaigtad ako nang pisilin ko ang sarili kong dibdib. "I'm going to suck your n*pples so hard, Hera, you like that, right?" Nag-init nang husto ang pakiramdam ko. God! I badly wanted to touch myself! "I'm going to suck it right now, baby. . ."

"Yes! Yes! Suck it," she whimpered.

"I want you to know how much I want to taste you down below." I'm breathing heavily. My right hand edged to the belt of my pants, slowly unbuckling it and going back to caressing my flat stomach. Dumidiin ang bawat haplos ko habang naririnig ko ang ungol ni Hera sa kabilang linya. "I wanna suck your cl*t—so bad and push my tongue inside your very wet vagi—"

There was loud knocking on the door. "Phaedra, are you in there?"

F*CK!!

"Is that your brother?" Hera asked on the other line.

"Sh*t! Yes, it's him! Bwisit talaga!" I whispered angrily as I buckled my belt.

"Phae! Nandyan ka ba?" he asked again followed by another loud knocking.

"Yeah! J—just a minute!" I croaked. Bwisit! Dakilang istorbo talaga 'tong kapatid ko! "I'm really sorry babe, sh*t! Hindi ko alam na babalik sila agad."

"Who are you talking to?" si Drae ulit.

"No one!" sigaw ko. Binuksan ko ang tubig sa lababo para hindi niya marinig ang usapan namin ni Hera. "I'm going there, baby, as soon as I can, I. . . Babawi ako, I promise!"

Tumawa lang siya. "It's okay, baby, I have a dinner later with, you know."

Sh*t! Naalala kong sinabi niya na babalik daw ang fiance’ niya galing sa US ngayong araw at may dinner daw sila kasama ang pamilya niya. I got jealous but she reassured me that it was nothing and she was just trying to humor her parents. Huminga ako nang malalim. "Alright then."

"Phae, what the hell's taking you so long? I so f*cking hope you're not having phone s*x in there or I swear to God!" malakas na sigaw ng kapatid ko na nasundan pa ng tawanan ng mga kaibigan niya sa labas.

"What the hell, Kuya!?" namumula ang mukhang sigaw ko. Tama bang i-broadcast pa iyon? When will he ever get a freakin’ mouth filter or something?! "Jesus, I'm just trying to pee in here! Don't get ideas in your head!"

"Get out of there now! I need to speak with you!" he said laughing.

Uhg! That guy! Bakit ba 'ko nagkaroon ng kapatid na gaya niya?

Walang pagsidlan ang tawa ni Hera sa kabilang linya. "Don't worry, I can finish up on my own baby," she teased. "Specially now I've heard Drae's voice, I can fantasize over that."

"Ugh baby, you're so gross!"

She laughed again and we both said our goodbyes. Sana lang ma-cancel ang date nila ng fiance niya. What a shitty day!

Sinigurado kong maayos na ang itsura ko bago ako lumabas. I specially made sure that my bra is on. Yun lang naman ang tinaggal ko kanina. Paglabas ko ay sinalubong agad ako ng nakangising mukha ni Drae at Liam. Ram's moping on one corner—that's so insensitve of me to use moping to describe what he's doing—accompanied by Z and RD. Caleb's missing, although I sort of couldn't remember him being here cause I'm too distracted. While the cause of my distraction, Scor's scowling and seated on the couch.

"What?" I snarled at my jackass brother. Itinulak ko siya sa balikat.

"I got a call from the hospital, my patient's already prepped. I need to go," aniya. "Scor told me nasa bahay niya ang kotse mo, kaya lang hindi pa siya uuwi. He's got tons of things to do."

Nasusuyang tumingin ako kay Scor. "That is so gentleman of you," i spat.

Dadalhin dalhin niya 'ko rito—kahit di naman ako kailangan ni Drae—tapos di niya ‘ko ihahatid pauwi? Kahit man lang sa sasakyan ko. What is he? A monster. Napakasama ng ugali!

"Pwede kang sumabay kay Ram, dun din naman ang daan niya." nag-aalalang sabi ni Drae. "I really need to go, Sis, emergency eh. I'm sorry." Hinalikan niya 'ko sa pisngi at sumibat na.

Ayokong sumabay kay Ram. He's. . .Depressed. Hanggang ngayon hindi pa niya nahahanap ang asawa niya. He might cry and I wouldn't know what to say! Oh dear. Napakawalang hiya kasi maski kailan ng Scor na ito! Lahat na lang ng kamalasan sa buhay dinanas ko na dahil sa presensya niya!

"Magtataxi na lang ako," I gathered my things. "Ram, can you please just tell my kuya you dropped me by Scor's house, please? Ayokong mag-alala siya. I'll be fine, though."

"Wha—"

Sasagot sana si Ram when Scor interrupted. "Or you can just stay here and wait for me to finish working then I could drop you home myself."

"No thanks!" masungit na sabi ko sa kanya. "Sagad na ang pasensya ko sa’yo."

Tumalikod na ako at inignora ang mga protesta nila nang biglang hawakan ako ni Scor sa braso. "Ano ba? Hawak ka nang hawak ah?"

"Niyakap mo nga ako kanina, e."

“Hoy, ano ‘yan, ha? Sumbong ko kayo kay Drae!”

“Shut up, Liam,” Scor said without looking away from me.

Tinulak ko siya palayo. "You're such an assh*le!" gigil na sabi ko. Pero hinila pa rin niya 'kong palapit sa matipuno niyang katawan. Tumama ang balikat ko sa dibdib niya. He really should stop doing this! Nasa harap kami ng mga kaibigan ng kuya ko! I looked at them anxiously.

"Who were you talking to inside the restroom?" he asked. Nagdilim nang husto ang mga mata niya. Sa sobrang lapit namin sa isa't isa, I can smell him. It was an intoxicating mix of mint and spice. Kumibot ang labi ko habang siya naman ay titig na titig sa’kin. I felt my knees turned into jelly. Nakakapanghina siya kung tumingin, badtrip!

"Wala ka na do’n!" muli ko siyang sinubukang itulak. Please, please. Sana bitawan na niya 'ko habang nasa katinuan pa 'ko! "Ano ba, Scorpio Ledesma, let me go!"

"Is it true you're having phone s*x in there?" he asked.

Laglag ang panga ko. I felt my cheeks burned with so much humiliation. Talaga bang gagawin nya ito? He's harrassing me in front of his and my brother's friends! I wanted to seriously slap the hell out of him but before I was able to do that, someone snatched my arm.

"That's enough." ani Zeve na syang humila sa braso ko. "Ako nang maghahatid sa'yo, Phae," aniya bago siya bumaling kay Scor. "You better call your guards or whoever, make sure we can get inside to get her car."

Matagal na nagsukatan ng tingin si Scor at Zeve hanggang sa matigas ang leeg na tumango na lang si Scor. He shifted his intense glare at me. I flinched. Yumuko na lang ako at tinitigan ang mga paa ko.

"Oh God! This room reeks of s****l tension, I better go." anunsyo ni Liam.

I heard the slamming of the door. I couldn't look at Scor. I don't wanna see him glowering down at me. Nakakahiya! s****l tension? Halatang halata na ba? I have to make sure I speak first with Liam before he gets to my brother. Ayokong makarating kay kuya ang nangyari ngayon dito.

"Are you ready to leave, Phae?" tanong ni Zeve.

Tumango lang ako, hindi ko magawang tumingin sa kanya. I don't wanna see his expression. I heard him said his goodbyes at giniya na niya ako palabas ng opisina. I also heard Ram hissing at Scor behind me.

"Stop looking at her like you wanna devour her! I'm gonna break your face, man!" he said. "You better get your act together before Drae hears about this. He's going to have your balls, and I swear no one's gonna be there to stop him."

"Ram stop picking a fight with everyone!" sawata naman ni RD sa kanya.

I shouldn't have heard that. Now, I have the image of Scor's balls in my mind. I badly need a cold shower!